I've been unhappy with life for over 10 years now and i don't feel like that will change desu senpai. Yes i tried meditation and all that shit. Nothing really helped my depression always came back. I feel like it has something to do with the chemistry in my brain
nearly everyone here could technically be diagnosed with 'major depression'
>I feel like it has something to do with the chemistry in my brain
do some research before taking serotonergic or noradrenergic drugs for depression
I was hit with the /majordepression/ diagnosis after I tried to cut my jugular last year. The psych ward doctors were all about doping me up on meds. I'm on Lexapro, Buspirone, Zyprexa, and Hydroxyzine. They help a little, but I'm still fucked in the head and I'm still a neet, so no real improvement in my life.
I think have constant moodswing. I'll walk outside and suddently be overcome by a heartwrenching sadness, wanting to throw myself in front of a car. And the rest of the time is melancholy. I don't really care about getting a diagnostic, I know I am flawed. My emotions seems to be way stronger and last longer than what most people experience. I wish i'd find the courage to kill myself soon.
Dull numbing unwillingness to live for the past 8 years. Not on drugs, not doing anything to repair it.
If I'm not doing anything for long enough, and I am left with my own thoughts I simply just breakdown.
Even my hobbies aren't enough anymore.
mfw They will only answer how they feel necessary.
Tfw Suicide is a viable option.
I am a responsible adult and I apparently know better. Fuck society and their pretentious ways.
ash. i feel so fucking lonely.... it kills me.
i wanna end this up.... make this fucking feelings go away
maybe the problems is all inside of us.
but its ....
i just want someone to talk about.... someone who can show that take care of me....
i think thats the differencve between boys and grills and why girls cant be robots.
girls have standards...
and we just want someone who love us
draw op. you don't need skill just paper and pencil. or mouse and ms paint. just do it and maybe you can at least take your mind off being sad. when i get horny sometimes i draw my own shitty hentai to masturbate and it's a big stress reliever.