I broke this girl's heart. I really fucked her over, and I never apologized. It's been two years now. Should I message her and apologize? Would Valentine's Day be a bad day to do that? Should I wait?
Or should I just stay out of her life and not remind her of what I did.
Tough situation. I'm sure it may suck for her getting reminded of what happened but the closure would most likely help. She doesn't seem to hold it against you too much since she responded to your text.
Ok, it's a fucked up story, but here goes:
She was my first girlfriend. We dated for about two months. It took a while for us to get intimate, but when we did, it was an absolute disaster. Neither of us knew what we were doing. I felt very confused and thought that there was something wrong with me, because I wasn't feeling anything while we were trying to do it. No sensation at all. And she was very scared. She wouldn't touch me or do anything to try and arouse me. She just lay there like a dead fish. So I gave up and that was when I really fucked up. At the time I was beginning to suspect that I might not have been totally straight. I definitely had crushes on guys throughout my life. But I wasn't gay. Just slightly bisexual. But I led her to believe that I thought I was bisexual or maybe gay, though, and told her I couldn't be with her any longer. And I got dressed and left and never saw her again. How's that for your first time? Pretty awful right?
Yeah I thought my first time was bad, but that's textbook pathetic
Pretty sure you'll be able to laugh it off with her in a few years though. I'm sure she's levelled up sexually just as much as you have
So what do you guys think? Send her a heartfelt apology? Also...should I even try to get things started again? Or did I blow any chance of ever having a relationship with this girl.
Yeah, the other thing is, I am autistic. And I only found that out recently. So that explains a lot about my behavior. There are other incidents I can point to as well. Should I tell her I'm an autist?
For the love of god leave her alone.
It has been two years. Apologize if she initiates contact with you at some point. Do not go out of your way to make your presence a bigger part of her life.
You already hurt her. Do not open that up ESPECIALLY on Valentines Day.