>want to reach out to family and friends for help with my "depression", to have them know what is happening
>don't want to because of the embarrassment and guilt because i'm probably not depressed and am only using it as an excuse for failing in life
Is anyone else impaled on this double edged sword?
Yeah except my family and friends want me to get help desperately after I slashed my wrists up last week. I feel sick with guilt knowing that there is nothing wrong with me and I'm just a weak willed, oversensitive, lazy faggot and they are all worried sick.
Cutting my wrists would be a lame attention seeking attempt, since I know that I can't really kill myself like that.
>I feel sick with guilt knowing that there is nothing wrong with me and I'm just a weak willed, oversensitive, lazy faggot
Are you me? That's pretty much the situation I'm in. Everything I could need in life is/was there, but I gave up over the tiniest setbacks.
My parents are that worried. They made one half assed attempt to help me and I shut them down. Now they're almost content with it, despite me lying in bed 22 hours a day. I even ignored, possibly the last, phone call from my friends.
I don't think we'll ever find a way out of this.
Yeah it was a lame attention seeking attempt. Complete and utter faggotry. I feel like going to a therapist to placate them but I know I'd have literally nothing to say apart from 'I'm a lazy useless, self pitying, ungrateful brat, I know what I need to do to fix my life but I never do it because I'm too lazy.' I am a pretty detestable excuse for a human being anon, I can't think of many people who are lower than me in terms of value. Even heroin addicts build up some kind of tolerance to hard ship.
Its a double edged word OP
Dont tell them you're depressed. Talk to them what you are depressed about.
And if you dont know why. Start to take stock of your life and understand where the depression stems from.
Journaling helps this process alot.
And if tou cant find a reason then tell them about how you've been feeling.or to a doctor.
I know what you mean with the therapist stuff. When my parents tried to help me, they tried sending me to one. I'd be ashamed to walk into his room. Sometimes I have these daydreams where I'm talking to one. Either admitting how I'm an ungrateful cunt or trying to "simulate" how it would go down.
> I am a pretty detestable excuse for a human being anon, I can't think of many people who are lower than me in terms of value
Looks like there's more of us.
Heroin addicts have an easy way out.
I feel your pain desu. They just won't listen...and I can't even end it bc I know they will all hate me for it.
I actually wrote down my thoughts and past, unpleasant events during my peak sadness. Apart from the temporary relief, it didn't help much.
>Talk to them what you are depressed about.
That absolutely makes sense. However it's also the problem. Objectively there is nothing to be depressed about. How are you supposed to vent and complain to someone who is worse off than you? Doing that would make me the biggest douchebag in the world. Not becoming a douchebag and cunt by keeping this to myself is the only decent thing I can do.