It's 2:30 AM where I'm at and I'm drinking to dull the pain from realizing that I'll be alone all of my life. I simply dont understand how relationships work. I dont know how to walk up to someone and start up a conversation. I can do it, I just don't know why I would, as an example, making small talk with someone in my community college class. I have no reason to talk to anyone there, so why bother? Besides that, I'm sure I'm uninteresting to most people anyways, so that just makes it harder for me to keep one. I just don't know what to do. Any other robots/cyborgs drinking tonight?
I wish I enjoyed alcohol. It seems there aren't any good drugs to indulge in.
>is able to talk to people
>"why talk to people?"
My darling, have you considered talking to people for the purpose of starting a relationship you dumbshit normy reeeee?
I was thinking the same thing at first. 'Obviously you can't say you have no reason to talk to someone if you want a friendship. That's a reason in itself'
But on the understand I understand the feel and have it too. It's more like 'I have no way to talk to someone without it being obvious that I'm trying to form some type of friendship with them, and they won't like it. Sure, they'll be ok with me asking for directions or some thing I "have to do", but they won't want to make small talk because they don't want to invest in a friendship with me. Even the people who know/knew me well don't want to invent in a friendship with me much.'
Yeah, it's something like that. I don't want to make it obvious I want to talk to someone just so that I can get in their pants. Not only that, but I don't really smile often sonething I think makes it harder for me to let people talk to me. Should I just bite the bullet and talk to a gal and make it obvious I want to get in her pants? I feel like I have too much pride for that though
I feel that way too. The only thing I can talk about is bullshit, if they can't talk about bullshit I don't care.
I drink a half bottle of vodka when shit builds up. Usually about once a month.
Im kinda getting worried about myself. I drink about once every weekend, which I feel is too much, but I can't smoke weed because of family. I'd much rather trip on lsd, but my dealer is having a hard time getting some. Im a happy kind of drunk, and when I'm sober, I'm usually not happy, especially now.
>live with parents
>dad made homemade kahlua out of coffee+100 proof vodka
>drank half the bottle of it so far and still going strong
>drinking to forget my past where i had a best female friend and used to be happy
It's 2:20 AM and nobody is on skype but I want to talk