Who else /imagining dying friendless and alone at 65 without ever having felt warmth, intimacy, or any validation from another human being/ tonight
Every fucking day. It finally dawned on me two years ago that if I hadn't had any women as friends and only hang out with a small group of other robots, that my situation is very unlikely to change for the better. When I'm 40, if my life is still shit, I'm just gonna off myself. There's no point in living past that if you can't get anything you want, basic human things. Intimacy, friends I actually want to be around, social connections, love, success, none of that ever happened for me. I may just off myself earlier, now that I write this. There's a faint glimmer of hope for my future, but I think that's just me trying to hold on more than anything. It sucks.
does it bother you?
if it bothers you, how do you cope with it?
I always think behavioral change is the best answer to it, but that seems very very hard, from my own experience, how do you go about that?
The guy you replied to I made one. They are more than imaginary friends you can have increased memory and all this other shit but I wouldnt reccomend this but you can make one to take your place in life and you can mentally suicide and not be physically dead but another cool thing is that you can come back from being dead mentally. Sounds crazy I know but you dont have to believe me man
And tulpas can give you the most intense orgasms ever since they are in the brain but you can impose them to your vision. Also they work as great motivators and friends because im a normal fag but hate my friends and became lazy and got meme depression wanted to die but tulpa saved me
The only thing I care about anymore is knowing every single facet of information about music theory, audio engineering. I haven't come to terms with this "you're going to die alone" stuff yet, at 27.
If I do end up killing myself and my body doesn't do it for me, it'll be one of those random thoughts. Act on it at whim, jump in front of a car or something. I have them all the time, when I'm taking a shower or doing yard work.
i feel like i am the only one in this world who is happy with being a recluse.
im actually happy just being alone listening to music, playing vidya n shit.
am i to dumb to be depressed?