>i am only alive because of my passion for cars, everything else is dead to me and im depressed or used by my friends ect.
What keeps you going /r9k/?
I don't know, i'm not even eating anymore, I used to eat like 5000 calories a day and was getting pretty fat. But now I don't even want to get out of bed. Eating and basic hygiene is such an inconvenience to my sleeping and watching 8 hour marathons of terrible television.
Think about the problems you have. The things you think about a lot or hate to think about. The things that make you not a normal person in your eyes.
Imagine paying an expert to sit down with you and talk with you about these things. They want to listen because they went to school for this shit. For an hour every week you and all your problems all they're concerned about. And they intend to help you. They won't get sick of you talking their ear off, they won't get sick of hearing about your problems.
It's like a really shitty support group but with only one person and it's not shitty.
If that appeals to you, find someone.
To get you started, this Youtube channel, School of Life, is good for primers on philosophical ideas and figures.
It condenses major philosophers into their lessons on how to live a better life.
Here's an example on The Stoics:
I really have no idea what keeps me going. I kind of feel that I have already been struggling for so many years now that another year won't actually matter from my perspective. I might have a good chance of actually getting somewhere if I keep trying right right now.
i like playing guitar and video games and sometimes doing drugs. i keep feeling like a fucking failure constantly even though i just applied to phd programs. i kind of hate myself a lot. most of my friends pretty much abandoned me. well, really all of them.
it's cool though, i had a blast last night drinking innumerable glasses of whiskey while playing unreal tournament 4 and dota 2. working on a cool new classical piece too, it is a minuet.
Glad you're enjoying. These videos, in a small way, changed my life, because it made me realize just how pessimistic, or realistic, the greatest thinkers are, by modern standards.
ooh baby baby
the bottle's my only friend
my only lover
we kiss all niiiiiight long~
mm mm oh yea
that bitter taste going down
i drink my tears i doooo
oh baby that bottle
yeah she's my only friend