I was worried about being a schizo after my older brother had it. I heard shit, especially at night. It turns out I was so worried about it that I was creating delusions out of fear. After I calmed down they went away.
The key difference between me and my brother is that my delusions were notably fake to me. To him they were real.
Also if you can pick a personality for your delusions, please pick Hitler.
>>26176877 There's no real way to get diagnosed without a professional opinion. Unless you want to me miserable for the rest of your life you'll need to see a professional to get prescribed the medication to treat the condition as well.
>>26176891 Absolutely untrue. Schizophrenia isn't a death sentence desu, unfortunately the medications they use don't actually help people deal with the condition, they just hide the symptoms. Meds get disrupted then it all comes back worse than ever.
The key to working with schizophrenia is being able to manage your paranoia. The other shit makes you a little odd but isn't that big of a deal. I still hear voices around bedtime (the stuff in the morning is usually sleep paralysis) but I recognize them as part of me and not external to me.
>>26178338 Horseshit. It's a two way street, some people isolate because they are mental, others are mental because they isolate.
>not being based undiagnosed schizo master race with classically handsome features and a savant level intelligence in everything you do >not spending 14 hours a day, every day, without fail obsessively mastering your craft because if you don't the voices will become louder and louder until you have to drink yourself into a unconscious state to stop them
My parents took me to the doctor age twelve and they basically told them that I'm a rare case because I was already showing signs of being a schizo nutcase. I actively choose to be an ''outcast'' as people make me sick... I mean, literally. I've vomitted before purely because of a manifestation of disgust that runs so deep I cannot speak to people without wanting to spit. People constantly try to befriend me and I've been told many times from both women and men that there is just ''something about me'' something that makes them want to associate with me. I shun them, though. It's like you don't even want to live forever and achieve endless glory. I've shunned so many friends, women and family so that I can work and have risen above all forms of popular culture... except 4chan, 4chan is my guilty pleasure and atleast some intelligent discussion happens here occasionally.
The only thing I need to become Ubermensch is my own plot of land which I can maintain and live from.
>>26176891 >self-aware =/= insane This is not at all true.
>>26176877 Have a gander at this. https://www.dnalc.org/view/899-DSM-IV-Criteria-for-Schizophrenia.html
One of the important things to grasp is that with these conditions there is significant overlap in the potential diagnosis based upon the observable symptoms. Speaking specifically to schizophrenia though there is an emphasis on "hallucinations" and "voices" how people generally want to diagnose it, especially people with no real understanding of what it is like to be a schizophrenic, but everyone's experience of mental health is different even if the conditions seem to be similar. Whatever the case it is you need to pay great attention to your cognitive processes and unconscious urges, and find some reading material.
Honestly, find some reading material related to what you think is going in with your head, talk to people as well if you can - anything with a goal towards having a perspective on the way you function in society.
>>26178658 >be suicidal and have thoughts of killing everyone around me throughout my life >if I ever revealed these thoughts to anyone they would've strapped me to a table and pumped me full of psychoactive substances with deluded staff fucking with you At first I was just edgy, but now I know society is sick and in need of mass cleansing.
>>26178640 Schizophrenic here. Somedays I feel like the most unlucky person on the planet. On normal days I sit around and wonder why I hove done the weird shit I have done and seen the crazy shit I have seen. Manic days are the best because its either like a free drug trip or having all of my greatest fantasies come true. I'm highly delusional and spent months at a time beleiving I was an immortal cyborg prince who traveled back in time to live the best life ever. I spent an afternoon crying because I remembered the death of my last wife in 1600s France. That wife was Taylor Swift btw.
>>26179193 Yeah. I was homeless for awhile then my dad let me live in the garden shed in his backyard once I was diagnosed. Eventually I got on disability and am living in an apartment of my own. I am medicated so life is a lot less scary these days.
>>26179150 they did it for you own good, they know theyle just give you pills and that that's not the answer
my parents did the same when i was sure i had ADD or whatever the fuck cause i didn't give a single fuck about the stuff in highschool but hey turns out no fucking body cares about 95% of the stuff you're "supposed" to learn there
and to be fair i just wanted adderal cause i tried it from a friend of mine and i did really work to get studying done but in the end the pills will fuck you over
>>26179280 You don't have to take any drugs they want to prescribe you, you know. It's completely your decision. It would be nice if we could choose what drugs they DO prescribe us, but alas we are at their whim.
>>26179335 >--Involuntary movements of the tongue or mouth (facial dyskinesias). Grimacing at the corners of the mouth with the facial muscles, or odd movements with the tongue. >--Parkinsonian type symptoms- rigidity, tremor, jerking arm movements, or involuntary movements of the limbs
I thought these were dangerous side effects of anti-psychotics? I guess they're referring to catatonic behavior. Makes me wonder how you can tell whether a schizo is being catatonic or if he's having an averse reaction to his meds or if it's both happening at the same time.
>>26178640 Schizo getting better at dealing with schizo here (also high functioning aspergers - that one actually diagnosed)
Never medicated and never been on the streets because of dumb luck and friends/family willing to help me out without asking too many questions. I'm starting to realise just how complex my own mental defence mechanisms are and how removed from actually protecting me like they were designed for in the first place. I could say a lot more, but that's never fun and would take too long for an Taiwanese fishery forum.
So for things people enjoy reading. I used to never sleep at night and played video games instead to take my mind off the creatures waiting at the foot of my bed for me. I know that they take their form from my imagination and my comprehension of evil so that they have gone from marching ants and spooky ghosts in my childhood to the skinless/shadowy/demonic apparitions standing still and staring at me with hateful, unblinking eyes. Sometimes I'd try my best not to move in case that drew them closer, sometimes I'd feel their (imagined) movement next to me. Sometimes my dreams would terrify me so much that I'd wake up from them with the images of whatever challenged me in my vision still - which was especially surprising to the malicious old man driving a miniature Ferrari into my legs when I leapt out of my bed to try to choke him.
That stuff happens less involuntarily now, though talking about it like this reminds me the messed up pathways in my mind are still there.
>>26179658 Did you break up with her? Does she just mean the first two or did something happen?
That said it's a bit similar to that, except when you are even better you kinda push your mind away from thinking like that (though the ability to call up the apparitions is there in a kind of PTSD way).
I'm seeing really weird shit right now. I just saw lobster turn into a crawfish turn into a huge beetle. And now I'm seeing fractal patterns faintly placed over my computer screen. It's so fascinating to watch them twirl and move around. I feel like I'm on shrooms or something, these geometric patterns are so intricate and beautiful. I've read that the receptor that psychedelics hit is overactive in schizophrenics, producing experiences similar to a drug trip. Sometimes they take the shape of small animals, only to be dissolved back into the patterns.
I wish I could somehow draw the things I'm seeing, but it's too complex and it's moving far too fast. Maybe there could be some sort of code in these symbols that I need to decipher. Surely these patterns are shown to me for a reason.
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