Somebody out-loser me here..
>addicted to lottery
>mother supports and encourages my lottery habits
>mother is a religious zealot convinced I can hear the voice of God
>makes me believe it during the episodes too
>once I come back to my senses, I realize I'm just a mentally ill spastic that's following in the genetic steps of my brother
>when I was younger I started a small cult
>comprised of four edgy teenagers
>only reason I got laid by a schizophrenic girl
>eventually she realized how convoluted it all was and how messed up I and the group were
>she blocked me on every piece of social media
>god I miss her
Damn dude, that sounds....HOL UP
>>only reason I got laid by a schizophrenic girl
>I got laid
>by a girl
NORMIEEEE GTFFFOOOO REEEEEEE
It was the prime time of my youth, honestly. I can understand why people align with organized religion and climb the ranks. A cult, on the other hand, is so much more different. I wasn't as fat or ugly back then but I was quite stupid and usually entrenched in these convoluted ideas. It was a strange anarcho-communist religion where I was seen as the mouth of God. I know one of the kids has committed suicide, but fuck I miss the girl so much and have no idea whether she's dead, homeless, in a psych ward, or recovering. Glad my new medication is sorting me out better now.
Would have to lose weight and find more mentally ill teenagers or adults grouped in singular locations. Was a hell of a lot easier in high school.
Now I have up and down moments it'll be strange to convince myself I'm not deliberately taking advantage of people. Before I was genuinely convinced I was helping lead my group above the normie masses.
Same boat OP. schizo, convinced I was doing the right thing.
>tfw you realize you were the worst thing ever to happen to her
>tfw she has every reason to hate you
>tfw you look back on the times you argued with her and realize in a sickened cold sweat that you were full on delusional and you were hurting her grip on reality and you were hurting her you were hurting her you were h
>Top 10 College, majored in STEM
>Steady upper middle class job with good >upward mobility prospects
>Decent apartment, no debt
>Loving parents and brothers