I am a closeted homosexual /r9k/.
I've known I was gay since I was thirteen. But the amount of people who know can be counted on one hand.
I accept the fact that I'm gay. I'm not in denial about it or anything. But I always keep up the facade of being straight. Doesn't matter if it's in real life or online. I even go as far as to make up stories about girls I've been with that have actually never happened. I just pathologically lie like that. And it's pathetic.
My parents have asked me a bunch of times if I'm gay, since it's weird that their son has never had a girlfriend or any woman around him, and I just pretend that I'm not gay and I'm just a straight loser.
These words are the truth. I'm telling the truth for once and I'm hoping some kind robots out there can comfort me.
I know that feeling. I don't want anyone to know the truth because I don't want people to see me differently. I doubt most of my male friends would want to talk to me anymore.
I am happier not thinking about it.
This is me exactly, man. It's just easier to pretend that I'm a heterosexual or asexual being and deny myself.
I don't want others to look down on me for what I like to do and who I love
>My parents have asked me a bunch of times if I'm gay, since it's weird that their son has never had a girlfriend or any woman around him
You think that's bad?
Imagine being asked this by your parents as a HETEROSEXUAL guy
I am a lot happier when I forget what I truly am. My happiest days are when I feel like nobody sees my true sexuality.
I realize when I feel an attraction to a random handsome guy, but I always keep that to myself. I just wish there were a pill I could take to make me heterosexual. Having a male friend means more to me than having a male lover.
no to all 3
I hate disappointing people. They want me to get married to a woman and have kids. I can't do that
I always wish I had a gf but when I dig deeper, above the surface I know I want a bf and not a gf. I kind of force myself to try and want a gf but I dont
Your sexuality is your business. You don't have to tell everyone down your face. If someone ask if you're gay you just tell it. No big rush.
>being scared of judgement cause gay