>tfw you realize things will not get better and the rest of your life is going to be filled with even more loneliness and depression
>married the wrong person
>she makes me miserable every single day
>she stopped having sex with me several years ago, pretty much the moment after we conceived our child
>she non-stop screams at everyone and makes everyone else in her life as miserable as she is
>no way out of this relationship because she will 100% fuck me over in court
>only make $60k/year, if I divorced her I'd end up with like $15k/year to live on because of alimony and child support
>she hasn't worked at all since she was like 21, so that will fuck me over even more in court
>meanwhile she'll remind our daughter of how much of a loser I am
>high probability that she's screwing someone else and there's nothing I can do about it
>saw some warning signs here and there when we were younger, but I ignored them because I was desperate and didn't think I could get anyone else
>the only way out is literally suicide
>even after I'm dead my daughter will hear about how much of a loser I was and how I never loved her
>we sleep in separate beds and I crave genuine human contact every day
>I watch ASMR videos every night to fall asleep and fantasize about bumping into my ASMR-fu and falling in love
>in reality this life will probably just end in a lonely, pointless suicide
The loneliness never ends, guys.
Fuck that shit. Wait til your daughter's old enough to deal with it and split. Hell, why don't you take her and leave her out to dry. Like >>26234688
said, how are you the loser here?
Go on a kayak trip with this bitch, tip it over and drown her, or go for a picnic by some cliffs and push her off, she fell while you were trying to take a picture.. find a rattlesnake or water mocassin its not that hard put 1 in a box get it mailed to her fill it up with styrofoam peanutts when she sticks hand in bottom snakes bite her senpai, or just crash into a wall and make sure its passenger side
See OP you have the tools at hand
>realize that there will be 50 more years of this
>life is getting better: using my skills to become marketable, using my degree to enter private sector after school. Society paying for my education as proof of some acquired value.
>still a shit-bag robot who doesn't see value in life.
Why can't I appreciate life? This is what I wanted when I was younger and idealistic. Now I'm just going joyless through the motions. I don't see meaning anywhere so I don't see the point in my labors. I just want to live a comfy life now.