It's that time of the day. Discuss your brain problems here. Inb4 posts about us being special snowflakes.
I think I'm legit retarted
>feels like I forgot the meaning of words
>literally do not understand
>and the question shouldn't have been that hard
mental illness is just a way for the gov to instill complacency among easy targets which is everyone who thinks they have depression or anxiety over medicated and under educated
Remember the shrink isn't your friend he's really a big nose kike
i think i suffer from anxiety and depression which have manifested into depersonalisation, or the other way round I don't know. It's why I dropped out of college twice
I need some secondhand armchair psychologist input on my condition:
>insomnia: From the womb to now, I've always had issues falling asleep
>Socially reclusive, even as a child I would shy away from other kids to read, build things or do math problems
>The only things I enjoyed as a child were the things listed above, until I started using a computer at age ~5, then I spent most of my time on that
>I had a loving and caring family that was always interested in my well being, formed next to no emotional bond with any of them
>was verbally cruel to other children, rarely did any physical violence, but I was not a very nice kid, I did things like pester someone about their dead parents until they broke down, or lead them on to believe I was their friend until I claimed that they were useless to me, I'm pretty sure I knew I was hurting people, don't remember if I felt guilty. I still do this, semi-intentionally
>Never cared too much about what other people thought about me, was not a socially anxious kid, but I hated being around other people. I now do get the classical social anxiety symptoms
>Always had a calm demeanor, quiet and calculated, rarely causes issues unless someone tried to implicate me in something, rarely had strong emotions, still nearly never get very angry
>able to pick up on most social cues, rarely cared enough to preserve someone's feelings, the more time I spent alone the worse I got at social interaction, sometime's i'm unaware that certain things are rude, but I usually know.
>exceedingly oblivious, I sometime don't even know where I am when I get back from a daydreaming/reading/working state
>prone to substance abuse
>low libido, no sexual dysfunction however
>did well in school, high test scores, motivation fluctuates (not to a bipolar degree)
tell it to me straight doc, do I have the auts?
Everyone seems to insist that life is not so hard but everywhere I look it's all twisted and dark. I've been told that people don't hate you for no reason but when I walk down the street I notice people looking at me, and i feel like i'm bothering all of them
Previously I used my mental strength to hang on and keep going but this is getting hard
oh no pls help me my dude
desu not quite sure I've never pushed hard for a diagnosis but I've had two different psychiatrists say I have depression and anxiety and the other said I had PTSD and dysthymia. They both said I couldn't get a diagnosis though until I was a bit older and no longer living in abusive environment though.
I feel like kind of like... not good but just fine when I'm around people or at least just on this weird autopilot mode where I don't even have emotions and can't even socialise but then as soon as I'm alone there's this crushing sadness. Like, if I'm alone for five minutes I'll be crying, then most likely drinking, then most likely hurting myself and waking up 12hrs later in my own piss. I feel like I'm so good at hiding this crap though and I'm having my little sister visit me currently and it's really easy to just feel... not even normal, but just nothing while she's here but I know the moment she's gone I'll be a wreck.
i have a few skype friends and none irl and i want to leave skype though, ive never seen their faces but theyve seen mine and i havent done anything illegal though, i just dont want anyone to call my house or anyhting. am i crazy for wanting to leave skype friends ive had for 3 years? and can i actually do that you think with no recoil?
I don't know what isn't plausible about this. Mental illnesses and physical illnesses are very different and there's many reasons why doctors won't diagnose teenagers with mental illnesses.
Not to mention that what I said was when I was older AND not living in an abusive situation, not just older. I'd say it's pretty fair for a doctor to avoid diagnosing you with an illness until they ruled out other things that could possibly be causing the symptoms.
God I wish I didn't have the burgers. You lucky normie cunt.
>tfw your flu makes you feel so shitty and dizzy that you don't notice your brain constantly fucking up
don't know if want
No one knows exactly how the brain works. Chances are we never will.
Given that, these 'diagnoses' and 'treatments' of 'diseases' or 'disorders' that have no real physical symptoms or manifestations, are fertile ground for all means of hucksters & frauds.
Exactly. It's the same way that tumblrinas exploit undiagnosable "grey area" diseases like Fibro and "chronic fatigue syndrome".
Bottom line, if you think there is something wrong with you, or want there to be something wrong with you, there will always be someone to take your money.
I have schizophrenia. I don't know what else to say. My mind is really blank, because I have schizophrenia.
No, it's probably because I'm on 20 mg of Zyprexa a day and it makes me just not care or able to think about anything at all. Then the doctor asks, "Are you still having delusional thoughts?" "No, I'm not having any thoughts at all" "Well, that means you're cured!"
If youre "feeling a bit sad" that's not depression you normie sack of shit.
You know when you have depression when you hit rock bottom and keep going. You start out by being lazy, then you lose interest in hobbies, then you can't be bothered to talk to people, old friendships start to die, you don't leave you bed until hunger pains overtake you and even then you can't be bothered to get a fucking bowl of cereal.
Then one day you feel a little better, you get up, shower, maybe go to those classes you've skipped for 2 weeks, then you come back get homework done and off to bed. You lay there thinking "today was alright" then you can't fall asleep, then your thoughts take over. Your thoughts start to cycle between self hatred and apathy.
Next thing you know your a liter of whiskey in, crying on your floor in the fetal position. Then after that experience you get up and have two options (in my opinion), you either become an alcoholic (like I almost did) or you exist in a bleak, grey reality where everything just happens around you and you ghost through the days (where im at now).
You keep up a routine because, why not? You have nothing better to do with your time.
That's depression. Yes, it may not be schizophrenic epilepsy bipolar disorder. It may just be a meme to people. But it does affect people more than just "I'm sooooo sad because I got a 60 on my exam and now I need anti depressants and therapy boohoo". Those people are what made it a meme and why people see "depressed" people as attention whores.
A person with depression will more than likely never talk to anyone, other than a therapist maybe, because they don't want to bother anyone else with it.
Also, I was promised this med was the most weight-increasing anti-psychotic, but I've lost so many pounds and I'm now underweight because I don't care enough to eat anything.
>If youre "feeling a bit sad" that's not depression
That's literally all that 'depression' is. The rest of your post is legit pseudo-science that they use to sell drugs to miserable fucks.
>b-but it's Clinical depression
>think of mildly embarrassing moment from 15 years ago
>repeatedly shout "nigger", "faggot", or "i hate myself" over and over
I matter of factly state "I'm going to kill myself" on such occasions.
Please start eating 3 small meals a day to regulate your blood sugar.
I'm schizophrenic and I lost a lot of weight on antipsychotics because they made me numb. I didn't care enough to eat. I didn't care about anything at all.
I ended up hospitalized after passing out in the snow while I was going for a walk. I had almost died of hypothermia and starvation.
I had to find a medication that worked for me and practised socializing. Getting out of my own head. I wasn't very empathetic and I didn't communicate well. I was really stuck in my head.
You can turn your life around. Switch medications. Go to the hospital if that's what you need. Build a support network. Find friends and family members who are willing to help. Find a better doctor if you need to.
>never talk to anyone, other than a therapist maybe, because they don't want to bother anyone else with it.
You NEED friends.You NEED family. You NEED a support system. Even if it's a fucking autistic faggot from this board. You can not hope to survive a thought disorder by holding your thoughts in.
Trust me, I've tried "being myself xddd" and I've pushed myself out of my comfort zone, and tried making new friends and it always falls flat. Maybe my luck is just shit.
For example, yesterday a girl sat next to me in class. I was listening to music and she got in my face and shouted "Hey what's your name!?!?!" To which I was startled and instead of words coming out of my mouth spit flew out and landed on her face. She got mad and moved across the room.
Now does that warrant me holing up in my room for 2 weeks and jack off to 2D girls the whole time? No. But, like I said, I'm not even sad anymore. Everything is just bleak and grey. I just ghost through life and my classes now. I don't find pleasure in living no matter were I look, and I've had this mentality since 6th grade as well, it's just grown over the years due to bad experiences.
And your probably thinking "well, life throws shit at you so you have to get up and wipe it off and move foward". I would love to do that, trust me. But I just can't be bothered because I've found comfort in the greyness.
My current life "motto" is to just be comfortable, which I am. In my blog post I was just detailing how I got to this point and how people go through these different stages of self loathing and depression. Oh well, I just normies will never truly understand.
>I'm schizophrenic and I lost a lot of weight on antipsychotics because they made me numb. I didn't care enough to eat. I didn't care about anything at all.
>I ended up hospitalized after passing out in the snow while I was going for a walk.
Stop taking the drugs, and sue the idiot who prescribed them to you for malpractice.
Major depressive disorder with psychotic features, also diagnosed schizoid and schizotypal personalty disorders.
I hate my life and want to die. I think about death like every 5 minutes. I used to be able to get out of bed, now I just sit by the window and smoke cigarettes. I can't bring myself to pick up my guitar because I'm so miserable.
An awkward teenager who got beaten up for being an awkward teenager all of middle and high school. Jesus, how the fuck do you think people like me and the other autistic fucks on this board come about. Getting beaten physically and emotionally for 6 fucking years day in and day out takes a toll on you. I feel nothing anymore. I can't cry anymore unless I drink myself into a coma, I can't smile, I can hardly laugh.
I'm trying. My sister helps me out by buying me groceries.
I've been on Risperdal, Abilify, and now I'm on Zyprexa. They've all been pretty much the same story. I don't know how much benefit I'd get from another med.
>doing well on my own
>skipped classes for 2 weeks
>old friendships dead
>doesn't leave bed until hunger pains are unbearable
>can't talk to people
>thoughts cycle between self-hatred and apathy
>or you exist in a bleak, grey reality where everything just happens around you and you ghost through the days
You're in denial.
>I don't know how much benefit I'd get from another med.
Believe me, I hate litigious assholes more than anyone. But these fake doctors have it coming. They're just throwing darts blindly and they know it. If anon really did pas out in the snow (and believe me I take anything these marks say w/ a MASSIVE grain of salt), I think you'd have grounds..
You need a different kind of medication or intense therapy. It's good that your sister can support you in some ways but you need a lot of mental work. She can buy you groceries but if you don't eat them then what's that really solving?
From one schizophrenic to another I'm telling you there's still hope.
You need to open up to a counselor you can trust. Tell them what you're experiencing with the medication. Try lowering or increasing your dose. You need to eat anon. You need to resolve the pain that makes you not want to eat.
Go eat something small right now.
I've got literally nothing going for me in life. I'm dumb as bricks and ugly with a cocktail of mental issues behind it all. I'm on Lexapro, Zyprexa, Buspirone, and Hydroxizine, all in significant amounts. I've been a NEET for four years now and my family is starting to get sick of me. Thinking of just ending it to get it over with, but I don't want cause problems for my family.
>atheist but beg god for protection every night constantly over and over or else bad things will happen, (???) the same line repeated
>can't look at trees or most plants because I get the overwhelming urge to cover the ends of every branch with my fingertips so they don't come near my eyes and it makes me wince even at a long distance
>same thing with the corners of shapes of any object, even imaginary
>can't jerk off half the time without gay thoughts jumping in over whatever scenario I'm depicting
>divide sidewalk mentally into three chunks, always walk on the division lines with alternating feet, get actually bothered if I watch someone else walking and they don't do it
>gave myself strep throat because I couldn't stop wrenching the inner part of my throat a certain way like a super hard swallow, over the course of two weeks, even when i could feel it tearing, and it got infected
>when I was a kid I would get dirt on my hands and e unable to do anything else until I got back inside and washed up, in the early stages I would cry too
>crap like accidentally touch shoulder on a wall, touch other shoulder to the same wall in the same spot
>through all this shit it feels like my brain is wringing itself out with sharp pangs of unfiltered anxiety
Yeah nothing wrong I must be just going through a hard time haha
My symptoms fit something that ends with "disorder" so it's a meme :^)
There's having the 'drunkard gene' and there's 'actually being physically dependant on alcohol to the point of withdrawal if you miss out'. AA might call the former being an alcoholic but most people mean the latter, actual substance dependance.
When I said I almost became an alcoholic I didn't mean I almost contracted a fucking disease. Alcoholism in my mind is using alcohol as a coping mechanism to keep the feelings at bay. Jesus normies are fucking retarded
Says the retarded normie. The dependency didn't go away for 3 months and I had to flush all my stuff so I didn't have an opportunity to drink without going out and getting more, which also took some willpower
>lots of people
Yeah, that doesn't include the 2% that get fucking hooked on it. Coffee is an addictive substance. The high you get from weed is addictive. Drunkenness is addictive because it makes you feel good. It's that feeling that's addictive. So yes you can also be addicted to jogging because of endorphins. He'll I'm fucking addicted to cute 2D girls. I can't get enough of them. All I watch day in and day out is fuck moe slide of life shows
>all my life I've spent
>wasting time, wasting my time
>just to forget again
>but I don't mind, I don't mind
>just take my medicine
>and I'll be fine, I will be fine
>and I've only got one organ left in this old bag of bones, it is failing me
>I try to tell people that I'm dying, only they don't believe me
I used to just be odd. I was always saying shit people would be thinking but didn't know quite how to say or just plain found inappropriate. I found humor in everything ("I'm the kinda guy to laugh at a funeral"). It sometimes made people hate me, but otherwise, everything was fine.
>haul off to college
Went to the same one with my gf from high school, made several new friends.. I even got to smoke pot on the reg with some of them.
After a couple years, I started doing acid with some of them, way too much at once, really, almost every week. I devolved into a real pos. I got comfortable with where I was, who I knew, being able to do drugs all the time.
And then I my roommate told me I had 24 hours to get my shit and get out, as the landlord discovered I was there, but not on the lease. I have to move back home now, as nobody else would take me in.
So when I have to do that, my gf literally leaves me for the kind of guy who actually hangs out on /d/, and even unironically called her his Waifu and "gf name"-chan. He was like 6 foot-something, weighed about 500 lbs.
Needless to say, I was crushed that this guy actually struck her as a better partner than I was.
So upon losing her, college (" back home" was out of state), my place, and my job, having my pride at the time rekt by aforementioned breakup as well as having to revert back to square one....
I actually dropped into an episode of psychosis. The complete and total change broke me.
It started as voices, mostly gibberish, but occasionally they broke through into coherent "you should definitely push your coworker off the roof onto the pile of rocks, rebar, and scrap metal below" sorts of whispers. My sight and depth perception was shite, and I still saw tracers, but I blame all the acid I had done for that.
Then, I straight up started hallucinating. I saw shit out of my dreams. I felt way too sensitive to everything going on around me, yet at the same time, was completely zoned out.. (Tbc)
From a certain age (not sure anymore) i just had to go for a "walk" anytime i spent more than couple of minutes in (good) company. No matter how much fun i was having i just felt sudden urge TO GO FOR A WALK RIGHT NOW.
Once a golden year i decided to go outside the people who do not know me think i am doing hardcore drugs outside (lel @them i do just psychedelics).
Also i am horribly paranoid. Anything anyone ever says, i dont hear what they say, but i immediately scan their posture, the way they are looking and stuff like that and then (usually) assume they are hiding something or having X problem.
Also i am horribly shy and once few years suffering of godlike delusions (or maybe that was just teenage ignorance-bliss) where i switch personality 180
I'm really sick in the head. I miss my boyfriend. I had to leave him because he was abusive.
I don't care that you'll say I'm a Stacy normie. I need to tell somebody.
I love him and he told me he loved me and he hurt me. I thought we were going to be together forever. I thought he understood me. It turns out he doesn't actually have the capacity to care for me at all. He thinks of me as a "thing" to spend time on when he's bored. I thought of him as a person I really wanted to help and grow with.
I don't know if he ever even was depressed. I shouldn't have tried to meet people through my job now it's just awkward.
Carrying on from before, that last freakout was enough for my coworker to drive me home so my dad could take me to a local mental institution for a diagnosis. Life at the time basically felt like some kind of music video for the song "Deep Cover" by Sun Araw.
Turns out, the complete and total change, coupled with use of psychedelics led me to having major depression with psychosis.
I took antipsychotics for a while until one day, after some time of basically just meditating on what put me where I was, the things I had done to myself and others, I just... Got over myself. Got over the depression, and with the help of some medication and enough time to let my system flush out some of the durgs I had done, the visual hallucinations had slowed and now stopped..
Now, I still hear voices and am pretty sure I'm just plain bipolar, but I'm not a doctor nor have I been to one for a diagnosis (nor do I feel the need to do so).
The voices are neat, they still show me short daydreamy moments of what it'd be like to smash my manager's head in the broom closet door a few times, but I figure that's normal for most people.
Pic related, one of the things from my dreams that I once saw on the horizon at work one time.
>Now, I still hear voices and am pretty sure I'm just plain bipolar, but I'm not a doctor nor have I been to one for a diagnosis (nor do I feel the need to do so).
I got "diagnosed" as bi-polar, and prescribed Klonopin. I just threw it away. The whole thing is bullshit. Stop doing LSD though. That shit is bad news.
>have to write an email
>normal person could do it in two minutes
>put it off for three days and lose sleep over it
>have to make a phone call
>can't do it
>Mummy can't do it either because her English isn't so good
>has to call one of her friends to do it for me
>walking home from therapy appointment
>cold as shit, pass a comfy-looking coffee shop
>intense craving for a nice hot cup of coffee
>don't go in because there's too many people and I'm scared I'll mess up my order and embarrass myself
>professor sends an email politely asking why I haven't handed in my term paper
>close the tab
>worry about it for a month until he finally fails me
>buying a Metrocard at the subway station
>a line has formed behind me
>the machine keeps spitting out my twenty
>freak out, step away and wait for the line to disperse
>same thing happens, step away again
>this happens five more times
>it takes me forty minutes to complete a simple transaction
>walk right instead of left when leaving my house
>instead of just turning back and going the right way, circle around the whole block so that no one would see I made a mistake
>girl from across the hall asks me to sign a card for our RA
>fumble with the pen she gave me, it doesn't want to write and my hands are shaking
>tell her I'll do it at my desk in my room
>she follows me in
>dirty clothes all over the floor, rotten food all over the shelves
>the longest silence of my life as I struggle to think of something to write on this fucking card for some cunt I've never met while this girl stands in the doorway of my room and realizes I'm a retarded, creepy failure of a human being
>get drunk for the first time and show my dick to a friend and ask her to rate it as a joke
>regret it as I'm doing so
>she cuts off all contact with me and reports me to the school
>she was my only friend
>see her around from time to time and feel like an asshole
I'm going to commit suicide soon.
Oh. Well fug.
Figured it'd be commonplace to daydream about doing terrible things to a manager that irritates you, but h-hey, I could be wrong.
Depression is really just a negative behavior pattern. Not going to the institute anymore, and not taking the drugs they push, is all you really needed. You hit a rough patch. It happens. Th ere isnothing physically wrong with you.
I somewhat assume this is the case.
After recovering from my own illness, I took the time to look into things like autism, aspergers, schizophrenia, psychopathy, sociopathy, things like that.
Generally, the special snowflake thing seems to more derive from just wanting some form of human attention.
I, in all my oddness in school and college, managed to attract people from all walks of fucked up, so I've seen tons of shit like this.
Just to cover it, I'm not going to say I know it all, I just read a bunch of articles, essays, etc on different mental diseases.
Hey man listen to me. I daydream about that, my gf daydreams about that, all humans who grew up in very shitty conditions most likely fantasize that.
When you had to take THEIR MOTHERFUCKING SHIT MANG ON YOUR OWN FUCKING SHOULDERS FOR SO LONG you grow up to be a bit uhm....."snarky" about your boundaries and pride.
Nothing wrong with dat as long as you dont do something based on those thoughts (like hit the wall with machete few inches above your gf head)
I'm an aspie, frequent meltdowns are my thing. It's alright in a way because men seem to to think girls with asperger's/HFA are cute.
On the other hand I have comorbid depression, I call it depression because that's what it would be usually described as but, what it really is, is that most people make me want to kill myself/disappear because of how annoying they seem to NEED to be.
I'm too prone to feeling overwhelmed (as is customary to aspies), but more than your average aspie.
Overall, I have a really hard time with social interaction because of all the incessant pointless chatter. Why not be quiet instead? Why exactly do so many people feel the need to trash their own friends? What exactly made you believe that it is something that will help you bond with other people?
"Lazy immature fool" anon above isn't entirely wrong.
In essence, you're just afraid to be independent. You have no idea what the fuck is going on in the world as well as being heavily concerned with your self image.
Fuck caring about what so many people think of you. If you don't understand something, ask. Force yourself past the fears. It's hard, but it's a bit like forcing yourself through a fog wall in Dark Souls.
>Fuck caring about what so many people think of you
>I don't have social anxiety and think it's something you can just get over because I'm a moron: the post
I know you're trying to help, but that's utterly useless advice. Like telling a paraplegic to "power through" a marathon: it's not gonna fucking happen and you look like an inconsiderate, patronizing asshole for suggesting it.
Well, I do have an actual ASD diagnosis, but I'm not even going to try to discuss it here. The faggots you mentioned ruined everything for people who actually have issues.
Also, people blessed with mental health who think overcoming anything is just about "persistence and motivation!".
I think I know what you mean. It's nearly impossible to have serious ASD discussion on r9k, let alone 4chan, what ever every spastic out there claiming they are autistic because they made a social faux pas or something.
>Also, people blessed with mental health who think overcoming anything is just about "persistence and motivation!".
Rage of a thousand sons.
My failed normie uncle cannot imagine that people like us really cannot read body language/facial expressions or at least not the way they do. Not even mentioning the ToM issues and low empathy. Oh and having fucked up sensory problems.
>comparing your laziness to paraplegia
I walked into class and panicked because I couldn't see a seat. I just stood there for some time, and then I walked out paced the hall and left when it was PANIC mode desu. It was the first class this semester. What do I do guys?
Usually, I can understand not powering through shit, I.E. schizophrenia, Dementia, etc.
But I literally "just got over it" with depression and psychosis. I took minimal medication and just found someone to talk to.
I also recognize not everybody is the exact same. I had simply provided words that helped me a little.
>people actually disbelieve modern psychology
You sound about as dumb as bible thumpers denying evolution to be honest family
Funnily enough though, it has been proven that people with autism don't actually have low empathy.
Personally speaking, I never thought this was the case as I've always felt extremely empathetic towards everything and anything. The reality is that we are consistently receiving too much information from the outside world, other humans included.
The result of that being that our brain is often not fast enough to process that much information, giving the impression that we don't "react" with empathy or what not.
The reality is though, I've always had a really hard time with friendship because I'm really fast to understand whether someone is "evil" or not. Also, I've always had issues with watching the news, for most of my life I would get depressed/extremely horrible feels from just watching news reports on anything "evil".
We really do feel other people. It's just often too much for us to properly respond. Personally speaking, if I'm on a 1 on 1 situation, I can actually be pretty normal and responsive.
Just don't expect me to be able to manage a group setting.
But I've been diagnosed anon, by a psychiatrist, a speech pathologist and clinical psychologist.
Who am I to believe. you or them?
To clarify, something like only 50-70% of autistic people have anything that could be considered "intellectual delay" or impairment. The rest are either average to above average in intelligence. Also autism does not effect your physical appearance, very little anyway and not all people with ASD get the same markers.
For example :
>low muscle tone, i.e hyper-mobile joints due to dyspraxia
Myself for example have trouble controlling my own tone and pitch when speaking
>unusual hair whorls
I have that
>sandal gap toe
Got that too.
Not even mentioning all the red flags I had as a baby such as
>not responding to your own name
>not making eye contact
>oblivious to other people
And a langauge impairment/delay up to 4 years old
Yeah, sorry anon, but you don't have any idea.
Everyone can. Throw all the bullshit drugs in the garbage, and address the real issues in your life.
It worked for 1000s of years, until.....
I think after 2 years of isolation I'm socially retarded. I do way too much acid. I was so high last night I had my friend drive me to where my gf was staying and proposed to her.
I've heard that idea being passed around and it MAY be true but I can speak for myself here. I have low empathy levels. Some of the autistic people I've met through group sessions dont have any empathy AT ALL. Like it's kinda disturbing. Mine is just very low. It's not all aspects of empathy anyway, autistic people struggle with cognitive and motor empathy.
Clinical depression is very physical. You feel like you're dying of a disease at all times. People without physical symptoms like that and anomalous pain do not have major depression.
>But I've been diagnosed anon, by a psychiatrist, a speech pathologist and clinical psychologist.
Again. These people will diagnose anyone who walks in their office. How gullible are you people?
Well, I actually understand what you're saying because I've met other autistic people before. The idea wasn't so much "being passed around" as it was a scientific discovery type of thing.
Regardless, the issue, in my opinion, is that some people haven't done enough self-development/therapy in terms of theory of mind. The issue being that it's not like they don't feel empathy, they just aren't living with others enough.
There have always been different ways of autism manifesting itself though. Personally speaking, it's not that I understand the world because I inherently do, I just spend a lot of time figuring things out and trying to understand them because of the overall frustration of being considered different/bullied etc.
Really, it's like a personality+the actual disorder itself are the determining combination to how autism will be manifested.
Also, ASD is different from men to women too.
Is it possible to have depression and still function? Or is "doing nothing" just what depression is?
I don't have it and I'm definitely not self-diagnosing, just genuinely curious.
I have two big problems. My first, is body dysmorphic disorder (self-diagnosed).
The second I have no clue what the problem is.
I can't get myself to do any of the things I want to in life. I can't bring myself to get a job, can't bring myself to study or do homework, can't go to the gym or run. These are all things I REALLY want to do. I just can't
>Clinical depression is very physical
Kek. Show me one physical symptom.
And don't even bother with the fake brain scans that show a normal brain next to a depressed brain.
>suggesting to a schizophrenic that he should smoke weed
I've tried it a few times, it always made me really shaky and I could hear voices. So I never take more than a hit or two. Smoking just a little feels pretty good. But it's weird, because weed never gives me the munchies or anything.
It's possible in the sense that, it's not an actually debilitating depression. Or, possibly, you could be about to really descent into "doing nothing". Possibilities are endless but, overall, it is "possible". There are obviously various degrees of it.
I just would never call it "serious depression"/"clinical depression". There are always checklists for this type of diagnosis, and some of them can be found online, part of being depressed is about not feeling pleasure in everyday life anymore etc. For example.
I would hardly think it's emergency room necessary. The only effect it has on my life is I spend too much time observing myself in the mirror.
Plus I'm getting corrective surgery soon to fix the problem so maybe I'll feel better
Have you tried both Sativa and Indica?
also are you the same guy who posted this?
I agree with you. How do you think your personal empathy levels are? Mine are probably in the mid-low range. Do you view empathy as a good, bad, or neutral quality to have?
Empathy levels, aren't science. Not even close.
You're attempting to proves the validity of psychology, by offering up more psychology as 'evidence'.
It's a tautological argument. Sorry.
>earlier in the thread
Care to quote it for me? Not sure what post you're referring to.
Yeah, of course there's different degrees of it. I guess a lot of people do have "depression" in some form but it's when it negatively effects someone's life without any reasons (i.e. no bereavement, recent trauma, etc) that it's serious.
Another question, do you 'develop' the illness or is it just something you get one day? Like, if you've always had a much more negative outlook are you more at risk than someone who's happy but just ends up crying on the floor one day for no reason.
I just got officially diagnosed with high functioning autism about a week ago. I don't make eye contact, have a monotone voice, heightened auditory sensitivity, intense anxiety, can feel empathy but can't show it, slow to understand body language and social cues, virtually no social life, and I had a severe lisp as a kid, but it went away with intense speech therapy.
Although I probably would have gotten an Aspergers diagnosis if it still existed. A big part of ASD is showing signs during early childhood development, and I just barely made the cutoff there. The psychologist even said he had to "massage the results" a bit to get the diagnosis. The only signs in my early childhood were seams in clothing annoying me to the point of throwing fits, and ritualizing my eating habits. I walked and talked earlier than most babies.
I just find it weird that no one thought of a possible autism diagnosis until I was 22 years old. I had seen two psychologists from the age of 18 at the insistence of my parents, and they just gave me anxiety and depression diagnoses. I always just thought I was a weird dude, not an autistic dude. But it does kind of seem like the diagnosis fits. Maybe I'll be able to get on the bux now and life will be easier.
Again, how miserable are your lives are you to believe this shit? They will diagnose anyone who walks in their office. In fact, it's part of their philosophy. They see the action of seeking help as proof of the 'disorder'.
Like, honestly, it depends, some people have always felt like they don't belong for example. What often happens is that a person ends up having a meltdown and stop being able to cope with depressive feelings.
But, a more kind of "progressive" development is also quite possible. Slowly, a person can actually stop being able to do certain things. Like losing interest in friendship, then losing interest in a hobby, etc.
That's because a hundred years ago everyone was dying in WW1 (the people who would have killed themselves just got shot for shellshock) and a thousand years before that everyone was too busy surviving on whatever peasant scraps they had to develop depression.
If you really think suicide rates are increasing because of "the jew doctors" then you're an idiot.
I actually have a pretty similar case to yours. Due to the heightened auditory sensitivity I was diagnosed with schizophrenia because I "heard things other people didn't", except I literally did.
I've heard misdiagnosis is pretty common.
Well from what I understood about body dysmorphia it can be a fault that is overly exaggerated by the person with BDD. I think it's that way for me, as I hate looking at my face and I fear others looking at my face because of it. But other people have told me they barely notice it. And no my jaw causes functional issues like sleep apnea and posture problems oddly enough. Fully covered by insurance as a medical necessity
No fool. First of all no one in this whole thread has mentioned 'Jews'. The point is all the bogus diagnosis and medications aren't doing anything but raising the prophets of the pharmaceutical companies.
I don't know what I'm getting, it's probably just Sativa. I only smoke when people offer it to me, and they almost always get it from some random pothead relative so they have no idea what the difference is. I know Indica has more CBD though, which is an anti-psychotic.
I'm 24-years-old and I've been hospitalized three times, this isn't me struggling with puberty. I regularly have hallucinations and grandiose delusions. I've been nearly hit by cars because I was distracted by the voices in my head. This is a serious disability, it's not some made up drama that I use to feel special. Neurological tests have confirmed that schizophrenics have very clearly different brains from neurotypicals, it's a very physical, life-long, and medical illness.
Ok, fair enough. If Insurance is paying for it, it gives me confidence that you're not crazy. If it's valid, why do you refer to it as dysmorphia? It sounds like you have an actual physical problem with your jaw.
Aspergers, Psychosis/Schizophrenia, and maybe ptsd.
Everyone (mostly women) calls me ugly wherever I go. Even when I am alone in my house. My parents say it is just in my head. I know it is true. That is why I go jogging at 5 in the morning so nobody can call me names. It is like t he normies and the stacies are trying to get me to kill myself. Help.
I do have an actual physical problem, but the level at which I obsess over it and let it rule my life is where it concerns me. I think a lot of my anxiety issues could be fixed just by fixing my jaw. I also do weird things like pull my facial hairs out and constantly pick at zits even though I know it's terrible
There doesn't have to be an underlying issue. The difference between clinical depression and "regular depression" is that when it is clinical depression there isn't really a reason for you to be depressed. You were just born with chemical imbalances.
>Neurological tests have confirmed that schizophrenics have very clearly different brains from neurotypicals, it's a very physical, life-long, and medical illness.
Bullshit. There is no real MRI evidence.And not only does the brain disease hypothesis remain unsubstantiated, it has been directly countered by very well established findings within the recovery research, it has demonstrated itself to be particularly harmful to those so diagnosed (often leading to a self-fulfilling prophecy), and is highly profitable to the pharmaceutical and psychiatric industries (which likely plays a major role in why it has remained so deeply entrenched in society for so many years, in spite of our inability to validate it).
Fucking Social Workes can "diagnose" schizophrenia (FACT).
Isn't Schizophrenia a hugely different diagnosis? What are all your symptoms?
Also now that I think about it I've had a few auditory hallucinations, but they weren't persistent. I've heard indistinct, low murmuring conversations that weren't there over the whir of a fan at night, and at other times I heard faint non-existent music. It could probably be chalked up to stress and fatigue, I don't know. I never thought to mention it to a mental health professional mostly because it only happened the couple times
My mother has Narcissistic PD.
I realize that I have many Narcissistic tendencies as well, but I'm fighting them and I don't think I classify for any PD.
When I was younger I self-diagnosed as avoidant or schizoid PD, which was pretty much consistent to the symptoms, but nothing pointed out that this set of behaviours might be caused by my mother.
Seem to be? Of course I'm against the Psychology and Pharmaceutical RACKETS. They deserve to get called out.
Telling people they're sick, when they're not, becomes a self-fulfilling prophecy.
Psychosis feels just like a drug, because psychedelics and stimulants hit the same receptors that an overabundance of serotonin or dopamine does. The glutamate system might be involved too. My pupils have actually been really dilated during some of my episodes, because I was endogenously tripping balls. Do drugs not exist either if they only have cognitive effects? It's pretty easy to create psychomimetic states in animals and humans with drugs that are nearly indistinguishable from schizophrenia.
Very hard to empathize usually, every time I get in a relationship I get called cold or heartless and things go sour from there.
>Psychosis feels just like a drug, because psychedelics and stimulants hit the same receptors that an overabundance of serotonin or dopamine does.
More bullshit meme science. You're a fucking fountain of misinformation.
The only question reaming, is why you want to be sick so badly?
After finding this about myself, I came to understand that very, very few people have some kind of inherent issue, and it looks more like schizophrenia rather than just being shy.
My advice to everyone here is to try to figure out what went wrong with their upbringing.
Your problems are probably caused by environmental factors (parents, family, friends etc). Try to find these factors, understand the damage and then you can fix it.
diagnosed aspergers and tourretes since i was a kid
developing something new
People with actual MDD are often severely constipated. It actually causes you to become constipated. Is that not physical enough for you? fucking normie faggot get off of this board
>Very hard to empathize usually, every time I get in a relationship I get called cold or heartless and things go sour from there.
Would you say you care about their feelings, wellbeing, and safety? Have you ever hit, raped, or verbally abused them? Have you wanted to do those things?
Outside of relationships have you ever gotten physical with others?
kid i have aspergers and tourretes i was the weeaboo nerd pokemon kid in a white trash druggie school, i got jumped by multiple people
wanna know how i survived? I FOUGHT THOSE NIGGER NOG WHITE TRASH OFF
i now have worse anxiety because every time, even if i didnt fight back, id get suspended. but you know what? dont t ake sh it DISH IT
I'm also speaking from my own experience. I used to have good bowel movements, but ever since I developed psychotic depression, I have been shitting rarely and have been letting out gamy-ass farts frequently.
not this guy but you do know that the monoamine theory is being challenged in mainstream science right now, right?
and it's coming up pretty conclusive that it isn't a serotonin issue.
you know, the whole ketamine-glutamate-NMDA-bdnf-neurogensis-hippocampus thing that's nearly common knowledge at this point?
I can get you some articles if you want them
>Would you say you care about their feelings, wellbeing, and safety? Have you ever hit, raped, or verbally abused them? Have you wanted to do those things?
>Outside of relationships have you ever gotten physical with others?
You sound like a quack. On a scale of 1-5 how big of a fraud are you? (It's science)
Generalized Anxiety Disorder.
Avoidant Personality Disorder.
Chronic Low Mood/Depression.
But I have a part time job at least. And a couple friends I sometimes get to see.
or science has developed to the point where we can better recognize warning signs of developing mental illness to eradicate it before it sets in
and diagnosis for existing mental illness improved, as well.
autism wasnt prevalent before and we know more about it now.
>A large majority of these pills will fuck you up more than you were before you started taking them
Almost all of them. Why are the Anons on here so enamored with wanting to be ill? Is it just a way to externalize blame for their problems? A way to get out of working?
Then why are there more mass shootings up every year? Why are the suicides rates up?
For all the bullshit pills being sold, there are little (if any) tangible results?
Psychologists and their fake 'science' have a problem with predictability, and they know it.
there are mass shootings because you retard normies keep treating people with mental illness like shit until they break down
if i had access to wordwide destructive weapons, i would use them to kill every single human. my goal isnt to shoot up a school, i want every single person on this planet to die
>Of course I'm against the Psychology and Pharmaceutical RACKETS. They deserve to get called out.
it's why places like 4chan are so important. these companies (and academia in general) wield a lot of power and influence. they have a financial insert in remaining unchallenged. and they will come after you and slander you if you speak up. i mean itt alone we had an anon comparing our skepticism to denying evolution. it's ridiculous.
I have OCD and Schizophrenia and I think BPD but that's not officially diagnosed and I guess to some not even a real thing. I don't like posting in these threads as I do think a lot of people here are indeed special snowflakes but I need help. So recently my best friend who is also mentally ill has been manic and stopped replying to my messages. I'm incredibly attached and clingy and worried and while waiting for her to reply I have the worst anxiety I've ever felt and I feel as though any moment I'm going to fall over dead from a heart attack. Anyone have experience with this and know how to help calm down?
Yeah I know it's a panic attack bu it's been like this for like 2 days. Normally I can distract myself from it with video games or sleep but this time I can't I just loop bad thoughts over and over again and I can't rest or eat or move around that well. I've never had anything like this happen to me and I've never seen others have it either, it's like my body is cramping up while my mind zones out and it's terrifying.
I wish I knew how to talk to people irl I'm so lonely lmao.
I just want an IRL friend!
I mean I want a gf too but that's obvious I guess right? >tfw no crazy gf to be crazy with o well
So...how exactly does one approach someone else? How do I ask someone for their phone number without seeming awful? Keep in mind I'm attractive so I have a lot of leeway.
I've been through this. I can help you. Please answer the following:
>Why are you attached?
(do you have other support systems in place? is she a close friend? do you have romantic feelings for her?)
>What qualities does she have that make you feel better?
(kind, supportive, just available to spend time, a good distraction, quiet, etc?)
>What needs in you do does she fill?
(loneliness, sadness, ego, boredom?)
>What exactly are your clingy reactions?
(crying, screaming, self-injuring, messaging her a lot, getting high?)
>What are your worries?
(that she'll never return, that she's angry, that she doesn't care, that she's dead?)
>Is this really about her?
(do you care about your unique bond with this person or would you like someone else to fill it?)
Just give her a few days. Maybe talk to other people in the meantime if possible. It happens to me sometimes too. You just need to try to find some way to get your mind off of her for a while. Attachment usually comes from a lack of other people in your life (or it does for me anyway). Talking to other people at random and trying to make friends is a good idea. It's what I do. Your friend just needs some time alone right now. Which is really really hard I know. I hate having to leave people alone. I just want to smother everyone in love ;-;
Close friends, I have no attraction to her. No romantic feelings. She's the kindest person I've ever met, very supportive and she tolerates my craziness and she'll always try and be there for me when I'm having a bad episode. She's one of my only friends, without her I definitely feel alone. When she's gone I spam messages, sometimes I can control myself well other times not so much. I rarely hurt myself when she's gone but sometimes I do have trouble breathing and sometimes I may cry and have a sad moment. My worries right now is that she's hurt, I don't think she's dead but she mentioned self harm and I'm very very worried and she said some other things too that is very worrisome but that is personal so I can't talk about it. And yes our bond is unique and nothing or anybody will ever replace her she's family to me she's like a sister.
how would me being fat affect this in any way? I'm not even fat but if I was how would that affect anything about my problem.
I know for a fact that I'm better off now that I'm on pills. Before medication I felt like I was literally dying every day. Now that I'm on meds I rarely break down unless I have too much caffeine.
I have friends and family. It's just hard to find people that I can Really Smother. Most people aren't around enough. I feel weird doing it to family. I dunno.
Oh Hi! Email/skype me I recognize you! You can talk to me you goofball. I haven't heard from her in forever. I hope she's ok
>Why are the Anons on here so enamored with wanting to be ill?
It's not that they want to be ill. It's that they want to believe in something, and in turn, have that faith converted to absolvement and then ultimately validation. The "conditions" are actually a comfort they're indulging in. It's the same reason people are religious.
Any set of behaviors that cause social maladjustment or decompensation (inability to maintain a basic daily routine, hold a job, etc) are by their nature mental illnesses. We live in a decaying society so this type of behavior is the new norm. Just because it is normal doesn't make it invalid. The potential for misdiagnosis or self diagnosis does not make mental illness invalid. Finally, if a pharmaceutical company profits off selling ineffective drugs to people with mental illness, it does not logically follow that mental illnesses don't exist. Why don't you just GTFO you contentious asshole.
>Any set of behaviors that cause social maladjustment or decompensation (inability to maintain a basic daily routine, hold a job, etc) are by their nature mental illnesses
I mean, dress it up in all the purple prose you want, but you do understand that is a tautological argument right?
>if a pharmaceutical company profits off selling ineffective drugs to people with mental illness, it does not logically follow that mental illnesses don't exist.
We don't understand the human brain, and quite possibly never will. I deal with reality on reality's terms. I don't know what you're going on about.
That was a statement, not an argument. You do realize accusations of logical fallacy are the laziest form of rebuttal, right?
>We don't understand the human brain, and quite possibly never will.
I wholeheartedly agree. However psychology is built around observing behavior and designing theoretical constructs to help typify it. Understanding the mechanical constructs of the human brain is entirely unnecessary.
Now please leave.
No, I'm saying it is meaningless. It's like saying an overgrown yard is a sign of neglect. I mean, ok, but...
>psychology is built around observing behavior and designing theoretical constructs to help typify it.
So...basically throwing darts. Sweet.
>Understanding the mechanical constructs of the human brain is entirely unnecessary.
Unnecessary to what? Pump pills?
It's completely ridiculous.
When did I condone the use of pharmaceuticals? I'm just pointing out that mental illness can be identified and corrected from a purely behavioral standpoint. Earlier in the thread you accused therapists of giving false diagnosis for the sole purpose of shilling pharmaceuticals. From this stellar line of reasoning you felt justified to neg everyone in the thread trying to discuss their issues. Basically I'm saying you're an overly cynical, self masturbatory jackass. Thats all.
>told i have psychosis systems but cant be diagnosed yet as a kid
>never go to therapy, etc
>am extremely fucked up over the way my life has gone so far
>try to kill myself
>get hospitalized, then institutionalized
>have to stay there and talk to psychologists before they let me leave
>they tell i have extreme psychosis and dependent personality disorder and depression
what should i do with this info
i dont wanna take meds or anything like that, but the more i read about dpd it just. strikes home with me. i mimic peoples personality traits, i depend on them and i cant be independent. i dont depend on people financially, i would just kill myself if they didnt talk to me, which is what happened in the first place. shit. what now anons. i dont wanna die yet but i feel like killing myself.
I've been shaking so much, senpai. I'm talking about social anxiety, not the "Social anxiety: the meme" shit I'm talking about spaghetti waterfalls social anxiety. I can't even seem to go to a restaurant or any public place where I am seen without shaking and sperging out. Fucking help me