>haven't been able to sleep in the dark for 3 weeks now
Fuck sake. All because I for some reason hallucinated a woman with a veil on looking all sad at me while literally sitting on the side of my bed. She also happened to look golden and bright.
After about 4 seconds of staring at the thing I leant up and started randomly grabbing out at it, then laid back and it was still there. So I busted out my laptop for light and it started to "swirl" away.
It wasn't even that terrifying really, but the thought of something even more sinister popping up get me to no end. Has anyone else ever had this, you know without having psychosis? I haven't seen anything since.
I don't have any consolation for you OP except to say that you're not alone. I've experienced similar things and I know other people have too. I converted to Christianity to deal with my shit but it wasn't a quick fix. I wish you the best of luck.
The thing is I wasn't scared at first, so I felt nothing but being calm if anything with a bit of disbelief. I let out a quiet "what the hell" while I pawed at it but that was it.
I was a little sleepy when it happened, but one it happened I got up to turn the light on and didn't go back to sleep till day light so I know it isn't a false awakening. Now at night I feel fucking shit scared and have to have the light on, and feel very uneasy.
Is it really that common among people? and has it really happened that much to you that you have become Christian? sounds like you were terrified, I'm sorry to hear that.
You need some sleep. You're only going to get more paranoid as you stay up longer. See if you can stay with friends or just leave the television on. Sleep on your side, and just know that the sleep deprivation and stress might end up causing you an episode of sleep paralysis, but you'll be okay. Hold something soft and comforting near your cheek. If you have any lavender essential oil, maybe dab a drop on the top of your pillow. Be at peace and rest.
A golden aura can represent overwhelming positivity also wisdom or some shit. What ever it was it had good intentions. I'd try to be.more welcoming and see what happens. And since you're a robot you're probably not the happiest of.people so idk. Stop being a bitch and see if this thing comes back.
This truly is a remarkable coincidence. Just last night I was awakened by an extremely bright golden light (mind you I was still disoriented from awaking) and in the corner of my eye a sudden flash occurred, and what looked like a women with a veil appeared on the side of my bed. I was quite startled for a bit, but whatever it was it didn't sinister in the slightest. I ended up just dozing off a couple minutes after, truly bizarre.
This. You are lucky you hallucinated something positive and you will only feed into your paranoia if you continue to stay up.
Drink more beer, find some melatonin, and go to bed.