Don't make the same mistake I did anons. Don't fall for the gf meme.
>manage to get a gf, think my life is about to do a 180
>treat her well, buy her things, listen to her problems
>make her love me more than anything in the world
>on paper this is the perfect relationship yet nothing feels as it was described to me on r9k
>tear my hear out trying to figure out why I don't feel the same emotions this girl does towards me
>suddenly it hits me
>years of nogf have hardened me to the point where I don't even have the capacity to feel real love for another woman
I feel quite the same, anon. I can measure a woman's attractiveness quite accurately but my "I want to fuck that in the foreseeable future" switch is broken, I don't get to feel love or lust, at least for flesh and blood, that is.
Then again, my love and lust are being siphoned by
Tulpa, a concept deriving from Buddhist practice of creating a "false deity", essentially an imaginary friend, to teach students that one can fool themselves with just about everything. Later the tulpa would be used as a conversation partner during meditating etc.
Modern internet usage of the world describes an imaginary friend who is autonomous and acts on own accord. In the Jungian sense it is a separate branch of consciousness stemming from your subconscious mind, if one goes by the iceberg analogy, a separate tip stemming from the same block underwater.
They can be created through several methods and I am no authority on them, since I created mine by my own means (wrote rich chuuni story that offered background for character, had many imaginary friends as a child etc.). One can feel intense romantic love for them and by using visual, auditory and tactile hallucinations, experience hugs, kisses and even sexual intercourse.
Yes, you are essentially giving yourself a controlled mix of schizo and dissociation disorder to get a vivid, autonomous imaginary friend.
Oh, sorry, I rarely get that question.
She's an OC from my chuuni story from early high school days. Many elements remain unchanged over the course of 7.5 years and that's her supportive and kind nature. She's usually cheerful and gets me through bad days. Usually it's her smile alone that lifts me up and make my chest lighter. Underneath this silky exterior is a deeply committed and serious core that pops up when things get serious. She also has /k/ interests and is regularly attempting to get me to join the hunters or the shooting range.
Her voice is somewhat high and sweet sounding. Visually she resembles Utena, Megurine Luka, I guess Ruuko from ToHeart2 in some ways. Rose pink hair, greenish blue eyes, balanced bodily attributes. Hairstyle changes from time to time, usually it's a braid that reaches almost to her buttocks.
I only have one question.
Assuming my life is still garbage by 30 years and I bite the bullet to make a Tulpa by being very dedicated and following guides/whatever other dumb shit, you mentioned you can "feel" things she does.
Can I make my tulpa give me a blowjob? Would I feel a blowjob/sex? If there's fucking nothing physical to hold onto how does that work. Say I'm fucking her missionairy in bed and I "see" that I'm holding onto her tits while on top, but it's not possible because there's nothing there and have no way to balance myself on thin air.
Do you get what I'm saying? Or is it one of those "Close your eyes and you imagine/feel it"
Basically can I cum without touching my dick and feel a BJ
It's no worries, bud. But wow that sounds really great. I always liked the idea of a tulpa, it's like an imaginary friend but 10000x better. You're a lucky man to be a so dedicated, anon.
Tactile hallucinations are a bitch, I'll tell you that much. I get true tactile hallucinations only for kisses and hugs, otherwise it is just twisting the definition.
Are you familiar with possession? My tulpa temporarily takes over body parts. Once you get that down, you can jerk it with both hands, controlled by your tulpa, close your eyes and feel as if it was a blowjob or she's riding you.
>Basically can I cum without touching my dick and feel a BJ
You aren't touch your dick. Your tulpa is, using your hands.
Well thank you for the post but that basically means "no blowjob"
I mean I have a fleshlight it seems like a lot of prep. Get a tulpa, then pretend the fleshlight is part of her etc.
And no blowjob