>newfound burst of confidence
>dance-walking and singing along to a-ha down the street on the way to the store
>smile at the register-girl while the sun always shines on TV is blasting in my headphones
>she smiles back
>dance-walk back home
>instant anxiety attack as the door closes
>never wanna go to that store again for fear they'll laugh at me
I thought it'd be like in the movies where the fun-loving carefree guy dances down the street in his suit and everyone's so impressed at how he's embraced his love of life... or whatever
It's alright senpai, just relax and drink
>2015 plus one
Try to figure out which events trigger happiness and which events trigger anxiety.
Do not drink caffeine, stimulants, smoke or drink.
Visit a therapist (but don't take medication).
(Seriously I hope you're not getting medication right now)
You're fine man.
I dance-walk sometimes, I even chatter with shop clerks.
If somebody does think you're weird just remind yourself that other people don't really exist, and that you are floating mind trapped in a hallucinatory purgatory by an evil demon.
I didn't know you wanted a real answer.
My opinion is that medication only masks the problem. Much like taking aspirin when you have a tumour. You still need surgery.
Try to figure out what messed you up.
Something went wrong when you were growing up.
Unless you find the source and fix the issues that it caused, no amount of pills will help you.
Not for long.
of course I did. I've been taking SSRI's ever since I was young.
It really did in a way mask it. I felt numb or just really happy. I quit taking them like 6 months ago. I think I might be put on medication again.