> have goals and desires, work toward them
> get depressed
> work for years to manage mood
> feel better
> things that i used to "want" are just things that "might be nice" now
> goals and desires dead
> waiting to die
wtf. i worked so hard, for nothing. what do i do now?
bump i feel like i lost my whole identity
how can i not even care that much about girls anymore? is this just what happens as you grow older.. i used to want things, now i dont even care like at all. FUCK
When my depression ended (I'm guessing it's still in me somewhere) it felt like a piece of me was missng. That feeling is gone now but I don't really have emotions anymore. I'm not happy, maybe just a tad bit sad but it's perfectly bearable. But you're spot on OP. Things I would have wanted would be nice, nothing more. I just miss being able to feel desu.
I just dont give a shit about women anymore, i see them as a waste of time and really dislike the torment of being a horny young male when theres prime pussy i cant have anyways everywhere. Besides relationships are a fucking joke and marriage is fucking worse. I'm not a robot by any means, ive had my fair share of women but im done fighting theyre too much work. Id rather focus on the really important stuff like my aspirations and school. I can just jerk the horniness off anyhow.
Try to choose something to do that will make your life better. As opposed to what you "wanted" when you were younger, pick something you know will guarantee you a better life in one way or another.
You'll feel better once you come to terms with this new way to be. I'm there too.
What you guys are experiencing is an unawareness of the mind. Not as in you're not self-aware, just simply not aware of the power of your mind.
Everything exists due to your imagination. You perceive things in your brain, you perceive the color red as red because that's just what your mind does.
Happiness is all inside your mind. You don't have to be reliant on outside factors to be happy if you accept that it's all inside your imagination, your brain, and that you just have to tell yourself to be happy and you will be.