im sitting at my computer desk with a new Acer One 14 cloudbook browsing 4chan and Playing Morrowind. what about you?
idk... all kinds really. the last 3 i watched in reverse order were:
the Revenant (in theaters)
so idk what that says about me..............
next one I see in theaters will probably be kung fu panda 3 coz my half brother (who is 8) wants to see it
Listening to https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=URZZGXtB_os wondering where my life is going.
Why I'm not out there, watching the new Deadpool movie or hanging with friends. Why I don't enjoy interaction and only want to be alone.
Why my biggest fantasy, if I'd ever win the lottery, is to turn away from society even more?
hey dont worry man. im a robot too and i weigh 250lb and have a beard and i just got a date with this awsome girl who loves pokemon and anime and gaming and all sorts of cool stuff we're going to hang out again soon. we met on tindr just be youreself man
my cousin said that they do this cool thing with the camera where when somebody is killed the camera picks up from the perspective of the guy who killed him and so on and so on. he really liked that.
It's not even that I want to socialize, or feel like I'm missing out like so many people these days. I don't crave a gf.
It's just wondering why I became like this? Are there really people who just don't want to be with people? And how do you even live life like that.
Outside of all the r9k in-jokes about wageslaves and being neet, all the memes about how great it is to be a loser, it still feels wrong. Yet being alone feels the most natural.
Could be a sign that you need to see a therapist, lots of people dislike being alone but feel most natural in solitude
It's a contradiction that takes a toll on your mental state
Try and get help sooner than later bro
Is it difficult or just a cute pixel game?
Not to sound like a Tumblr Fuck or anything but Undertale is just....so complex i cant really put it into words i haven't played enough hours to truly understand the emotional beauty behind the story but so far i do like it a lot
I feel you, anon. I don't think it's that crazy to want to live a life with only a few (or even zero) other people involved in it in any substantial matter. It's just that the world crams "be social! Share! Play and work in groups at all time! Never be alone!" down our throats these days - it makes people money; see FBook and OKCupid. People who are content to live alone and within their means aren't big money sucks.
How to live life like this? I'd say find creative pursuits. I write. Some people draw or paint or do digital art or compose songs or whatever. Even if the work's shitty, it's yours. It's part of the actual wisdom behind learning to love the little things.
I think I could even be pretty popular and have a lot of friends... but something inside me rejects that.
Theres a bunch of people I want to hit up and hang out with, but more than I want to do that, I just don't want to
Idk why exactly, just how I'm built.
I was just reading up on schizoid personality disorder, and maybe its something akin to that, idk.
i agree with you anon for exsample i am a pretty solitude guy and i do things like writing to pass the time mainly poetry. ive published 4 books on amazon so far and i have created 3 seperate websites (with weebly) one is for game reviews and one is for creepypasta's i also had a bit of a "blowing up" recently on Wattpad i wrote a fan fic called "Falls out balls out : putting a pipe in piper" and it has 500+ views now.
I just got home from work and had some dinner. I've been trying to find another job or something I'd enjoy doing as a career but I haven't figured anything out. My co-worker wants to give me the phone number of their military recruiter, I've been thinking about joining if I can't get another job soon.
I'll admit it's nice to listen to depressing music and talk to robots about melancholy things, it's cathartic. It's what I want to do, alone.
It's more the idea of accepting that I'm a loner and wondering how to deal with life like that. You don't function well as a robot on the workfloor, surrounded by extroverts. College is putting a strain on me and my interests as it revolves around group projects and hanging with them at the same time; if you don't it's bad for the group atmosphere.. or something. I feel this is really where the issue lies: dealing with what others want from you as an introvert who wants nothing from others.
I think that's the best way to deal with it yeah, a hobby or an interest. Something to devote yourself to. It's just managing the energy for that when the outside already requires so much of it.
Just finished lifting. Now look at fat hate material because I can't see how fat people like themselves at all for not wanting that natural dopamine high that comes from exercising. Instead, they artificially create the flood and the brain wants to repeat it over and over again until you develop tolerance so that you have to eat more just to get the dopamine flood.
idk if you should really HATE anyone for any particular reason...thats how humankind fucks itself over with wars and such. but i get you i havent been to the gym in a few months and when i went on the tredmill i only lasted 8min because my knees started to burn. i was loseing a SHIT ton of weight now im 250lbs again. what tips do you have for working legs because i few months ago i could run for a straight hour and not stop
she jumped off a fucking cliff. she took a taxi to the top of a mountain, and jumped off a cliff. we thought that she had gone missing. they didnt get her body down for days afterwords because there were heavy fucking rains all frickin week. it was last may. she had serious diagnosed depression and all this but it just drives me crazy ...we're a well off family...i had my own spell of serious depression too ...she was only in high school
might go for a walk soon
i should be looking for a job or at least filling out applications for the ones i'm interested in but i'm not
>getting ice cream with your mom
How old are you anon? Not judging, just wanna know
Christ that's rough, i feel for you man
I got a job at goodwill last week and it's good, little social interaction and the hours are decent, check out smaller corporations like that
Met an emo/scene twink who is into having his feet worshipped. Since neither of us can host due to living with parents, I am taking him to see Deadpool and I will lay on the ground and lick his soles while he watches the movie.
Yeah, I did it about a month ago during The Force Awakens. I met these two emo skater guys at my friend's party and a few days later we went to see the movie. I had one guy on my face while the other guy rested his feet on my crotch.
Well, it's 5:29 saturday morning here and I can't fall asleep so I cracked open a beer.
Racing thoughts before falling asleep have been keeping me up fo a few weeks now, and only alcohol seems to calm them enough that I can even fall asleep without noticing the nonsense I am thinking.
I guess I'm slowly realizing that my wiring may be a bit fuddled up, and sharing this felt good.
Back in the past I almost hoped that I would have some legitimate reason for being a loser robot, but now that I may have one, I really don't want any mental illness. Then again, I hindsight, I may have been experiencing symptoms since my teens and this was all an inevitable build up for my realization.
Even better, handjob in the car before the movie and then a footjob sometime during the movie. I also think I can get him to blow me after the movie in my car but that one is not for sure.
It's been 3 weeks since my cat got lost.
I had lost contact with everyone years ago, everytime I felt like a depressed piece of shit and started pacing and acting erratically this cat would always walk up to me and try to call my attention until the mood went away, effectively helping me have it in check for the last couple of years.
Now I'm all alone and I failed to recover the one being who cared about me in one way or another. Last I knew is he was getting into people's homes as if trying to find this house and that someone tore down a couple of the missing posters after I put them up.
I have literally 0 social interaction with anyone right now and since my cat is no longer here to distract me I've been thinkin it's about damn time I kill myself as I should have 5 years ago. God know's my life hasn't gone anywhere.
Yeah, it is definitely a good catch. First time I had any luck using craigslist for this type of shit. Got a reply within an hour and the guy was exactly what I was looking for, hairless emo twink. The best part is he is kind of tall and has size 12's. Wasn't sure it was legit, but we met up at McDonald's and the dude gave me an amazing over the pants footjob so I'm really excited for the real deal this time around.
Sleep on it. Make a choice in the morning. Here is instructional in case you choose this path.I wish I could post an instructional if you chose to keep going, but Lord knows if that existed I'd be using it. Good luck.
well i just got home. when i was out i ran into a girl from elementary school that i haven't seen in like 16+ years
legit 9/10, we only talked for a few minutes but she seemed nice and sweet. i was never her friend or anything in school and i didn't even recognize her, but we talked for a minute or two and i didn't sperg out or anything. a friend of a friend told me later on that she's a lesbian now. so... that was interesting.
Sitting on the computer listening to music and pondering if i should buy a note 5 tommorow because i want a newer phone but dont really know why if i have no social media sites or friends for that matter.
Took a few shots of tequila and watched Pokemon the movie 2000 and then fapped. About to go to sleep in a bit.
Not a whole lot I went to physical therapy and ive been sitting around since. I can't wait until im strong enough to work again but at the same time I don't want to go back to 12hours of waiting for 12hours to be up so I can come home and wait for work to start again.
My dad wont stop calling me and telling me how i'll figure shit out and things will get better but its not true because I can't make it better.
Playing AssCreed Brotherhood.
I noticed one really weird looking green guard with an Italian flag where normally there'd be the coat of arms of the city. There's nothing on the internet about this so I don't know if no one has ever noticed this or whoever cracked the game is just fucking around.