>slowly learn to live with it
>took years for me to really unpackage my paranoia and delusions and unfuck myself up
>start behaving like a quasi-normal human being without using medications, finding success in life again
>get a job that's actually in my field
>girl at work starts paying attention to me
>she's always bubbly, always trying to talk to me despite me trying to keep socialization to a minimum because of how oversocialization affects my psyche
>overhear her talking to some other coworker about how hot she thinks I am
>I think she's pretty too but I know I can't handle a relationship, the one and only time I slept with a girl I had a panic attack and assaulted her, fortunately she was too drunk to remember
>still makes me nervous
>brain says no but everything else says yes
>voices start up again
>keep seeing things moving around the yard outside when I know nothing is there
>keep seeing my mother's face in everything
Fucking succubi ruin everything.
Schizophrenia is neurodegenerative. The longer you go without medicine, the more brain damage you will accrue.
Seriously, how do you not know this? Did you not research it at all?
None. Fuck medication, I don't want any pills fucking with my brain, I don't do any drugs.
It's not like I'm seeing visions of shit, I see movement where there is none, and I find patterns where there are none.
Not OP, but schizophrenia causes all sort of auditory and visual hallucinations in its more potent forms. Just look it up on YouTube or some shit, theres a guy that knows he's hallucinating and kinda tells the camera about what he's seeing or hearing
enjoy the ride
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Take your fucking meds you mess. God its better than living in constant panic. Yeah they dull you out a bit but its not unmanageable. At least then maybe you'll score with the qt.
there is no clear cut determination of whether it is or not but the evidence I'm aware of leans towards it not being degenerative. Function is lost at onset but does not get progressively worse.
Dull/sleepy>Hearing voices all day long while you're trying to live a normal life.
Hope to see OP on cnn one day for open firing at a local strip mall cause they couldn't take their pills
>living with schizophrenia most of my life, got it from my mom
>can't afford to stay on medication constantly so I just don't use it (no point taking a medication for a chronic condition if I can't afford to be on it all the time, right? A lot of them can take days or weeks to even start working)
>learned to tell what's real and what isn't for the most part
>still sometimes hear this girl I used to love talking to me
>she's been dead for 6 years
>know it isn't real, but it breaks my heart every time
I think that the meds are just a way to keep us retarded and under control.
Plus, they also make some dosh out of us.
I gave up and stopped trying to fight thought. I just wanna die now.
I don't know when I'm going to get money. I'm untouchable by real employers and what disability I get won't cover my medicine, too. I do odd jobs here and there, mostly computer stuff. But if I don't know whether I can keep myself on the meds there isn't much point. Especially not when they only helped a little to start with.
It varies. I don't constantly hear her, her voice is just one of the hallucinations I get sometimes. I'll have days where I hear her telling me to get out of bed already, or telling me she loves me. Most of what I hear is unrelated to her. Stuff like whispering that I can't quite make out.
I know it's not her talking to me because she was always shy about "sappy stuff" like saying she loved me.
I don't, and have never heard voices in public. I've seen things in public (again, mostly just something darting past the corner of my eye) but no auditory hallucinations.
I get those at night usually, right before sleeping. Fortunately they're mostly in some weird language that I don't, and don't want to understand. The closest language I've heard to it was Aramaic when I saw Passion of the Christ. It's not that though. I also see and hear shit when I wake up in the mornings but I'm pretty sure most of that is just sleep paralysis which isn't anything special.
I remember before meds I heard voices that I thought were demons and angels.
I refused to do what the demons said most of the time, until they went away on their own one day.
Then the angel voices also stopped.
They said I wasn't pure enough yet to be left alone with them.
Then after taking my meds, I had a vision of heaven and the promised city, plus the angel told me I could ask for anything I wanted and so far stuff that I can't explain has happened, like always reaching places in time most of the time, finding good offers, having extra cash that I have no idea where it came from, everything working out great in general. As long as I keep doing my good deeds, the gifts keep coming.
Call me insane, but I believe it is real.
At what age did you start auditory hallucinating?
What age was your diagnosis?
I have a mother who is skitzo
She is actually doing well now that she is alone and stress free.
She used to spend hours at night screaming at the demons and spirits of loved ones.
Speaking as a nephew of someone with Schizophrenia, you really should take your meds until you've gotten older. That way you can establish a circle of loved ones around you, and then when you're old, just stop taking the meds if you want because you now have people to help. It's easier on everyone around you to just take the medications so that you can function without constant worrying about your predicament getting out of hand.
Hope this doesn't frighten you but what if the girl is someone you made up? happened to me once, a new guy shows up in class, includes me in conversations and asks me things. then he stops showing up. I must have been talking to myself in class and involving myself in other peoples conversations like some crazy retard. Don't let that be you.