What keeps you guys going?
There is nothing besides my mother who is preventing me from ending it all. What reason is there to keep waking up every morning to go to classes I hate, then to a job that is aggravating?
There is no objective reason. The reason we exist is to further our species, maybe this continued advancement will eventually lead to something worthwhile, maybe it won't. We'll be fine without you as far as that goes.
As far as subjective reasons go, finding a reason to live can be your first reason.
This is probably the more important factor
The hope that I will find a cute, clever, introverted and immature girl just like in an anime, my somebody, I'm going back to study this year at a new uni so maybe I'll find her.
I wanna keep being the example of what (and what not) to do for my brothers. I want to be an example of how even low scum like me is capable of doing something good.
I also still believe in genuine love...and that I'll find someone.
Anime, Video games and weed mostly. I used to really enjoy them while drinking soda but now my live is completely fucked. There are several games I'm forward to, I know video games haven't been good for a while but there have been exceptions so surely some of them will be good.
I don't know anymore.
Before today, I would get off of work and feed my stray cats outside my apartment. Walking up to my building and seeing 5 cats running up awaiting me brought me joy I haven't felt in years. Someone actually needing me and benefiting from my existence was the shit.
When I got off earlier, I found out they were all trapped and brought to the shelter, so here I am without a purpose in an empty apartment. This world is shit.
I'm extremely poor though and can't afford to move out.
Maintenance has been taking pictures of me and my neighbor's porches (she's not even involved) to see what's been coming. They've been putting a lot of effort to stop them coming for a while now. There's storage sheds by my window that they'll put food in and lock them in there. It got to the point where I had to learn how to lockpick and learn the internal structure and which shed door can connect to what to get them out. They slept in the drain pipe during the day which is no life to live. Two of the females were in heat so I'm really thinking life was just throwing me constant signs.
there's a lot of hentai I haven't fapped to
Pretty much this. I tried to kill myself and failed and it fucked my parents up. So now I'm still alive like a parrot in a cage they keep around because sometimes it says funny things.
My probation officer is giving me hell lately and my job fucking sucks, so lately Ive been thinking about how much worse it would be in prison.
I kinda figure I'd just sit around and read books and lift weights. If people wanted to hurt me, I'd probably just escalate the situation until they killed me, it wouldnt be my fault then.
I day dream about "accidentally" putting a nail through a live wire and blowing myself out of a 4th story window all the time at work. Workcover insurance pays out heaps if you die on a job site, so I wouldnt leave my parents with my debt and they would never have to know it was suicide.