What the fuck am I doing with my life? I'm just... existing. I'm doing stuff only if I really have to. I'm just wasting time on shitty forums, youtube, twitch etc. I'm either feeling tired and bored or sad/lonely/depressed. How do I start living? How do I not lose motivation after a few days?
I'm expecting to get life changing advice on a Canadian fishing enthusiast forum.
Just do things
Keep doing things until you die
There's always things to do to pave the way to greater happiness
And commit. Lifting for amazing feels, even when everything else is shit. Social hobbies for socializing. Reading for knowledge. Instrument for fun.
This right here OP.
I was feeling robotic for a while but I made a change in my life. now I'm reading a lot more and learning an instrument. Things aren't perfect but they sure as heck are better than they used to be.
2nd learning an insturment
Try something like a bongo drum, one of mans earliest and easiest instruments get sorta above shit with it and meet friends at a drum circle, meet up with people to make music and go on adventures with
You have a limited amount of decision making energy in a day. You also have a budget of attention, which you need to have deep focus on something, which is what makes it feel fulfilling and keeps you going.
The Internet offers an unprecedented way to spend your attention and decision making. Imagine going to a library and seeing somebody taking a book of the shelf, reading a paragraph then tossing it aside and grabbing another one at random, repeating till they've opened hundreds of books in the span of an hour. This is what we're doing online, is cultivating a mindset of distraction. If you're web surfing, browsing 4chan or social media too much, you're filling your head with so many people and possibilities that you'll be overwhelmed and do nothing. It's simple to fix this, but it's not easy. You have to find ways to overcome the constant desire to check email, social media, and browse. Try turning your phone or Internet off for a few days and see what you're capable of.