how can i stop assuming the best?
im currently in a mentality where if i buy a lottery ticket i feel so convinced that i'll win because i'm me.
i want to get to a place where i expect to lose in everything so i cant get hurt. that way i wont be surprised when the statistically likely occurs and i will be overjoyed when something rare happens
change your world line with a telephone time machine
Cynical bitterness gradually makes everyone you loved begin to hate you and disappear.
>tfw everything someone else likes you mentally tear down
>tfw you immediately distrust anything that looks like it might turn out good
>tfw you can only like something for a certain amount of time before you build a plethora of reasons it's shit and you shouldn't waste time on it
I want off this ride.