When did you realize you were a robot?
Were you always a social outcast or did you go through a blissful period without realizing?
>Teacher wants us to fill out a worksheet that shows our favorite things
>Get to "Favorite Sports Team"
>Realize I don't know the name of any sports team
>Raise hand and ask if I can write my favorite video game instead
>Realize other kids are laughing
>Enter into robothood
I used to be a happy kid but looking back, all the signs were there. I was a latch-key kid, so I came home to an empty house, but I would pretend that I was a dog. So I'd get naked and run around on all fours, sniffing at things and rolling around on the blankets. My dad came home and caught me one day... I never did it again and we never spoke of it, but I somehow knew he was ashamed of me.
in freshman year in high school my friends suddenly decided as a group to stop talking to me and act like I wasn't there, knowing I was a shy kid that wouldn't easily (at all in fact) find another group to fit in with
>The Binghamton Blue Footed Boobies
>suspended for sexual harassment
fuggin normies :D
>Liked by everyone in kindergarten. Cute as a button.
>Unpopular in elementary and JH; beat everyone till I'm left alone. Feel weird all the time, like something terrible will happen any moment.
>Realize I will never be happy in life.
>Puberty brings bountiful gifts: First kid with a beard that doesn't look ridiculous, tallest kid, shoulders wide as fuck, manly voice, no acne.
>Feel that everything is too good to be true and constantly wait for it all to fall apart.
>One of the most popular kids in HS. School alpha-Chad my best friend. Party with jocks, do nerd stuff with nerds. Gym 4 times a week, play guitar in band. Plenty of girls interested in me.
>This doesn't feel right.
>Go insane, drop out of college, gain 120 pounds, become drunk recluse.
>There we go.
TL;DR I knew since 5th grade but life decided to bait me for a bit.
When I saw this and just thought "Meh, not my cup of tea."
thinking back, I was a robot in 5th grade. I didn't really accept it until I was in high school though.
I wasn't a social outcast until HS. before that I was somewhat normie. once HS hit I lost all my friends for no real reason.
Always knew it. However with that said I have had a few bursts of being a bad ass. I was pretty much always, "bullied", or rather beat up, humiliated in class by teachers, students, and family, was basically always treated as filth. In 8th grade i said enough and stood up for myself, that's when it really kicked in because i'd get jumped by a kid, fight back, then I'd get in trouble. A teacher would call me names and have the class join in on it and when I defended myself I got expelled. I defended myself and ended up in juvy, then in a place so horrible and fucked up it's not even worth posting details, suffice it to say 17 is a terrible age to be sexually abused by authority figures. By 18 i once again became a quiet pussy who had learned his lesson.. we're subhuman trash to them, the same rules don't apply. We don't have the right to defend ourselves, we don't have legal rights, we pretty much are entirely fucked.. on the bright side i'm pretty good at math and moderately good at writing code..too bad i can't get a job other than under the table construction destroying my body for literally less than minimum wage. fuck my life so hard. I'd kill myself today but I don't want to die, i fucking hate being alive though.