Can we have a thread that isn't arguing or shitposting for once?
Name 1 good thing and 1 bad thing about your year so far?
>got a raise at work
>gained 20lbs since December
I'm not talking about avoiding people, I didn't even know what it meant until I googled tonight, I knew something was wrong tho.
I basically never felt anything for anyone, no love or emphaty not even for my parents or my closest friends
It hit me that something was off when I met this girl last year, she was really nice and pretty and liked buying me we were close friends and she had to move and I felt nothing about it except that I missed being huged
That on itself isn't enough but thinking back I never felt anything when my best friend lost his father or when my cousin was dying at the hospital, I made my friends cry a bunch of time too in highschool and I felt nothing too, I felt nothing that time I beat up this kid either
Thinking back to all these things I don't feel bad about not feeling anything either
And I have the other signs too, doing bad things feels exciting, in love getting away with it and I even like getting caught it feels like a game to me, my psychologist asked about me but I nevee got why
Found more hobbies, passions, goals and shit
Last semester of college and I must become a wagecuck soon. No more comfy community college and no more schoolbux.
Hopefully I can find a comfy job and being a wagecuck won't kill my soul.
I think it's related
I know what people expect from me, what is supposed to be right Nd wrong behaviour and I mimick it tho because its expected of me
I think that's the difference
I like abusing people tho I only do it online, I did so it twice irl tho to strangers. I succede once and the other time I failed so bad I realised how risky it is
But the time I got away with it I felt fantastic
If you want I can tell you about it
> made it into a job training program to start in March
> Ex called me yesterday, not to get back together (she's still with the guy she left me for)
I was doing so well robots, I was chugging along just fine and then she comes and makes me feel like ass again
WHY CAN'T I TAKE AWAY HER INFLUENCE OVER MY FEELINGS
Ok. So I get on this bus and this old lady taps my shoulder, she tells me excuse me, I was in front of the line but I know we where only 3 people and I don't consider it a line with less than five so I tell her ok... Move out of the way.
She ask me what I said and I tell her to move out of the way so I can get off the bus and she can have her shitty spot.
She looks around and says nothing then I tell her to shut the fuck up then.l with a mean look in my face
It felt really good to scare her like that so I tryed it again the next week but this new lady starts yelling at me and people join her so I have to get off the bus.
Once I was sitting at the bus and I had to get off and this other lady didn't move so I could get off, I asked again and at n and she ignored me so I pushed her and she fell to the floor, she was really old) people freaked out bit this was my stop and I got off before anyone could do anything to me.
People get really mad at this story tho
Keeping up with work pretty well, which I thought would be impossible months ago
I've been waking up tired, maybe because I'm a little bit dehydrated, but drinking liquids and water is a chore since I then have to pee too much
>You should call up her current bf and tell him you're fucking.
I've done that before, rather, had somebody else do it. He's a total cuck, but neither of them will leave each other out of fear of being alone.
I guess she feels she owes him something because he's taken her back so many times. He's become abusive because of it as well. What we had was a lot nice, so I think she misses that but I'm not taking her back without her groveling at least a little.
She'll never do it. Pretty sure she just wanted to make sure I wasn't seeing anyone
>Starting to feel another depressive episode coming on
Have you ever taken medicine for depression?
Mine really worked well for me and I only get depressed for a day like 1-3 times a year now
My sister has depression that's just as bad as mine. She's been on and off different meds for like 4 years and nothing's helped; after seeing the hell she's been through the idea kinda freaks me out
After reading more about it no, i seems more like a sociopath even tho I like charming people but not controlling them and I have planed some acts of violence before.
I would also appreciate your opinion on my story friend
You should try to do something about yourself though
Some medicine can have bad side effects, but you already know depression really sucks
It's worth trying out medicines to see if you can find the right one for you
Yeah, I have mixed feelings about it. I didn't sympathize with the main character very much. In fact, him and his family all seem pretty fucked up. But I did find the characters and setting very interesting. And a lot of the plot twists left me pondering the universe and shit
Had a falling out with my oneitis and am not sure if I want to try and fix things. Part of me thinks it might be better if I just move on.
Lost a noticeable amount of weight due to stressing about said oneitis.