>The cold realization that everyone is better than you and the impotent rage that comes afterwards
>That feeling of "I'm never going to find a suitable wife"
>That realization when talent is determined by genetics and you were born genetically inferior
The more practice you put into it, you better you get,
unless you mean like all of a sudden after doing piano for a few years you can compose entire movements like fucking bach, If you mean like that then you have to work hard because you don't get that ability overnight.
>first little brother 6'1
>second little brother 6'2
>third little brother 6'1
Just end my penis famfam
If we look at life from a biological perspective, you're just a vessel made to propagate your genes, you contain genes that are good at making survival machines which is why you are alive currently, your desire for resources, women, happiness has no value, it is Simpy part of a collection of mechanisms utilized by your genes to get you to propagate your genes, if we're going to say there is a point to life then the only honest answer we can give is the propagation of genes. There's also the fact that we don't have free will. The universe ins governed by physical laws. Energy, which everything is made of acts in accordance with physical laws. since this is the case. if given the speed, momentum, and position of every atom in the universe, you would be able to predict the physical state of the universe at a future time. This means all the actions you perform are determined. If at this point you decide to bring up Quantum Dynamics to claim that the universe could be random, you still wouldn't have free will, you can't control anything that happens in your life.
>Tfw continually do shit at a game
>Start getting pissed off
>Eventually throw keyboard at screen
>Get further pissed with myself that I got so wound up at a game
>Feelings of failure
>Lots of other feels
>Feel like there's no way out
>mfw raceb8 threads beat threads like these
I always seem to kill threads when i make posts like these, and on the occasions that people reply, it's always about working really hard or having determination to change. Seems like people don't like being told their lives are pointless. Lol.
>Feel completely empty like there is no point to everything and everything I do is just a distraction
>Feels are so strong and numerous I'm finding it difficult to describe how I feel
>Just a constant emptiness and a longing to end it all.
>tfw classmates from college have almost a decade of work experience at big corporations
>tfw you're a virtual shut in still living in your childhood bedroom
I had my one shot at being successful in my life. All it needed was to wait a year or two, just a bit of patience.
I did not do that. I screwed up hard, ended up in probation with a debt, instead doing that first step to the successful career. Now that one shot is forever gone, my one chance closed.
And I am proceeding with fucking things up, fucking my life up to the point that I need a chance to start anew on a clean slate. Who will gonna give this to you, if you are worse than nobody?
I'm with you. As a gook, I was designed to be good in academics, but lo and behold I'm just another mouth breathing retard who needs to be put down like a rat. Honestly, killing myself is the only solution at this point, but I'm too lazy to do it and I guess cops and all the white supremacists who live near me are too pussy to kill me.
>going to college soon
>roommates will probably force me to come to parties with them, and thus reveal my powerlevel when I spend the entire time standing in the corner
Well yeah from a biological/scientific standpoint it seems pretty pointless.
But by being salty about people not thinking the same way as you do you proved that theres something more
You want, for example, that people agree with you id imagine. Thats already a "goal" in your life nigga
Is it normal to seriously think about suicide ever day? I don't know why or how I keep going. Every day I wake up and hate myself, but I also know I'm better than everyone else around me; it's such an odd feeling.
I'm decently popular, everyone thinks I'm a pretty nice guy and all and girls think I'm "mysterious" because I don't talk much. I just prefer to be alone, I don't know how to talk to people, but I get along well, I feel like I tailor myself to the situation always.
Sometimes I feel like I just, 'wake up' suddenly. I'm confused as to everything that's going on or where I am and nothing seems real. I have to touch things and feel them or feel pain to bring me back to reality. I don't know what's wrong with me..
>tfw black chad (converted as a baby) at my orthodox Jewish college is banging the outwardly-"orthodox" married Jewish lady professors
>tfw Im an attractive sperg who cant seduce women
>tfw Im hopelessly attracted with my orthodox nutrition professor
>mfw Judaism says you are supposed to allow yourself to be brutally tortured to death with blow-torches before you have anything to do with a married woman
Mir ist kalt. So kalt.
>tfw everyone either has skills or is good enough to fake having skills to have at least moderate success and you have jack shit
>tfw your are still shit at the hobby you've spent over 75% of your life on
So I just left a small town bar after pissing a guy off. I'd seen him a few times and met him before, today he had a bag of chips and kinda yelled at a guy I also knew for eating a few of them. I told him I'd get him some more and crushed a few through the bag as a joke.
I really was going to get him more chips but he lost his shit, was pounding the bar so hard he tipped his drink and was screaming he was gonna knock me out. I guess we don't share a sense of humor So I dropped a few bucks at my drink and left. What the fuck though?
>mfw I've been procrastinating over job searching because I don't really want to have to decide what the fuck to do with my life
The only skills I have are for IT admin and procurement roles, and I don't care for IT at all.It's just something I can do. Was thinking of applying to universities next year and maybe doing a sound engineering course