Whenever I AP I never see anything beautiful anymore
Instead the world around me seems dark and dismal, and I'm always panicked as though something is trying to chase me
I miss ending up in tree realms and places with pretty fountains and fairies and nice people who share things with me
What's going on?
Also last night I tried to possess my mom for the purpose of attaining greater understanding of her, but her face morphed into a thousand different faces all bubbling up and out of her original face, and there was this "halo" of force that repelled me
Am I an evil person for attempting this?
Did that really happen or is it all in my head?
Is that normal?
How do you astral project?
What's your method, specifically
>going to sleep
>suddenly dysphoric brain surge
>I'm awake in my room, walking around
>do weird stuff, realize I'm not actually awake
I used to do it intentionally through meditation but I lack the focus for it nowadays, I feel like I've been altered and forgot how to do it
It's all in your head. You are under some stress, made a change recently, or have been watching more mainstream media lately and your subconscious is mirroring your outlook that the world sucks.
The fact that you ask about being an evil person explains why you failed to 'take over' your mother in your dream, you knew that wasn't a good or polite thing to do and had some reservations.
Eat more fruits and leafy greens, get some exercise, spend some time in the sun, and actively look for, notice, and appreciate the good in the world. A sound mind lives in a sound body, take care of that shit.