>click the refresh button 50 times in the last 30 minutes hoping someone acknowledged my existence
>realize I haven't even commented anything today
p-please...just say something to me
What worries me is that I'm heading down the same path as you. 90% of my daily human interaction comes from this board. I'm forming a dependence but at the same time I can't find any other outlet which consistently entertains me and seems to understand me.
We can't stay here forever Anon. At least not to the extent where we obsess over getting replies on an imageboard like this. We need to go outside and try to make the best of whatever's out there. It's especially painful for me since I've been here for so long it feels like everyone here is family. I have to realize that this place isn't family and that the people here wouldn't mind if I jumped off a cliff tomorrow.
I just wish it was easier making friends outside.
>people here wouldn't mind if I jumped off a cliff tomorrow.
Anon I just like sharing the bants with you. I don't want to think about a robot killing himself
you're drawing me back in, I'm supposed to leave this place by the end of the week!
sometimes replies like yours are the only proof I have between months that somebody cares. this is why its so hard to leave
You'll never have the type of relationship you want from r9k. This anonymity gives us the chance to express our feelings, but we'll never be able to be true, blue friends.
IF we tried, it would ruin the power of expression we are afforded. I can talk to you like this BECAUSE I don't know you, and never will. You want something more than that. So go out and get it.
I'll make a couple of posts and then try watch anime or play a game, but I'll keep checking 4chan every two minutes hoping that someone replied to me, but I guess I just shitpost or make stupid posts or something.
I want to say I crave a deep, emotional connection with someone, but at the same time I feel like I should be alone, like I have to be alone because of how boring a person I am. I'm always left behind and forgotten to the people that I talk to online, I'm just an afterthought to everyone.
I here you. Even when you think you've made a particularly well though out post, it will more than often be ignored. So you're either dumbing yourself down or aren't able to respond the way you truly want to.
And if you can't put yourself out there in a honest manner, how could anyone ever respond and connect with you in the way you desire? Not that this is the best forum for that, mind you, but for the likes of us, where else is there?
The beauty of 4chan is having those moments of connection without responsibility later. With regular people, things are continuous, and I always feel like I'll fuck it up. Or they're happy and successful and I don't know how to talk to someone like that when I'm a depressed loser.
Yeah, it honestly feels like the only way to get replies without begging for them is if you're seriously shitposting or you have those weird 10 word avatarfag conversations with someone.
>where else is there
I don't think there is anywhere unless you're specifically hunting people for a small group or something..
It's like I just mimic whoever I'm talking to, their taste, their opinion, the way they talk.
It's such a hollow existence.