>given up on social relations years ago
>barely ever leave the house
>read lots of stuff
>still feel ok most of them time
Humans are not social beings by definition. Everyone who can't enjoy life without constantly being in contact with other people is living a lie. Socialisation might give you the impression but social contact is not necessary for the equanimity of mind and soul. To realize this you will need to go through lots of suffering. But for me, it was worth it.
Am I the only one?
How often do you talk to people on the internet? I'm asking since solitary in prisons is considered to be a really harsh punishment and there is a difference between not talking to anyone and between talking to people on the internet at least.
Or maybe in the prison it's the lack of visual stimuli that fuck you up? Don't know really.
>Or maybe in the prison it's the lack of visual stimuli that fuck you up
I think this might be the point. I don't need to be distracted all the time anymore like I used to be. Back then I was always having bad thoughts and depression. Now this isn't the problem anymore. But if it wasn't for the internet, books, games and stuff it would probably become bad again after a while. It's been good for over a year now though.
That is the thing. After I've been okay for over a year I'm considering to go back into the wage slave world this year. Maybe with this condition I might be able to do it. Wasn't an option years before. Get money through state welfare system right now (germany). That's not much though.
I'm like this too.
But maybe it's my own incompetence for not finding decent friends. Now I avoid social settings all of the time and it's the right choice I sometimes forget.
I'm enrolled in uni still and aim to get a decent job someday.
Gonna read something now.
You feel okay because you come to the internet when you need some semblance of social contact. You don't know what it's like to be truly isolated so any conclusions you come to about the necessity of social contact based on your own experiences are wrong.
>implying you wouldn't kill yourself immediately if there was literally no one to make contact with in any form
Don't worry though, I believe you're smart enough to rationalize why and keep telling yourself you're a lone wolf.
I know that I rely on things that are shaped socially. But it's a difference between direct social interaction and using things that have social background.
I make contact to people by reading stuff for example. I feel connected to an author or a story more than to humans.
Philosophy, /lit/ memes and some /lit/ serious stuff.
Agreed. It's hard to describe but I believe that most human have become excessively addicted to social contact. Which has understandably led to them losing touch with their own personal self or 'spirit' overtime. This has led to numerous problems such as hedonism, consumerism and superficiality. Only after coming to terms with their own individuality can one truly achieve transcendence from this mortal frame. Lack of appropriate self-awareness leads to destructive conformity.