Playing video games on a Friday night?
That's a one million yen fine!
BITCH, I DO WHAT I WANT WHENEVER I WANT
YOU CAN'T STOP ME, BITCH
Fuck off, I found a job and don't need you anymore.
>Watch this anime a couple days ago
NHK is /v/ the anime, right?
I found the novel to be poorly written.
It could be cause it's a shitty translation, or it could be that I don't like his writing style.
and on that note, why did the drugs have to be legal? Is there some kind of drug stigma in Japan? And whoever heard of a hallucinogen you snort
But yeah, I liked the anime better.
SAAAAATOU-SAAAN why do you never play vidya with me?
i litterally had this happen irl maybe a year ago
too bad i answered the door in my boxers and half asleep
>Realise my life won't turn around by the end of the next episode like in my animes
every man deserves a cute girl to save himself from himself ;_;
>tfw trying hook up with qt gril I've known since 8th grade
>swear I heard her call my name when leaving uni today
>text her and ask if she did
>"lol no why would I do that"
>"oh i must've been imagining things haha"
>die a little inside
every time I talk to her I feel as though she's trying to distance herself from me more and more
Everyone has to deal with life, you can't just hide in your room and escape reality.
yfw the author of the book has reverted back to his hiki ways and just lives off of royalties
>watching this as a young hermit of 3~ years, empathize with Saito.
>14 years later, have only left house 3 times since 2001 for emergency surgery and doctors appointments.
YOU NEVER CAME, YOU FUCKING LIAR.
Is she a bit more developed in the manga? I liked the anime but I hated how little backstory she had, "oh no my stepdad(or dad can't remember) hit me now i'm suicidal".
There is close to no person irl male or female that will care enough fo another human being, minutes or even days after meeting him/her.
If you're lucky enough to find someone who immeadiately fall in love with your disgusting self and do that kind of shit to fix you up, she has to have some heavy issues herself as accurately seen in the show, and that wicked relationship will crumble on itself.
No, They appeared on the manga first, then anime.
Although I'd say the Island arcs isn't the best, the MMO one was really powerful.
I'd say it's nice to have the book, it makes for good memorabilia. But honestly, I'd say the anime is better overall
Because she's a professional victim.
Less harsh; she couldn't cope with the shock of her parents leaving her and she became a very depressing person who convinced herself that her own shortcomings were caused by the failures of others.
Also haven't read the manga, I hear it's the best of the three though.
So Anon, what is your personal NHK?
Yeah that's what I thought. I do have the book sitting on my shelf right now. Read it last year and thought it was good. Now that I'm sure those parts aren't in there. I'm keeping the book.
You stupid fuck. You almost got me to burn a book, you fucking nigger. Type out your posts properly you fuck.
she said she found someone more worse off than herself so she proceeded to 'save' him
kind of like how men impose their 'strength and usefulness' on women, stifling said women's independence to point where they rely solely on men to do their bidding
I read the book and watched the anime, haven't read the manga.
But from what I remember
>Her Dad died when she was young
>her mom remarried
>he was abusive
>put out cigarettes on her arms and beat her
>that's why she wears long sleeve shirts all the time, to hide the scars
>she saw her mom kill herself
>step dad raised her
>kept beating her
>he dies eventually
>gets taken in by her aunt and uncle
>they want to get a divorce
>she believes it's her fault why bad things happen to everyone around her
>that's why she wants to make at least one persons life better (Satou)
>fails at that
>then she wants to kill herself
Don't stick it in the crazy.
I'd rather be a NEET forever than be "saved" by somebody like Misaki honestly.
>If there isn't filler, then its shit.
Spiritualism. Not to be a fedora, but my recent fear of death is really eating at me. And that's considering I believe I used to be a Vietnam Veteran in a past life.
i've avoided this series completely all my anime viewing life.
i don't even watch anime anymore.
but for some reason i still feel like i need to just give in and see this eventually.
all i hear is how depressing it is and how much it makes everyone hate themselves and cry for days.
i'm pretty sure i don't need that, yet, that pull is still there.
well shiiiiet that is much better explained
and more sadder ;_;
>there are people who actually have lives like this out there
>always see stuff here and in muh chinese cartoons about NEETs and otakus being depressed, sad losers
>be borderline NEET (literally only leave house to get food and work a part time job
that I just quit)
>genuinely, almost 100% happy with life
I don't get why people get sad about not having a gf or not being able to socialize with normalfags. Being a total shut-in when you don't need to leave your house seems like bliss to me. I spend all my free time either talking shit with you faggots or playing vidya more or less. That's more than enough for me.
>got drubk Thursday night
>had a terrible time, bar was shitty and a guy half my height tried to fight me over something
>felt like shit all day today
>work was shit, too hot
>friends want to go out again tonight
>can't even enjoy /v/ without an anime girl judging me
Its not my day.
Only if you empathise with it. If you have a healthy or successful life it's going to make no sense.
What the show does well is getting that feeling of depression or social anxiety down really well.
I don't really have one to be honest. The way I see it everything bad in my life is basically my own fault, and not being able to change is my fault too. I don't put much credence in conspiracy theories.
I agree with you.
>English Satous > Japanese
>English Yamazaki = Japenese
the Japanese one might just be a hair better
>English hitomi = Japanese
>English Misaki < Japanese
All of the voices are extremely well matched with their characters in both versions, but god damn does english Satou do a good job
I don't know anon, misery loves company. At best I'm saved, at worst I have someone to be miserable with and feed off off in an extremely unhealthy relationship. It's not like I could ask for more
>If there isn't filler, then its shit.
When the filler is the best part? Yeah kinda. You watched DBZ as a kid/young adult, don't lie to me. Don't tell me the driver's ed episode wasn't amazing.
Stop lying to yourself brother.
>and work a part time job
Then you weren't a fucking NEET.
Be unemployed for the next 4 years and see how you feel. You sound like a kid that just got told he can have some free time.
>all i hear is how depressing it is and how much it makes everyone hate themselves and cry for days.
it's pretty humorous if you can laugh at yourself.
Initially she didn't really love him the relationship was parasitic by both parties
She was a hikki as well, and when she discovered him used him as a pet project to try and justify her existence
mind you saito was a fucking shameless leach and in a lot of ways way fucking worse then that mmo hikki, since saito on multiple occasions did really manipulative shit
that said the two of them I think did come to form a very intimate bond, since they both knew how fucked the other was and still wanted to save eachother.
I think after the whole ending climax thing at the cliff they really did come to love each other on some level
That said, the thing that made saito not be a hikki was the threat of fucking starvation. Everyone was else was just enabling him and should have cut him off way sooner to avoid all of that shit.
Misaki on the other hand needed someone to try and understand her and push her, her aunt and uncle were nice by they were clearly just housing and enabling her but not trying to really understand her.
All of this said, I think it was actually a pretty honest show about how this shit goes and what these people are like.
>mfw I'm almost like this except I go to college and live off of the grants/loans/part time work
I guess it's just the way we're wired, though.
Some people, currently NEET or not, have a desire for a social life. People like you and I just don't give a shit though.
Sometimes I reflect on it and think it's shitty of me that I'm content with spending all my time alone whenever possible and doing just enough work or socialization to simply get by and live the routine I like, but in the end who cares, really?
Having a group of friends or your own family isn't something everyone literally needs. I think I fall into the category of people who don't.
Whats the term like "asexual" that just deals with not caring about human interaction at all, not just limited to sex?
Though I guess I come on 4chan for a reason.
>>Misaki will never come and save you
>If you're lucky enough to find someone who immeadiately fall in love with your disgusting self
rewatch the fucking show
>tfw Yamazaki was just trying to cover for the fact that his 3DPD waifu didn't actually like him
That episode at the University is the most depressing one bar none. Every time I see an idea guys thread on /v/ I always imagine the professor from that laughing at me while I'm typing my own ideas up.
So besides NHK and this, what are some good NEET/Hiki core literature?
The whole point of the those was that nobody's going to help you but yourself. The one girl that came for Satou just happened to do it to feel less miserable, to feel like she was worth something.
Mistaking /v/ for your personal blog?
That's a another million yen!
I watched NHK back in 2009 or 2010, when I was only just getting into /v/ and not really as deep into anime/toku as I am now. I liked it for what it was at the time, found it relatable and all, but if I watched it now it'd probably fucking wreck me.
I was for 6 monts after
Depression+ Canadian Winter + Scool problems + Mother sickness + job loss
I got otu of it because of a friend, i still thank her to this day
The threat of starvation is literally the only thing that works.
Only problem is that life isn't like anime and you can't just walk into an employment office and get employed. Wish I had thought of that earlier.
Because people think they need to be "useful" to society.
Well, I am. The main thing is my teeth, they've been horrific for a long time and I recently had a lot of work done and I'm in $2700 in debt, but I'm still not satisfied. Plus I've been going to /fa/ and I'm getting some ideas for outfits but I know that only goes so far. I'm just trying to get to the point that I feel sort of 'neutral' instead of bad looking.
I don't enjoy those things anymore though. It's not that I want to be out socializing, because I really don't like that, but I don't want to be doing nothing but sleeping and waiting for death. Is that so hard to understand?
>tfw even though he tried his best to escape a life he didn't want he still was pulled into it, what he wanted didn't matter
I'd rather do nothing but sleep and wait for death over doing nothing but sleeping, working, and waiting for death.
I don't know why anyone's mind set changes as soon as you get a job. It changes absolutely nothing in the grand scheme.
>you can't just walk into an employment office and get employed
Fuck that reminds me of moving out for college. I had help with my first 2 months rent and figured it'd be just like muh japanese animes like Clannad or something where i'd easily find some simple, mindless part-time job almost instantly.
Nope. Took almost a year to actually land something that didn't conflict with my school schedule or wasn't a 3 hour bus ride away.
be useful to yourself but generate evidence that you in fact ARE useful
that way anyone who tries to bring you down about being a 'societal parasite' can be subject to an intellectually confident individual who knows what the fuck is up
also stop watching shows aimed at children thats where the brain washing starts
> I'm such a hikki, I spent all weekend on Facebook!
That hit me right in the feels.
He was just kinda sitting there at the con, with no one paying any mind to their hard work. Then he just lugged the excess baggage back home. Just damn, dude.
>those game creators are probably starving right now because I
I don't want a shitty job either. I just want to do something valuable, to not be completely worthless, and to enjoy what I do. Though that's not going to happen because I am a useless passionless person.
It is, I don't like the content but it makes for good reaction images because of the emotional pain the guy conveys through his art.
I mistakenly used "fall in love" I get the show, it's just that, for something like that to happen in real life, it most start as a "love" at first sight relationship, no way some chirstian girl would do that shit outta nowhere, but a daddy issues girl for example.
I was Misaki in a relationship with a pretty depressed, bulimic girl
It's fucking nuts. This happened to me when I lived between two major cities and I still had problems.
Yet when I'd go to the stores I previously applied for, I'd see a new fat black woman working the register or something. Different every time, even if I went on the same day at the same time.
I'm not one to spout took muh jerb just because, but sometimes it looks that way.
Just keep at it, man. You'll land something as long as you keep applying.
everyone settles into their lives eventually
also those who dont work, dont eat
i dont want to do anything valuable to anyone other than myself
>tfw youve experienced work, friends, relationships, and connections in general, but it is just so much fucking easier and less stress inducing to just sit alone in your room and not have to worry about anything
honestly, sitting on /v/ by myself for the last year and a half on EI has been the most tranquil year and a half of my entire life
>be 20 year old hikki
>aunt and uncle say I have two days to get a job or i gotta go
>would probably be in a homeless shelter
>freaking the fuck out
>print stack of resumes
>go door to door all afternoon
>no luck all retail places
>go to light industrial area
>go door to door asking for any work they have
>first place I go too is a lumber yard
>they say since the school year is starting so a lot of these places need people for general labor since lots of people were only working for the summer
>try the other places on the street
>end up at a warehouse
>they tell me they need a new afternoon loader for the trucks
>tell them I can start right away
>guy tells me sure and loans me some old work-boots
You can find a job easy but you have to be willing to do real hard labor
satou finding that shitty traffic job is pretty realistic, tokyo has real fucking bad traffic and constant construction
the reason hiki stay hikki is because they don't have enough connections to the outside world and people enable them
>tfw you know EXACTLY what you want and what makes you happen
>it doesnt involve working, at all
Well so much for me, right? GUESS I GOTTA GO 2 WORK BECAUSE ITS EXPECTED OF ME HUEHUE
>experienced work, friends, relationships, and connections in general, but it is just so much fucking easier and less stress inducing to just sit alone in your room and not have to worry about anything
isn't it kind of like, whether you are neet or working, you generally, feel the same things, eventually. the same troubles coming to the surface.
Do you remember all those dreams, goals and ambitions you had when you were a kid anon? what happened to those? at what point did they change? at what point did you let society break you?
>mfw I ask myself these questions everytime I go to sleep
well you can always be a bum
they dont work and some how they get food
but no internet
you can do what you want with your life bruv but working and getting monies just increases your potential
The internet has helped me to be confused about what my standards for happiness even are now lol. But in every sense yeah, it's a positive, though not quite there yet. I am working on the debt, $100/month, but I'm running out of money that I saved and need to find work that I can handle.
I guess my other NHK would be that I am a severe pessimist.
I take solace in the fact that very few other people get to live their childhood dreams either.
Dreams back then were pretty much alternate universe roleplays.
I can't really feel bad about it since all my dreams back then were so unrealistic there's nothing for met to feel like I'm missing out on. They were realistically impossible.
I don't know.
I'd honestly rather kill myself than work for the large majority of my life, just so I can use the minority of my time left doing what I want.
That isn't fair. That's complete bullshit.
>thought I would be 6 feet because of families genes
>shortest one in the family
I also thought I would have my drivers license before 18 and even now I don't have one because I never go anywhere
I don't understand what you mean by what you say.
That's fair. I just always wanted to be important and useful, just to make my life have some meaning, but like I said it's impossible for a worthless person like me to do that now.
That's a lie or you would be dead already. You're obviously in a spot of privilege right now.
When that runs out, you will choose to work.
The only way to fix yourself is to kill the host. You're a parasite.
>working a job just to get by
If you aren't at least content with your job you should fucking find another job. I'm not saying it has to be some kind of wonderful paradise but if you're going home most/every day feeling miserable and wanting to quit hey guess what you should probably fucking quit.
you mean you've NEVER kissed a girl before?
>my post is the only one that gets deleted
Fuck you, you doing it for free sack of shit.
As far back as I can remember I was directionless, with no real dreams or passions. I was tired of life a long time ago anon, I only hang on because I'm too cowardly to end it, and because I have some stupid idea of hope stuck in my head.
>Welcome to the NHK and kaiji were the only good anime in years with relatable characters
Is working a shitty trade job where I run the risk of death every day for minimal pay just to get by privilege?
The only thing STOPPING me from killing myself is that I can't know for sure my life will be entirely this.
It's about weighing the pros and cons.
Good hours and good pay doing a shitty job is better than few hours and bad pay doing a good one, imo.
It makes your off hours enjoyable, and that's the most important for me.
Plus, I completely lack ambition and any clue of what I even want.
>didn't get my license till i was 18
>still no car
my parents keep saying they'll buy me one but every time they look at one that's affordable they turn it down because it's got a few unnoticeable dents in the bumper I keep telling them they aren't gonna find a mint condition car for less than $3500 but they ignore me
but what about ambition or goals? surely you had some during your highschool years. You see thats what I think my problem is, I have no motivation or ambition i'm a pretty easy person to please. I'm not trying to make excuses but as long as I have food and internet I see no reason to get a job or the need to socialize.
Probably around the second or third year of high school when I realized how fucking pointless this shit was and that I was only doing it for a piece of paper saying I knew a bunch of shit I never remembered after I took the test.
I tried college for two years, getting by on state funding since I was a poorfag, figuring I'd figure out what I wanted to do with my life by the time I got through a year or two, but once I got to the end of that second year and realized I still didn't know what I wanted to do I just dropped the fuck out and started working fast food because fuck everything, I was gonna end up here regardless and at least I won't be in debt for my whole life this way.
Here in Australia, a lot of places will get you the required training. I think it's either because it's paid for by the government or they get the money they spend on it back in tax.
That's true for my situation anyway. I went from being a hikki neet to working in a warehouse. Getting a forklift license and being trained in proper warehouse procedures.
Just look for "general labor" jobs
Doesn't have to be a warehouse, since its the beginning of September you'll see a shit ton of postings.
It's not easy since you'll be the "lifting shit, cutting grass and cleaning" monkey, but getting one isn't hard.
Some places may require that you can drive to get there but you can always try to negotiate, my first job I tried as hard as possible to be on time and rode the bus super fucking early.
These types of jobs tend to have much more flexibility and your boss will probably be more understanding too, all you gotta do is be on time and work hard.
And while the job may be shit you might end up becoming bros with the guys you work with, I remember they'd invite me to drink on fridays.
Having a net of friends will also help keep you from being a hikki again
>there will never be discussion of this show without these blogging faggots
>/v/ will never talk about video games
Yeah, nah. I'm in the same boat. No ambition or motivation beyond just getting by and staying alive.
I want to travel and have made attempts to try and get myself a teaching job overseas(not Japan, fyi. 2many weeaboos), but they've mostly fallen flat. When that happens your previous lack of motivation comes in and says "See? What did I tell you? Just stop caring, accept where you are." and it tends to sound very reasonable.
Hey man go fuck yourself. Make a game. Learn to program or something. Take up Japanese, I don't know translate a thing. Somebody will play that game or watch that show you translated. If even one person enjoyed that entertainment, well that is good enough I would think.
one of these fucking days I'll listen to myself and do that, hopefully.
I quit my part time job because I felt about ready to kill myself if I had to stay there. I have no financial recourse right now but I'd die before I worked at a place like that again.
>that scene where Yamazaki shows his 3D waifu his powerlevel
>that scene where he burns all his books & shit while shit's all quiet and snowing around
I wish I had a good torrent of this shit, 'cause I need to rewatch it.
This guy got it.
If you are not a total asshole, it's easy to be friend with coworkers and build some relations. From ther,e you got people you want to see again, and staying around is easier
Being dumped by my previous gf actually made things worse. Now I only leave for the sake of others and I can't find any value in my own life.
I watched maybe a third of TTGL when it was on sci-fi and am only now playing through the metal gear games these last few weeks.
That said outside of a short span in 2010-2011 I was never much for anime that wasn't currently airing.
i cried so much during both of the shows
there aren't really that many of these kinds
tatami galaxy is somewhat related too, but the despair levels aren't as high, i suppose. but still something closer than other things would be. and people who like really pretty and colorful visuals get those too.
It was office work. I got paid close to minimum wage and the hours were limited, so I didn't quite make my living costs (but came close, so I lost money at a slow rate).
I'm a really creative and eccentric kind of person so I felt like I was suffocating having to focus on that stuff. I starting spiraling kind of quickly toward the end and that's when I knew I had to leave.
Chatter doesn't have to be mindless. Just listen to your coworkers learn about them. If you think about them is mindless then sure they won't like you.
Seriously, listening ( like, REALLY listening) to people is the easiest way
This guy gets it.
I don't know what kind of work you've done but last job I had was over a year and I was still being treated like a retarded neanderthal till the day I left.
You have nothing to watch if the internet goes down.
You have sub-par audio and video quality. The difference is very noticeable. Ugly, jaggy, and often mistranslated subs made by Chinese children in sweatshops, not to mention the ads, fucking ads. Even if you have adblock, they are there, watching, waiting, ready to strike.
Streaming and the mindset that follows in general is an enemy of your freedom.
You have no control over what you have access to or how long it's there.
Nor do you have control over quality of video, audio, subtitles and anything else you might be interested in.
Streaming sites are subject to copyright disputes and censoring.
Some things are held at ransom from you - The goal post can shift at any moment without warning and you have no say in the matter.
Even if you decide to delete it after watching, it's you that's deciding this.
Not to mention, the absurd mind boggling concept of paying for things, especially things that can be copied infinitely at virtually no cost to anyone.
If nothing else, you should refuse to use Netflix as they are the number one supporter of putting/keeping DRM in HTML5.
If you don't care about this stuff then fine, otherwise stop being a lazy fag and torrent.
>tfw i related more to pic related
>tfw it actually did wonders to take me out of depression
beyond just being funny and making me laugh really fucking hard, it taught me to just fucking poke fun at everything i had problems with when it dealt with more serious 'issues.'
>Just listen to your coworkers learn about them.
Whether in school or work I've already been through this game. I've always found most others pleasant but impossibly boring to talk to. Or their thought processes were generally not very well formed or thorough.
Dude, don't tell me to calm down BR dude. Anyone else would have thought I was talking about Religion and the fucking afterlife, you autistic shitflinger.
Ah I gotcha, honestly anon that's hard.
If you can find a co-op program for whatever it is you might wanna do would probably be the best option.
Casual retail jobs are hard as shit to get in north America since so many people chase after them instead of labor
try maybe something seasonal, you might find a hardware store or lumber yard with more flexible hours than a warehouse or being a box lifter for like an electric company
I'd honestly suggest any labor work you can get over mind numbing retail shit, I found while being physically tired from work I could steal read or watch anime as while working in a fast food place or store I was mentally tired more than anything.
Also labor doesn't have bitchy female bosses if you work for warehouses or companies that do trade work.
My boss was a hard ass but he was fair and never did anything petty
I'd take shoveling shit or moving boxes with a bunch of dudes over working in a fast food places with women every time
seriously working at mcdonalds made me near suicidal
All lost in the grind. Having no friends to spend my childhood/teenage years wore me down fast. Before I realized I was sleeping from 4PM-12AM all throughout highschool doing absolutely nothing.
>Make a game
Why? I have no good original ideas of my own, I am creatively bankrupt. I don't think I have had an original thought in a decade.
>Learn to program or something
Tried once, I sucked at it and hardly enjoyed it, dropped after a few days.
>Take up Jap
I'm terrible with languages, hell I wasn't even good with Latin when I took that, don't know how I would do with a language like Jap with a huge alphabet when I don't even care about reading it.
If you really want to know. I'll tell you my stupid immature dream that only a mentally stunted man child like I could come up with, so you can laugh at it. So I never got a realistic world view. I never evolved beyond childish fantasizing. What I always wished to do was to do something important for mankind. Not be the president or something stupid like that, but maybe to be smart enough to contribute something significant to the pool of human knowledge. Stupid, right? Here I am, a fucking dumbass dropout who was never good at anything dreaming of doing this shit despite the fact that I don't even understand the first thing about that sort of shit, and have never made a significant effort to do so. I don't even know why I am such a fucking retard who still cares about these moronic impossible fantasies of mine.
This is my problem, too.
Co-workers really vary depending on where you work.
I worked at a clothing store, for example. In the basement. But everyone there was still too.. normal.
There's nothing for me to relate to.
I can hold simple conversation and ask about their day and families just fine, but it's kind of hard to relate to your co-workers sometimes. I'm sure it'd be different if I worked at a music or game store or something.
>the family guy of chinese cartoons brought me out of my depression
It's not an "attitude", it's just that my interests don't mesh with theirs. You're proving my point exactly: look how steadfast you are in your conviction that the only people who don't like interacting with you are complete assholes.
If everyone you met just wanted to talk about sports and nothing else, wouldn't you become disengaged with people? Or do you like sports, and should I use another analogy?
uh ok.... i only posted those links to show the opening sequence of suisei no garantia and how the soldier boy is content with his life despite being forced into military servitude
even when he's offered limited citizen ship for his service he says he doesnt even really care because he has everything he could possibly want cooped up in his mech suit/life support system
nah. it made me realize interaction isn't all it's cracked up to be, honestly. and that a lack of it isn't as depressing as it's made out to be either.
everything is it's own thing. comparing shit it just irrelevant. just look at your situation from all angels and you'll realize it isn't so bad.
that's what i got out of a lot of it.
just do it, anon. like one episode a day, even.
it really lightens you mood.
hey, it worked. i'm not complaining.
>There are people who watch NHK over SZS
/v/ can't be THIS pleb, right?
>Why? I have no good original ideas of my own, I am creatively bankrupt. I don't think I have had an original thought in a decade.
A game doesn't have to be original, it just has to be good. Shovel Knight is basically just Ducktales and Megaman mashed together with some Dark Souls thrown in and it's one of my favorite games of this year.
>Tried once, I sucked at it and hardly enjoyed it, dropped after a few days.
Give it another go. Everything sucks the first time you try it.
>What I always wished to do was to do something important for mankind. Not be the president or something stupid like that, but maybe to be smart enough to contribute something significant to the pool of human knowledge.
Everybody wants to change the world. Nobody wants to just live, we all have hopes of being important even if we deny it. I get where you're coming from, but you can't change the world if you can't even say you're willing to try to make a single person smile.
Not the other guy, but I've been making little games for almost three years and I've never had any takers. None of my friends show much interest in them and I eventually submit that they're probably not interesting enough (or too esoteric) to rally any positive attention.
I keep making them anyway because it's what I love, but I work in what is essentially a void. It's not improved my life one bit, but it gives me something to cling on to. And maybe one day I'll produce something of at least modest intrigue.
Workers in my industry.
I always have that feeling that Im an incompetent fuck compared to all these genius programmers and designers and everything.
Il just play video games in my room and pretend Im good but dont use my talents.
>that scene with the dead cat
I never cried like I did when it showed the dead cat.
>You seem like you got a stick up your ass. Chill out and stop taking yourself so fucking seriously.
I don't, but I take my time very seriously. And I won't waste it with just anybody. So stop telling other people how to live their lives for once, honestly.
That image is a half truth
I was never happy as a neet, and if I was it didn't last
by the end i browsed 4chan all day not even talking
The robots are coming
Get that labor job quick and get your college degree in a trade skill or something before all the stuck up faggots that are too good for moving boxes have no other option and flood the field
rolling to play:
0 - Romance of the Three Kingdoms XI
1 - Soul Hackers
2 - Pikmin 3
3 - Tropical Freeze
4 - Mario 3D World
5 - Mario Kart 8
6 - Mount & Blade: Warband
7 - Civilization 5
8 - Bladestorm
9 - Make my own game
How can people work?
Why do you treat yourself so badly?
You deserve better.
Maybe the NEET life is too sedentary and lonely and depressing.
But surely there is another way.
But it won't be found on 4chan it perpetuates being stuck in hopelessness for eternity. For instance, by repeating the mantra, "you are here forever", you are solidifying your fate in that direction.
What I'm saying is that, you don't need to do this to yourself anymore. I also like being stuck in a black hole sometimes where I can't feel anything, but that's because it's so familiar and effortless. Depression becomes a best friend over time. Any kind of relationship with another person usually takes sacrifices. What you give up by identifying with depression is your soul...
It's not worth it, Anonymous.
>just want to talk to friends about it
>nobody at work even knows that Power Rangers is based on a Japanese show
>only friend I have that's a weeb doesn't care about it in the slightest
>brother, who used to watch KR back in high school doesn't care anymore
>that fucking feel when
/m/ is great, the occasional thread here is wonderful, but fuck some days I just wanna walk up to somebody in the street and say "OH SHIT NIGGA DID YOU SEE WHAT MICCHY DID THIS WEEK?"
And I just fucking can't.
rolling to play:
0-9 - Smoke a bowl and play some Digital Pinball Necronomicon
True, but I just don't have good ideas in general, I have no idea how to make a game that feels good. I have no idea how to make a game period.
Yeah, but I doubt I have the motivation for it. I don't think I have ever completed anything I start. you are right that I should try it again, but I'm scared that I'm just too stupid to get it. If I quit early I can at least pretend that maybe it was because everyone is bad in the beginning, and not because I'm mentally slow. Not to mention there's so many languages and I keep thinking that I will have fucked up somewhere and chosen one that isn't very useful at all, meaning all my work will be wasted.
I'm sorry anon, you are right. I'm just a selfish cowardly person at heart I suppose. Sorry to trouble you.
>You totally should, it's from before SHAFT was just shitty 'muh headtilts' shit
Literally the only things I've seen from SHAFT are Bakemono and Nisemono.
I think I'm a hipster or something, since Nisemono was a million times worse in my opinion and I'm almost entirely convinced I think this solely because it didn't have that low-budget charm Bakemono did. I loved the neverending BLACK SCENEs and those pictures of real hands in place of animation.
I know it's not, faggot, I just can't find a torrent with subs that aren't those hideous yellow blocks.
No end. Just a better direction. And only you know what better entails. What would you feel is right outside of the context of everyone's opinions in your life? Take away your family, friends, 4chan... what do you feel now?
Maybe I'll get shit for this but shamelessly show these games off to /v/. I'm sure somebody here would be willing to give them a go. Hell, I know I would, not like I'm doing anything else this weekend.
I could give it a shot at some point if the context is right. A handful of them are sort of twists on some other formula. The first is an unusual spin on a pretty timeless game that I've still not seen done elsewhere, so one of these days.
My birthday's on monday, if I'm lucky a relative will send me a small check. I'm gonna spend it playing MGS2 and eating some ice cream cake I probably bought myself. Who fucking cares man, birthday's don't matter after 21 until you're retirement age anyway.
yeah I'm fairly certain that is what happened
though it wasn't just pity, it was also a mix of regret for not dating him since she dated that basketball guy she said was a dickhead
that said if they could have been together that time is over, I'm glad he didn't sleep with her when she offered as she was pregnant and clearly having emotional issues
honestly taking advantage of REALLY damaged women is not as fun as one might think
Hotline Miami was made in Game Maker, anon. Programming isn't the most important thing to a game. You just have to have the passion, the will to make something you want to make.
Haha that image is a reference to the epic hack n' slash Platinum Games title Metal Gear Rising. That game was fun because Raiden was such a gay whiner in MGS2 until MGS4 made him cool.
Is that image for real?
Did they really put that in an advertisement?
Hey pal, I thought you'd headed off already. I'll just repeat that I'd rather you didn't arbitrarily define what makes other people assholes or not! I don't like bars or aimless banter. It would be like having all my friends want me to come to the MLP club to watch episodes with them. Doesn't make me an asshole to want to avoid that stuff like the plague.
I don't know what it means...
I have this image in my heart where it's kind of like, you live every day without worrying much and any difficult situations that arise are taken care of within you because you are just too easy-going in the life that you create for yourself with the things that you do. Does it make sense much? I don't know. I felt like I was content for the first year of being a NEET but I think it was just complete disconnection from the physical world that let me have some sort of tranquility. But I was really scared inside and didn't take care of those issues which I'm only doing now.
FLCL really fucked me up
Especially thinking back that I won't be able to go back to my school days
narrow field of view and a lack of connections to the outside world as the result of either being a latch key kid, bullied, having divorced parents, abusive parents, or no parents
or any mix of the above
combined with teenage hormones it's pretty rough
Almost no social life on middle school and high school fucked me over big time.
Im now in college and I have a real hard time socializing with anybody.
I cant say I didnt try but it seems that Im not too good keeping a relationship for more than a week or a few weeks.
>It's never going to get better.
Well I don't really have that either, for game making, or anything really...
I can't wait until they raise interest rates away from ZIRP and the revolution (and glorious counter revolution) happens.
I started missing high school lately. Even though high school was really stressful and not fun most of the time, it still had its own type of feeling. Actually it makes me really sad, to the point of tears. It's like I should have done something differently.
I watched FLCL after high school and I got this fuzzy nostalgic feeling too. I think the show has something like that within it that transports people back to when they were a teenager.
I think you're looking for progress more than anything. Shaping yourself and changing, and dealing with problems.
I think someone can be content just.. being.
it depends on the person, though. Motivation and ambition is too personal of a thing.
Not the guy you're talking to but I'm the guy that thinks he was a past Nam Veteran.
I kind of considered myself proof of past lives. But I'm not completely sure if I was there. The nightmares I occasionally had seemed real enough.
dont be so sad man, we're here for you.
Hell, my birthday is in 11 days and no one seems to want to hang out with me.
none of my "friends" asked me if I wanted to get shitfaced and my parents are pushing me to actually do something this year for a change (mind you, for the last 2 years i've done absolutely nothing, I bake myself a cake, walk my dogs, play vidya and go to sleep).
>tfw I'll never be able to go back to those /ss/ days
I have terrible visions once every ~ 2-4 weeks and after I finish something really stressful. I always thought I had schizophrenia or something
>you will never be a kawaii puru puru puruin pudding girl
found a 3dpd waifu and moved on leaving Saito out in the wind
>tfw no cute loli to teach the ways of the assassin
you regret wasting your youth
everyone has that.
>The dub is considerably better then the sub.
I feel like the sub is better. I compared some of the most emotional scenes and they sounded more natural in Japanese. But I guess that's up to how a person interprets voices in relation to their perceptions of ideas.
You heard them nigga. Watch the fucking dub.
Or, what, you're too much of a faggot weeaboo to watch an excellent dub?
>I think the show has something like that within it that transports people back to when they were a teenager.
I know what you mean. I love FLCL but man. Get into The Pillows if you're not already. Of course I can't understand a lick of moonspeak, but thanks to the show, whenever I listen to them I always get in a good mood. Like, nostalgic but hopeful for the future at the same time. Like things will be alright, just listen to the energy and perfect distortion.
You wern't hairy when you were a kid though were you?
I respect your opinion although I disagree with it
you still are changing a bit in your 20's and your sex drive is still pretty high
some people bloom early and late though
the process is very fucking damaging, even if your family is shit you'd be better if if they stayed together as you'd still have a family unit
most really beta men or directionless fuckheads didn't get to see their dad/mom enough
It's not just The Pillows, imo.
Any time I listen to old punk or ska or whatever I get the same feeling.
It's just some type of memory. We heard this shit when we were young and full of hope. Listening to it again just brings it back, like any other memory.
I've had this shit happens with smells before. Like before it rains. Had a really emotional but happy experience when I was young when that smell was around, and now if I'm outside when it happens it's a huge pick-me up and nostalgia trip. If a bit depressing knowing it's gone, though.
I can't remember them vividly. I feel like I'm outside my body and I'm losing my mind. The only one I remember is one that happens a lot, when I was younger, I gave someone some advice that ended up with them leading a very bad life for a few years, and eventually dying. I know it's not my fault, but I can't get it out of my mind. I don't know how to explain it. The rest are stuff like that but I can't remember them
Where's my Misaki guys? I've been waiting for a while
>Misaki will never save you
Not even Rena can save me anymore ;_;
My mom grew up on a farm and she's always giving me shit because I hate my job. She had to work nonstop as a kid and as an adult she does like 12-14 hour workdays so if I ever have a shitty day hers was always worse.
Nothing quite like wanting to complain but knowing the person you think would emphasize most knows you haven't dealt with shit in comparison.