I'm 19, I've never been in love, I've never had a friend, and I have no sort of interests, hobbies, or passions worth a shit. All I want is to be wanted by someone else. Sometimes I fantasize about not ever existing.
You see, if you try to set yourselves goals to become happy, you can easily become frustrated if you don't get what you want.
Trough my whole life, I have been consumed by absolute failure on whatever I do. Whatever touch, I break. Whoever I talk to, I hurt. I've always had mental and physical disabilities, I have a poor background of both geographical location, money, country and a hating family.
This made me develop such an advanced defense mechanism that I can only be comfortable by being sad. I'm used to it. I'm happy with being sad, because it at least gives me stability and I can easily focus myself to become voluntarily depressed.
My only forms of fun are anime, waifu pillows, videogames, imageboards and junk food. It's esentially escapism.
Having myself completely withdrawn from the outside world and any relevant human communications to the point that the number of words I say in a day barely gets over the count of fifty, I have come to experiment living by myself and by my imagination.
So I don't want you to encourage me. I beg you to not do so.
i am scared of everything and everyone, i've had several opportunities to change or improve my life and i didn't take them out of fear
the more i'm cowardly and anxious, the more people don't like me. and the more people don't like me, the more i slink down and succumb to fear. i'm a piece of shit with no spine, no nerve, and i don't have what it takes to survive. i just want someone to hold my hand but i can't even make friends.
im a filthy neet who cant take care of herself, i want friends but when i actually try to talk with people i dont have the energy to keep up with them. im scared of everyone and everything. i dont want to get involved with people because im scared in the end theyll end up hating me or turning on me.
I'm trying to make a horror/action/harem manga, but I need someone to bounce ideas off of. Unfortunately, everyone I talk to about my idea says that they hate it. I need someone to help me co-write who has little to no creative control over the story itself, just so I can stay motivated to make it happen.
I'm 19 year old NEET and have no idea what I want, who I am, or what to hope for. I'm at a crossroads and choosing a path feels impossible. It seems like the fact that I was thrown into the world is a weird and cruel joke. I talk about myself to people so little that it feels weird to even type this.
>>26473933 19 years old, enrolled in university, studying for a subject which I'd rather stay away from. I'd say I feel depressed and sad about my life but for whatever reason I just don't feel anything, whether it be love, sorrow, or anger. I just feel empty, and I feel like the rest of my life is empty. I've tried nearly everything to fill the emptiness but so far no good.
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