If I kill myself while in highschool, will there be some memeorial video thing with pictures with me? (If anyone has experienced a classmate killing themselves). Even if I'm dead, that'd be really embarrassing.
yeah, it will be full of people claiming to know you and care about you.
really, if you are still in Hs, that's reason enough not to hero yet.
you do not want to give them a chance to parade their fake emotions, because they will cry, and they will feel better about themselves because of it.
they will think themselves in touch with each others emotions, they will think themselves more human, and secretly they will all think themselves better than you.
fuck em anon, don't give them that.
If you literally don't know anyone there, probably not. But you had to ask, so you likely know enough people to be concerned.
Also you're an underagefag with a developing brain. There are dozens of anons here that contemplated suicide but later realized how myopic their reasons for it were. Yeah I'm one of them. I'm not saying there's no reason to kill yourself, I'm just saying at least wait until you're away from any shitty parents or bullshit social hierchies (like, say, school) that are unfairly influencing your decision.
One highschool I went to had a entire page with a shitty photoshop and a low res photo of a kid who killed himself. Another school I went to just announced it in the morning and dedicated some shitty bench with his name on it and a dr seuss quote. Nobody really cared and joked about them after they died.
Don't kill yourself OP.
Chances are high they'd make tribute videos even after high school just to feel like they made a "difference". This was some guy I went to high school with who OD'ed. No one did shit while he was killing himself, but happily made tributes after he died.