fat female feels
> get fat
> no one wants you
> start losing weight
> gain the attention of creepy old homeless guys
> miss being invisible
> just wanted to look good in my Zara jeans
>have fat female friend
>shes pretty cool but not attractive
>watching anime and drinking at her house one night
>"a--anon... can i ummm... give you a blowjob?"
>grope her huge fat tits and blow in her mouth
I've always been fat.
Fat to the point where I'd need tens of thousands of dollars for surgery to look somewhat normal after I finish losing this weight.
The problem is I have a decent face and the actual shape of my body looks like it's pretty good. I'm worried I'm going to get attention and then go into spaghetti mode and blurt out I look like a pile of putty underneath because how else do you turn someone down or explain without giving a horrible visual? I don't want to look like some kind of stuck up bitch or lead someone on thinking I'm a qt when I have a young face, but have the body of an 80-year-old that stepped on a mine.
>be land whale
>don't get any attention from anyone other than homeless guys because I'm a fat lazy fuck
>make a thread on /r9k/ to get the attention and pity I'm starved for
Pretty pathetic, m80
>have always been fat
>have always been too poor for real clothes
>the homeless have consistently foiled my suicide attempts
>leg breaking through snow has lacerated and infected leg badly
Anyway, you can be visible/invisible anywhere from 2/10 to 8/10, just stop looking like a painted whore.
try for what? You said it yourself, you'll never feel comfortable inj your body. For you to try harder and have jhope it would imply that you know that your end goal will make you accepted of yourself and it wont. Thasts life
you lost life
I know I have many qualities people like in a person already and can improve myself even more in ways besides looks. There's still hope because there are many people out there without the most amazing physical appearance that are able to find love. I can also do my best to be as frugal as possible and save up for the surgery I need as well.
I could try doing this and I also know there are some men out there that would like a relationship without sex from some virgin threads.