You all are also constantly explaining vidya related stuff to people in your head, right?
i do it from time to time, but i only really worry about it when i realize at some point in the explanation i've actually been saying the words.
Sometimes I even pretend I'm let's playing a game, narrating/commenting as I play all in my head.
Holy fucking shit I thought I was the only one.
I'm not alone! I thought I was the only one who did this. Though it's usually music rather than vidya. Often when I listen to music, I pretend I'm listening with another imaginary person, to whom I explain the music, lyrics, artist history, discographical context, and personal significance to myself.
Before you ask, yes, I actually am autistic.
Yes, this is because I have no friends.
I do it with anime sometimes too, but mostly vidya.
>Using IQ to measure intelligence
Try harder anon
I love explaining shit to myself like I'm trying to teach somebody. I guess it's all I have.
Everything is gonna be daijoubu, homeboi
I often answer said questions whilst referencing my ex, thinking she's still with me. It would have been three years in February.
Sure I do this, but I do it with everything and have discussions/conversations with myself constantly, it has come to the point that I have to try really hard to stop myself from speaking to myself in public.
loneliness at its finest I suppose.
am i taking it too far, is this unhealthy, anyone here doing the same?
I just don't know who to talk to.
>used to play multiplayer games by myself because I had no friends
YOU CAN'T MAKE THIS SHIT UP
I talk to myself all the time, I need friends.
Yeah. I sure do. I want some friends to sit around and play games with that I can explain things to.
Sometimes I'll just go through my comic collection and pretend I'm introducing each book to an imaginary person.
What does it mean?
I do, and it helps me stay happy which is all that matter.
Even when I'm driving I often explain things out loud to a non-existent passenger.
If it helps with the loneliness, then it is a good thing.
i don't care about you anon, you could die and I would never notice because you are anon, if you want friends you need to look elsewhere not an anonymous image site
It makes me feel like shit when I think about that, I've never been able to make friend although it's a normal human skill.
Can we talk about video games?
Yeah, this. You have something you enjoy, and you want to share it. This is what drives teachers and instructors to do what they do. They can share their passion and leave a mark on the world.
>play a game I like alot and know really well
>imagine explaining it to people who are interested in hearing me
Yes. For many things that aren't video games, as well.
So go have a conversation with someone that cares enough to pretend to care.
Because I don't.
i hope you find someone though
>You all are also constantly explaining vidya related stuff to people in your head, right?
Let's not bring that argument up, okay?
I absolutely don't talk to imaginary friends based on real people I know in hypothetical situations about various arguments I can give monologues about.
I'm not lonely nor crazy okay?
>doing chores around the house
>hear video game voice files in your head
>"ugh do I have to do the dishes today? I don't wanna..."
>"It's the right thing to do."
>"Okay, I'll do it"
>Talk to myself about game
>Voice in head sounds so loud, get paranoid if I spoke some of it and others heard
I had friends throughout my life until the last two years of high school. At first I thought my friends abandoned me, but really I abandoned them. I stopped inviting them over, I stopped talking to them, I refused to use Facebook, and I always got mad when I was always left out of parties and shit.
Now I've had no friends for years and, once again, I thought that it was a bad thing... until my friends called me recently. I see the name on my phone, but I never answered until one day. My group of friends all said "Anon!!!" and were delighted that they finally got in contact with me. They invited me over, but I told them that I had work to do and couldn't but I'd like to hang out some other time.
They called a few times afterwards, and I never answered the phone. They left voicemails where they are all excitedly telling me to pick up the phone, but I never do.
They finally stopped calling a few months ago.
This is a picture of the last person who asked
Mostly the mechanics of online shootans
if any of you would like to know anything about Insurgency meta I can tell you
>Someone ask a normie if they do it, too.
>any opportunity to post this
I work in a call centre and the other day an older man called in because he'd received one of our products by mistake. I thanked him for letting us know, and he said he appreciated the opportunity to talk because he lived alone; his wife had walked out on him a while back after he was diagnosed with cancer.
People like to talk, it doesn't matter that much who to.
Hey like I said, myriad of issues.
Can't risk talking to people so carelessly.
There's two people in my head, I have no personality disorders of course but those two people are still there, one uses my name and it's pretty normal, the other uses my main Internet nickname and he's a anon tier faggot.
So if I think something stupid or edgy the normal part tells the other to shut up and viceversa.
You can't beat my autism.
I've accepted my fate of being loney forever
I use the interent to fill my void of acceptance and socializing
Unrelated, please say you enjoy my webms
as you were
>tfw my friends tries to talk to me about generating 3d graphics from his job and all the math involved in the process
>tfw i just say "sounds neat" and understand nothing, but know it makes him feel better to share his interests
It's more of a pretend play indeed but it kinda pops out on its own, like when you see words and you read them inside your head without even thinking about it. So I guess it's semi-automated?
Of course I don't actually hear voices or anything but yeah I'm dirty lonely.
>tfw pretend to explain the mgs story to someone
>tfw no friends and even if I did have any, they wouldn't give a shit
Tell me about it
It's a shame it's the only good thing about the game
>have only three friends but they're super close to me
>I'm great at faking interest into others' stuff
>they all dump their passions into me, because they know I'll look it up and say it's cool and all that
>try to get any of them into a movie/manga/videogame/whatever
>two of them always say "yeah sure" then never talk about it again
>the other ignores the message completely
Welp, atleast I know I'll never be a salesman.
I don't care about anyone and no one cares about me, but your pic reminded me that I have a little folder with images like these.
These always hit close to home.
I explain what i am doing when playing vidya to this doll. How creepy is that?
>tfw my 20th birthday was a just a few days after being robbed and having almost all my stuff stolen
>tfw my friends who i had only known for about 5 months let me stay in their house
>tfw they made a huge birthday breakfast for me
Same -- mostly when it comes to academics, and especially history.
Thinking I might become a teacher.
reminder she's doing better now
>my character burns to death
>start softly screaming like I'm also burning to death
Please tell me I'm not the only one
I do this a lot when I'm trying to fall asleep. I'll be completely exhausted and still unable to fall asleep because I can't stop explaining Hearthstone mechanics or whatever to an imaginary future girlfriend. How fucking pathetic is that?
I do it because a friend told me it's harder than you think to come up with entertaining commentary while also being gud at the game. That was years ago, now I can't stop.
Wrong. Actually I'm constantly explaining how grammar works.
I get lost in this fantasy where I am back in high-school in the cinema room with the big projector.
I am playing this videogame I made (of which I have every mechanic, character, lore, etc down to a T, in front of my previous classmates and explain its mechanics to them I also immagine the occasional "wow" from them
>showed evangelion to my brother and explained it to him as we went along
>pointing out quality of the animation, history of anno and the project and funding, references to earlier science fiction literature and mecha anime that inspired anno, etc etc
>he didn't really care about any of it
>will never have anyone i can sperg out about how awesome a certain film, book, tv show, game, etc. is because nofriends
Yes and I talk out loud sometimes too, it feels less lonely this way. Sometimes I act like I'm explain everything to a complete noob, trying to find the best words so he/she can understand faster.
HA HA HA
YOU FUCKING WEIRDO
i do it all the time and i'm fairly certain i'm wrong most of the time too
unlike some fucking faggots claiming here, it isn't an autistic trait, I used to do that, but stopped doing it when I matured. I used to do it from time to time when I was in my 20's
Not him, but i woukd recommend you Play hunter, warlock or pally, look u a cheap netdeck and play against other decks until you find one that looks fun. Then work towards building that deck.
>die in a game
>become even angrier
>imagine /v/ is watching me and telling me I'm shit and comparing me to DSP every time I die
>start getting unspeakably angry at the imaginary group of people in my head
>begin to slam my fist down on my keyboard in anger or punch walls or a pillow or something
>mom has to yell at me to calm down
>spend the rest of the day feeling frustrated and ashamed at my outburst
FUCK YOU /v/ THIS IS WHAT YOU'VE DONE TO ME
EVEN WHEN I'M NOT BROWSING THIS SHIT HOLE YOU'RE THERE TO MAKE ME FEEL LIKE GARBAGE
Man, it was so fucking fun introducing my gf to all my favorite games and watching her react to that shit, it's like a microcosm of experiencing something for the first time again.
This is honestly the driving force why I even want children. I hate every single thing about the prospect of having kids: the work you need to do, the monetary cost, needing to be involved with a woman for conception (and that's a whole other can of worms), the annoyance of infants, the stress, etc, all that shit, sounds like a fucking nightmare... except sharing shit with them.
Sharing shit with a mini-me is like the dankest thing I can even think of. It's like giving someone a do-over of my life. I can teach them all the shit I learned, introduce them to all the stuff I liked, and then hope they won't fuck it all up as bad as I did and love them even if they do fuck up as bad as me.
It's honestly what drives me forward to learn and do new shit, because I can share all this with my miniature self offspring.
There's stuff about Arena that I don't really get, mana curve and when it's acceptable to coin and how to 'see' the synergy between cards. I'm stuck with shitty decks since I'm a low dust pleb. But I know eventually I'll understand more. Still, it would be nice to have a more knowledgeable player coach or help out a bit.
I explain things to people but its not about video games. I act like I'm teaching a lesson about different areas of life. Its even gotten to the point where I'm making jokes, hanging out with imaginary friends, or giving my reaction to things while others watch. What the hell is wrong with me. Maybe this is a product of having too much belief of self-worth
I talk to myself in my head about video games quite often. Even when I have a friend also interested in the game to talk to, I talk about it in my head first to organize my thoughts and prepare topics.
But as a very recent example, I know for a fact that he will not care about the lives of fictional representations of Japanese historical figures in shitty button mashing games. So I keep it to myself and the thought organization goes nowhere.
I mentally talk to myself so hard when I'm in bed that I can stay up for an hour just lying there thinking about anything and everything.
I'll find myself doing that sometimes, yep. But also, I've had an idea for a story for a long time, that I've grown to love. So much so that I'm willing to have it in either film, animation or vidya. Not fussed.
I'll often sit there, or lie in bed, imagining the scenes in my head, the characters, the music, and imagine people loving it.
I just wish I had the money, staff and resources to make it happen ;_;
This is turning into a fucking blog post, but this is basically blog post: the thread so anything goes!
I've literally never done this with vidya. I occasionally do it with cultural or historical concepts. Like I'll imagine myself explaining the social dynamics of Game of Thrones to someone, or how the Sack of Baghdad affected the middle east, or explaining modern society to a theoretical time traveler. Autism unite!
>listen to song
>imagine yourself singing it in front of your class and people thinking "woah this guy has talent"
>in reality you are a failure with no friends
It's a split between lonely people who probably watch twitch streams or let's plays and when they play games themselves, they might fantasize about having an audience or a friend or gf or whatever to explain things to. Then there's people with PTSD/schizophrenia etc. who enter daydreams for hours on end or talk to voices in their head.
I usually walk around mentally talking/thinking to myself for about a half an hour before I get into bed, and when I do get into bed I usually drift off to sleep within 15 minutes.
>Maybe everyone does it.
It's safe to say a good deal of people do this, it's often done as a learning mechanism, in school, some people learn stuff by writing them down, others by reading it out loud.
Talking out loud and explaining your play as if you're "let's playing" to yourself is just a manifestation of how you've accustomed your brain to handle information.
I guess so. I mean, I don't share a lot of peoples views though, like I'm not concerned with 'continuing my bloodline' though and I don't feel like my life will be invalidated if I don't have offspring, and I don't care about the social status of having kids, I just want to share shit with them.
Also I grew up a massive weeb and now that I'm fluent in Japanese, I think it would be pretty fucking cool to have some bi-lingual kids who get to enjoy a bunch of weebshit without even putting in the effort like I had to.
>have basically an entire sci-fi novel of lore written in my head that I add to every night, it helps me sleep
>it's about humanity discovering ftl travel accidentally and establishing routine trade with an alien race of purple horselike people
>gradually humans start eroding their society through osmosis, meanwhile terrorism from both planets threatens the spaceports for human ships carrying goods and a Chinese/Russian military colony is quietly established on one of their moons
>explaining things to myself in my head
>go over every detail
>segue into other aspects nicely
>explaining to an irl friend
>mess up explaining
>say things in the wrong order
>probably just confuse him more
Why can't it be this easy?
I constantly do shit like this. Sometimes I think about making a YouTube channel for game reviews where I can just be as passionate as I want about games I love and games I hate. I mostly end up just writing them down as long notes in my phone or word documents but never upload them anywhere.
Same here. I often dream of a game using what I loved most in real games I played, and imagine a reveal happening at a E3 or any big event and all people loving it.
I also comment and explain to myself about something interesting I find when playing, be it lore or some quest.
Wish I had a cool gf to play with and explain things. I feel lonely as fuck. ;-;
The things in your head aren't as crisp and segue as nicely as you think they do. Our brains are actually very adept at convincing ourselves that our thoughts are way more cogent and cohesive than they really are. It's not that different from dreaming, if you try to retrace your steps from a dream, you start to see how quickly things become unhinged and lose cohesion.
At least that's my crackpot theory. I think we have to retrain our monkey brains to organize thoughts so that they fit reality, and some people have a harder time with that than others. (Or some people have no complex thoughts whatsoever so they never really run into challenges)
>imagine you did it with your name on the cover art
>will receive interviews before launch and journalists say you're really artistic and it's well done
>get a 8.9 on IGN, editor's choice
>remember you're not that guy
>imagine you did it with your name on the theatre poster
>will launch in your city and people say you're really artistic and it's well done
>get a 8.9 on IMDb, top 250 movies of all time
>remember you're not that guy
>listen to album
>imagine you did it with your face as cover art
>will launch listening party in your class and people say you're really artistic and it's well done
>get a 8.9 on pitchfork, best new music
>remember you're not that guy
it hurts, stop this
I sometimes make comments about the game to myself out loud because I have no one else to.
A lot of people do this so it's pretty normal, right?
Yeah, I think our brains are very talented at telling us lies. "You don't need to go work out today", "We don't need to go running today", "Wow, that science fiction novel idea you had is really good, but we don't need to write anything out just yet", I think they're feelgood traps we fall into if we're not careful. I think it's important to identify and remove those feelings/thoughts and feelings and realize it's not real and that there's a part of your brain that is actively trying to fuck your shit up.
Yea, because no one else will listen to the shit that comes out of my mouth.
>most likely have some form of depression
>don't watch anime or any weebshit
Yeah, I get what you mean, I'll often even see a scene from a film/show/cartoon/anime on Youtube that I think is cool, then imagine the same scene with my own characters and tailor it in my mind to fit the story... sounds pretentious as fuck, and it is, but still.
>Playing a game i really like
>Imagine myself explaining the plot and gameplay mechanics to a friend
>Sometimes i explain the plot of the entire franchise and talk about how much the games evolved since the first one
>Mfw i realize ive been talking to myself out loud for the past 40 minutes
Yeah, that's probably true for me too. I even managed to find VAs that would work for free (in return for experience and getting their names out there), now I've pretty much let them down as I realised I'm fucking terrible at animation. I think they did sign up for multiple things, though, so hopefully they're alright.
When I listen to music, I always fantasize that I have a time machine that I've used to plagiarize it and release it decades early. It blows everyone's mind and has a massive influence on music for decades to come.
>Do this while playing the game
>Catch myself absent-mindedly repeating a string of 2-3 sentences for like 30 minutes straight without realizing
>Think it to myself for the rest of the day
Just make it stop already please. Shoot me if you have to
Yes, and it's getting worse as time goes by.
I do have friends, but none of them likes videogames. In fact, none of them knows I fucking like videogames at this level, the only time I get to talk about them with other people is here on /v/
I sure am, op.
I'm never really conscious about it but I think it's helped my conversational skills somewhat. When I'm playing a Tales of RPG I frequently think of how I would explain this weeaboo shit to my dad so that it doesn't sound retarded. it's difficult.
>imagine conversation between two people in your head
>from small talk it slowly derails into an unprecedented machine of continuing, escalating banter
>start laughing or imitate the smirks and faces one of those two are making in your mind
>it's just that in reality people don't know what you're thinking about and you shouldn't be laughing
I was lined up to become a teacher because I've always liked teaching people stuff, but then I learned about the systems and shit behind being a teacher.
That shit is fucking downright awful. No wonder schooling in the US is fucked, the behind the scenes is absolutely abysmal.
I tried to explain Abyss to my friend shortly after I beat it because I just had to talk about the game and had nobody else to turn to.
I deeply regretted it about halfway through the conversation.
Joke's on you fucker, 'cause this is actually Adrian.
So am I Mainly because of this thread, though. That's what set me off doing it again, I have ocd as well, so if there's a particular part of a particular track I like, I'll sometimes listen to that segment over and over
>mfw i'm an extremely relaxed and chill person
>cool with every type of humor, critics against me or attitude
>when i play videogames or lose i don't rage, i don't express anger
>i just put it down for a bit or i >>324181215
>always succeed, never ever not at peace with myself
Yeah, pretty much
Lately its been stuff about my dream game
Charaters, areas, bosses, plot, graphics, numbers
My brother! I usually repeat the segment I like but I don't think I have ocd. This "genre" is the only one that makes me feel better, it's been like this a quite some time now. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4ai1TQzobgA
>Thought about a time machine
>I could steal inventions and blow the minds of people in the past to make billions, explore thousands of years in the future/past
>Sometimes wait for my future self to suddenly appear and give me that time machine
>He never shows up
you may have anxiety, i too have the same problems. some days in bed i lay awake thinking what i'll say to jon steward on the jon steward show when im his guest. then i remember the show doesnt exist anymore. then i start to stop caring.
That depends. If I play a game that I've never hear anyone else talk about or mention, I feel like I can be the one that knows games that most people don't know of.
I'm still terrible at it when actually explaining stuff to someone.
I try to run through problems constantly, yeah. Sometimes I include thoughts to myself regarding standards in video games, and etc.
Because if it doesn't sound right in my head, why would it sound right when trying to argue against someone else?
Yeah I suppose listening to music over and over isn't exactly a sign of ocd haha, I just have ocd and always blamed that for the fact that I would listen to a particular segment of a particular track again and again
But damn, that track was gorgeous, I really need to play Chrono Trigger, I've been putting it off for ages in favour of other games.
Don't worry, and even if is, it's a good one for sure. I'm glad someone also does that.
Yeah, sometimes I end up having more fun replaying old games.
I always imagine someone's going to ask me "But WHY do you like ____?" or something similar, so I run through the imaginary conversation in order to figure out exactly why I liked ____ in the event that I am asked.
It helps for just learning about yourself, and being able to express those thoughts in clear, concise ways.
True that, man. Same here. It's getting pretty late over here, so I'm off. Cool to talk to a like-minded person though. Hopefully we can both create something or other in the future!
HOLY SHIT I am not the only one with this kind of autism. I do run an explanations in ither stuff in my head time to time, but it's often about video games.
I remember one time my good friend asked me something about a game, can't remember the game probably or dota or tf2, and I instantly shit a detailed explanation for him covering all aspects of his question, and it wasn't just a Wikipedia style copypaste in robot voice, it was a fucking crafted speech with an intonation and shit like asking 'and guess what do an average player does instinctively when he feels he is in danger?' and then waiting for his reply to explain further upon it. It was a whole conversation I crafted autistically in my mind, and when I finished it my friend thanked me...and jokingly asked if I prepare these explanations.., all I could reply to him was a retarded/awkward smile rising on my face like a rising sun reaching its uncunny width.
I usually imagine talking about weird stuff in a vidya to my sister. Preparation for when I actually do talk with her. She's especially interested in JRPG weirdness, so I make a point to tell her what's going on in what I'm playing. She's particularly fond of guy characters fujoshis might lose their minds over.
I talk to myself constantly. So much so that I keep myself awake at night having vivid conversations with people that aren't there. I only do this when alone but when I am alone I practically can't think unless it's out loud. Literally there for hours being both ends of a conversation about fucking nothing.
Am I crazy, /v/? It started as just normal thinking out loud, but it's evolved and I can't stop it.
I caught myself doing this on the drive to work the other day. Was explaining the improvements of Firs Emblem Fates over Awakening in my head just in case anyone ever needed me to tell them..
For the last few years, I have visualized the complete development of a video game in my head with me as its director, and I'm constantly doing interviews where I am asked all the right questions. I also go online to play with my fans occasionally. Kill me
What kind of a loser do you take me for?
Like every other fucking day just reflecting with projections and bouncing ideas off them, imagining the responses and responding to the imagined responses Yesterday the thought experiment was
to imagine someone says "where are all the female videogame characters" and I just go off on them as I name 100 playable female characters off the top of my god damn head
This is because twice on GT time they had a tie breaker for the dumb game at the end of their podcast and both times never named more than 5.
>tfw i think of my own adventures in the star wars world when trying to fall asleep
>i'm pretty much jaden korr, with my bud kyle katarn meeting and teaming up with all kotor 1 characters
call me autistic but i just can't think of anything else while falling asleep
Hard to say, I've never known anything else. But I think my diagnosis was a major turning point in my life. I was always a weird, hyperactive kid. I had a bad grasp on boundaries, social cues, appropriate contexts for behavior, etc. I felt different, but not in a bad way. Things changed around 6th-7th grade. I started realizing that the way I acted pushed people away, and made me a target for bullying. This caused a rapid change in my behavior. I was no longer an energetic and talkative autist, but the quiet kind that stares at the ceiling all day. I knew that way I acted was bad, but that was the only way I knew how to act. So, I tried not to act at all. This was only slightly better. I was still the weird kid people picked on, but I was less acutely irritating to everyone. This is also when my lifelong struggle with depression started. I was finally diagnosed autistic shortly afterwards, and then everything made sense. I wasn't just a weird kid, I had a cognitive disorder. But jsut because it made sense didn't mean I felt or acted much better. I struggled for a few years in public school (I even got committed for a month in 8th grade for suicidal behavior) until freshmen year, when I transferred to a charter school for autistic children. There, I interacted with a lot of other autists. It really helped with the loneliness, but even moreso it helped me contextualize autism from an outside perspective. "What is this other autist doing wrong? Am I like that too? I'm going to work on that, then." This, combined with speech therapy and social skills classes, have allowed me to grow into an almost-functional adult. I can pass pretty well for normal in public these days (at least superficially). I'm doing a lot better these days. It feels nice.
I think most of the normalfags actually lurk rather than post. The term has lost a lot of meaning in the last few years anyway. Like I lost my virginity at 16 and just got out of a year long relationship, but I also dropped out of highschool to play video games 7 years ago, finger my own asshole when I jerk off, am a NEET living off autism bucks, and once didn't go outside for 3 months straight. To name a few things.
Problem isn't normalfags. It's the no fun allowed everything is tumblr or reddit shit these days.
>Had some good friends years ago
>Lost touch because I'm a social luddite with no cellphone and some kind of weird aversion to social media
>Haven't seen any of them in like seven or eight years
>Imagine they're in the room with me like when we were kids playing vidya with me
>They laugh and we have a really good time
>Then afterwards we watch anime or something
>It's all good until something in the game or shows remind me I'm completely alone, I'll probably never have friends again, and the ones I did have never liked me anyway
I don't even know how you're suppose to make friends after school. Like all through university I didn't really make any friends despite trying to join clubs or go to bars. I just felt pathetic sitting there by myself, so eventually I just stopped going.
it's probably because i'm a massively unlikable fucking faggot holy shit video games
I'm installing Insurgency right now. I don't know if I should bother with a wiki before getting into the game (again) or not. I used to play coop maps alone or with random people and I usually did really good but just because I had decent aim and reflexs, besides things like know when bots respawn and things like that, I don't know much.
I don't feel like paying too much attention to a wiki now because of terrible experiences with others games with shitty wikis (like tf2). You almost always end up learning waaay more just playing the game and paying attention. I played some matches against people and they were really random, and some people trew shit at me for using the shotgun with slugs when Im decent with it. Did that attitude changed? I did not played it in more than a year, I think. Thank you very much.
btw. my ping is shit (170+) in most servers besides the local ones where people fuck around a lot (but I also had decent matches there). Just if this tell you anything.
Yeah. I wish my friends cared as much about vidya as I do otherwise I'd have conversations with them- nowadays it's lucky to see them even playing ASSFAGGOTS.
Nah, probably not. I've been doing that my whole life. Like I easily remember being in third or fourth grade years ago talking to myself about video games or other things I was interested in.
It was probably because I never had any friends, but I don't know your situation so I don't know why you do it.
>Deep in the PCMUSTARDRICE meme a few years back
>Imagine myself wrecking a "poor, lowly console babby" in a PC vs. Console debate
I wish I didn't have to see the exact same cringe-worthy shit every other thread.
I'm constantly reminded.
>Imagine having conversations with people where we each take turns explaining our opinions without judging one another and without raising our voices and having any sort of outbursts.
>All while sipping tea or coffee.
>Real life conversations consist of people who love the sound of their own voice.
>Will talk over you.
>Will talk at you instead of with you.
>You'll give them a solid 5-10 minutes to speak their mind, but when it's your turn to speak they tune you out the first 30 seconds you start talking.
>Will raise their voice at you for having a different opinion all while making it seem like YOU'RE the asshole.
>No tea or coffee...
Thanks. I was a little bit afraid of that; I think they abused special offers and give aways waaay too much. That might be the reason. I can still play against the bots in coop, anyway. I will give it a go and see if I can get anything out f it. As long as they don't try to kick me for using anything that is not the "meta", and everybody is trying to have fun, I will be fine. Thank you.
>Imagine myself wrecking somebody I'm against
I do this all the time.
Too bad it will never happen because I'm a weak idiot with no drive for improvement and I want to die.
How hard would it be to hire somebody to kill yourself? I already know I'm too much of a giant fucking pussy to do it myself because I'm a weak coward, but I figured if I saved up some cash for a while, it wouldn't be too hard to find somebody willing to kill for money, right?
>tfw massive anxiety problems and have to deal with the latter
I fucking hate it, and it stresses me out to deal with people like that. Just take your fucking turn and shut up for more than 2 seconds
Jesus fuck just kill yourselves the lot of you
They only drown you out because everything you say is worthless, boring bullshit they don't care about.
At least, that's what I assume about myself because I know I'm a boring choder nobody cares about. There's not much of a point in talking if nobody gives a shit or wants to talk.
so now i just talk to myself in my fucking head because i'm so fucking alone holy shit
I would if I could muster up the courage to. I mean, realistically, I'd make a better contribution to the world and everyone within my life by just killing myself and getting it over with.
>sauce is kurkoboltsi
this is unrelated to the thread but wow ok this guy is like my artistically talented younger evil twin
The shit they're blathering on about is worthless boring bullshit to me, but at least I have the decency to feign interest and let them finish what they're saying.
Some people just have huge egos and 0 self awareness
>tfw you're the reason your parents stayed in a loveless relationship instead of pursuing their own dreams
>tfw mom told you your dad wanted to leave to finally do shit with his life but stayed behind because he wanted to be there for you
>tfw you ended up a piece of shit and your parents wasted their lives on you
Realistically, getting rid of the only thing that kept them together is probably the best thing I could do for my own.
>parents won't get sick and die anytime soon so you're stuck here for at least 20 more years
shit's fucking brutal, my man.
>the biggest event you get to look forward to is going to work, because coworkers are the only people that you talk to more than once ever six months
>friend texts me on social media
>never answer for 3 months despite wanting to
>finally end up doing it
>say shit like I was busy and had no time to answer properly
>I'm actually alone at home all day everyday
I do this with everyone, I'm such a piece of shit
He is right, every little bit of damage does count.
If you are one of those faggots going "BUT IMMUH HEALUH!" or "I don't dps while learning the fight" you are actually holding your team back.
Of course you're not supposed to prioritise DPS over healing, stop generalizing things.
The right course of action is to spot the downtime inbetween mechanics / damage spikes and communicate with your team when it is okay to DPS.
During progression your DD's can oftentimes not have figured out the optimal rotation / cd use for the fight yet and there are tons of times where that important add survived or a cast went through with 1% left on the dps check.
Just fucking do it, you're not endangering anyone, you are learning the fight the same as everyone else does.
>I don't care about anyone and no one cares about me
stop with the feels
I really wish I didn't...
I do this too
Is there a word that describes this type of behavior?
>tfw you realize just how much time you've spent talking and arguing with yourself
This is what I do...goddamn I am a masterwork piece of shit, I'm still really nice to everyone else tho.
people like us are just out of orbit compared to the ones who find it reasonable to be that socially...close.
It just seems bothersome in the long run right? but it eventually has to be done...
Pfff, reading this thread made me realize my life isn't that bad.
>tfw you listen to recordings of girls pretending to be your gf while you go to sleep
It's pretty pathetic desu
How you cope with the fact of never making a fgriend your whole life?
I need 4chan for this, this place is the only reason i haven't went on a rampage, but is also the reason i can't turn into a better human being for society.
yeah, like I'm doing a review or something.
It makes me less lonely and diverts my attention from my shitty fucking life. It works i guess
>How you cope with the fact of never making a fgriend your whole life?
bi-polar disorder constantly brings me up and down
so even though I'll spend a few days lying on the ground and thinking of how horrible I am and ways to kill myself, I know those feelings will stop for a while when I go into the more happy period (and that they'll come back again anyway)
just regular ol' anxiety
although I've been getting my shit together, I still don't like the idea of getting in touch with my old friends from school. I'm ashamed of the couple-years-long period of not really getting anywhere in my life after graduating, and I kinda already made new friends in the meantime.
>/v/ constantly shits all over reddit
>but participates in EXACTLY the same kind of retarded bullshit
>/v/ refuses to acknowledge this
You don't understand! They're out to get us! These reddit people have infiltrated this board, and now they're stealing all of our awesome memes and being all left wing and stuff! We need to STOP them by shitposting at every opportunity, no matter how much the quality of discussion suffers!
Actual crossposting redditor here, I've never heard /v/ mentioned on there. 4chan is occasionally brought up, usually with a vague sense of reverence. They kind of look up to us, in a weird way. But you've never been there. Which is good, you're less of a faggot than I am, but it also means you don't know what you're talking about.
>in my head
trying to explain esports to my 60 year old dad whenever it's on the news
>have plenty of friends
>many of them play the same games as me
>when they want advice I'm willing to help, but it can get tiresome explaining all this shit sometimes
>when I'm playing by myself I constantly narrate and explain shit about the game to an imaginary audience, and actually enjoy it.
what's wrong with me.
>it's so reddit in here jeez
>you ever think that maybe YOU'RE reddit?
>OMG, HOW DO YOU KNOW WHAT REDDIT DOES, HUH?
Honestly, we should ask this question anytime reddit is mentioned at all.
>Talking about IQ
Sign of an insecure jackass that thinks an arbitrary number is a good indicator of human worth.
If you fags had anything to take pride in you wouldn't bring that shit up so often.
Let me guess, you're just "too unmotivated" to ever accomplish anything in your life?
back to tumblr you dogeposting faggarino
it's good not being a broken human being, no?
I don't narrate things to myself because that's useless, but I do often converse with myself (which is normal) but do it audibly by whispering when I'm alone (this is normal too...?).
When playing vidya I let loose and let myself emote a lot more strongly than in most other situations, to the point of being pretty melodramatic and theatrical and putting on a show of sorts. I find it more fun than just sitting there and not caring whether I fail or succeed. I still don't get angry too often, though. Getting angry at vidya is useless.
wow that's hilarious because my experience is the complete opposite
go fuck around on tumblr for a while and you'll see what i mean
not that you'd ever actually put your money where your mouth is
>You all are also constantly explaining vidya related stuff to people in your head, right?
I'm constantly explaining stuff to people in my head: anything that I delude myself into thinking I understand or just care about. I'm an endless armchair professor: I spend majority of my waking life holding lectures and explanations and debates of semi-academic nature in my head.
Games are a part of it. But so are many other subjects: their proportions differ based on what I have been more preoccupied with.
If it sounds like I'm proud of it, I'm not. It's one of the worst habits of my life.
Yes, people discussing and relating over their vidya-related experiences is better than the billionth cookie cutter reddit posts. You can hide this thread and not be bothered. I'd have to hide every thread to escape you guys.
>takes a sarcastic 'know thy enemy' seriously and doesn't understand the importance of context
just go to reddit, then. they have the exact same kind of retarded, mentally ill discussions
Are implying it isn't because of this thread? Becasue threads like this just attract the socially inept because they relate to the OP.
>using the word normie
Can you, like, please fuck off? what happened to affixing -fag to everything?
>a joke on The Big Bang Theory
You weren't actually watching TBBT then.
howd you know you fukken redditor
I kid. I've been to reddit, even used it for a few months. It's actually very difficult to have a conversation there, the site simply isn't designed for conversation. The way upvotes work, they way posts are sorted, the whole thing is set up to inflate egos, protect consensus and stifle any argument. Reddit's awful.
All that's left is affordable VR and gfs will become obsolete.
You're a ball of lightly electrified meat and chemicals who lives in a bone inside a monkey. Like every other part of the monkey, you only really only exist is to help the monkey make more little monkeys. Sure, you do other things. You think, you feel, you dream, you love and you hate. And a fingernail scratches itches, but like you it only exists to help the monkey make more monkeys in the end. You've gotten distracted, you've gotten into the habit of thinking you're the apex of your being, that your very soul is the king of your body. But that's not true. You're a geneslave, and nothing you think or do has to make sense. It just has to make monkeys. And if you don't make monkeys? Well, you weren't very good at making them, but some else is, and their monkeys are going to be even better at making monkeys, by definition.
So, what are you anon? A slave, or a failure? Not just any failure, but the first failure in a billion-year, unbroken chain that goes back to the first organism, the genesis of all life.
There's easier ways of adding a (you) anon.
I hate when people don't understand when I'm talking about a game mechanic but I don't want to reveal my power level.
I guess what I do isnt that strange
But now I just think, what the hell do Normies think of all day?
>In your head
It was all a dream, son
>>using the word normie
>Can you, like, please fuck off? what happened to affixing -fag to everything?
Normie and Normalfag mean different things, anon.
Normalfag= A person who trys/ied and failed to be a normal, functioning human being, ie, most of /r9k/
Normie= The Casual of casuals.
Ex-Ubernormie anon here.
It's loneliness and lack of social interaction. After high school I had 2 years of living a neet life and during that time, due to the low time I spent interacting with other people, I started talking alone. Not like double personality alone but saying videogame stuff, acting like a let's play, like I was explaining something or in an interview etc.
It's not autism (at least in the true sense of the word). It's just that your brain needs to have some form of conversation or human interaction to function properly so when exposed to little social interaction you fulfill the quota with yourself. My dad has been doing it for years and he works a lot but doesn't really have a lot of close friends and spends most of his free time sitting and thinking about stuff so he sometimes starts to monologue too.
tl;dr : it's normal you are not an autist.
>tfw do this when trying to understand game mechanics or something because it making it like an explanation makes it easier to understand for me
>but at the same time literally can't do this in front of other people, to the point i failed tests because i can't read shit in front of people
it's ironic in a certain way
Woops, keep on forgetting to take off my trip. I put it on because I drew this and asked for advice/was asked art questions in /wfg/. Not up to date but extremely close.
So I whisper to myself ALL THE TIME for hours every day. I walk around the room and I whisper to myself. Mostly interviewing myself about the past me, which is currently the present me. In other words, me at 24 talking about me at 19, and the difficulties that I faced then, which in reality are the difficulties that I'm currently facing.
The other things are discussing numerous films that I have directed and starred in. In reality I just have vague ideas for movies in my head that I mess around with. Same thing happens with music, except music is something that I actually make and want to be involved with.
I attended speech therapy from June to November last year because my natural speaking voice has always been a problem for me. I'm not confident in the sound of my voice and I'm very quiet and I mumble - it doesn't take a genius to figure out that, when you whisper to yourself more than you talk, you adversely affect your speaking voice. Whispering is not good for your vocal chords.
The solution to getting a better speaking voice was, in part, to stop whispering to myself for hours a day. I have not stopped doing it because it's just something that I do, as natural as eating. On top of that I feel completely detached from the world because I talk about the current me in a past tense.
Talking to myself from a position whereby I have achieved the success that in reality I want to achieve right now at this very moment makes it out to seem as though I've already achieved what I want. I have tricked my brain into believing that I've become what I want to be, that there's nothing to worry about, to let things happen naturally because my idealism is my destiny. Obviously I know this is not the case.
I ruin my own perception but I can't stop doing it. I've always done it, but it's become more pernicious. I'm trapped with my brain and I can't change it.
Anon, I don't know you or your family. You have no reason to think I do. You're being paranoid, now. It's not really helping your case.