>been crazy about a guy for years
>can't talk to him as frequently anymore
>start getting into other hobbies and friend groups
>think of him everyday despite that
>suddenly feel like I'm not thinking of him enough
>end up starting shit in other groups to get disliked so the only person I can trust to not do it is him
He's passionate about so many things, is exciting to talk to, I'm never bored when I'm doing anything with him even if I wouldn't like that activity usually, he's very tolerant of dumb shit I've done, and he was the only person that kept me positive during a very difficult time I had.
He might like me back, but I doubt within this year even. I'm not going to try actually getting together with him until I'm with him in person. He's very social and it would be incredibly unfair to him if I expected him to return my feelings when he has so much else going for him. All I can really hope is that I get back on my feet economically and eventually manage to move there.
Right now I'm entirely sure he's not interested in me that way, and he really doesn't have any reason to so I don't blame him.
Not really, there's no reason to since if I do it might just put a distance between us. I don't want something as easy to break as an LDR anyway, potentially ruining any future chance I have because of rushing it isn't something I would like to do.
First thing that caused it was because of him playing another online game and me choosing not to play it with him for once. As a result he was playing with his real life friends more and I didn't have much to add whenever he talked about it. Then there was a short break after that where we talked like usual, but it was short because he was going to a thing he does every year with his friends which takes up a few weeks or so, in which he doesn't talk as often. The past years it was difficult for me to even deal with at all, but even then he went on a couple of times occasionally to talk a bit. This year it's been less of that, and since I was associating with other friend circles I felt guilty in a way.
I'm just hoping things return back to normal once he comes back, I really don't have much reason to do anything without him.