Well, I finally did it /r9k/. I got a girl friend, I became a wage cuck. I spend my time with someone I love who loves me back, and try my hardest to make a living. All this time I thought that when I finally reached this point, I would somehow climb out of depression like i'm sure the rest of you did if you ever could "make it". The trouble is, the emptiness doesn't go away. It's maybe bandaged for a few hours, but in the end whenever you find yourself alone, that soul crushing emptiness comes back. I'm feeling that pretty hard right now, could use some good slow/sad songs to beat me while i'm down until I climb out of this.
>tl/dr Songs for making you feel sad as apposed to empty. Starting with Into the Ocean by Blue October.
that emptiness or darkness comes from your soul. Your soul isn't happy because you are immoral. Start acting like a moral person, do not be a sexual degenerate, do not cuss, do not lie, do not gossip, do not manipulate others, do not steal, help people when they look like when they're need, when you find a lost item do not leave it but pick it up and turn it in somewhere, etc. Then that darkness feeling of your soul being in the pit will go away and your vitality will be restored.
Don't listen to this guy.
You can never get rid of depression. The best you can do is have it go away temporarily with the right medicine and therapy. You must learn to live with it and find a therapist/doctor you trust (don't just stick to the first one you go to if you don't click), try medication until you find the right one that works for you.
got songs, mostly hip hopish and bluesy so maybe not for you, but sad.
Wish I could say I was a fan of Hip Hop, God's Bathroom Floor wasn't all bad though.
I've tossed around the idea of medication a few times. I'll definitely consider it again, I know I can't live feeling like this.
Please do. Medication can be a lifesaver (literally). Be upfront with your doctor if your prescription doesn't kick in within a month or two. They will have you try another one until they find one that works. Don't give up.
Of course, it's time-consuming but when you get something that works, that little dark cloud looming over your head will be gone.
posting more cause I'm high and awake and have nowhere else to be
Op here. I'll try to contribute a bit.
For whatever reason the Dead Island theme song makes me cry every time I hear it.
I've been toughing it out for the last ten years of my life. It's usually just sat there and manifested until it all spilled out in one dreadful night. Now though, it's being topped off with paranoia and stress. It's getting to be too much to bare.
its because, from the inside, you know that those are not "real"
i doubt anyone here will understand what i mean tho. she might really love you, and you might really enjoy your work, and standin on your own feet is deffinetly good. but, if u know what i mean, you -me, them- always feel like you are playing a game. carrying a vessle and calling it "me". like a suit. a suit that creates its life around itself. but it can be taken off. its not "really" you. so thats why. thats why, it never feels as good as in our imagination. in our imagination, when we daydream about havin a girlfriend, friends, a job that we enjoy etc, feels like "a part of us". thats why its satisfying. thats why people strive to "have" things. but when u "get" those, you feel empty. because the distance between real you and your "shell-selfs life" become further. what is real then? you. just you. nothing more. whatever you accomplish, it will never "fill" you.
you dont know the real goodness of bein a neet.
I really like to listen to Alice in Chains when I'm in a sad state of mind. Or radiohead. I think depressing music makes one feel understood and it's a good thing to listen to stuff like that in times like this