You are now locked from this thread if you have ever
>had a meaningful discussion with a girl
>had prolonged eye-contact with a girl
>had a sexual encounter with a girl
>enjoyed the company of females
>had a female friend
>held a girl's hand
>kissed a girl
or if you are a female.
I had an existential breakdown in 2014. Right around when the Elliot Rodger thing went down. Now i devote my life to numbing the senses. And by numbing i mean jerking my dick raw and smoking copious amounts of cigarettes to kill blood flow to my dick. Lifes not so bad.
What's to even discuss?
Few more years and I'll be 30, nothings changed yet. Once you've been doing it for so long you kind of just adjust to the situation and learn to live with it in peace.
I don't know what else to tell you. I've picked up other hobbies to distract myself with, like bodybuilding, powerlifting, mmorpgs, researching history and now I decided to start my masters degree this year which I've enrolled in and I am 100% ready to go.
All that energy I was focusing on trying to get a GF I've put into other areas of life and it's definitely paid off as I feel accomplished in many other ways.
Your decision to numb yourself is wrong.
Jerking off and smoking cigarettes is bound to have some nasty side effects.
Especially if you masturbate to porn, you will develop porn induced erectile dysfunction.
Work out and get a hobby. It could be something as idiotic as building model rockets with working rocket engines (but be careful to not end up on FBI watchlist).
Why model rockets? Because it requires you to go through basic physics taught at university if you haven't. Then you dive in deeper in fluid mechanics. Then you gotta program some simulations or use existing programs for fluid simulation to design a proper nozzle shape and the shape of the rocket.
And then you have to build the rocket which means getting or making the fuel, oxidizer and just assemble the whole shit together. For easy starters sugar+KNO3 is the easiest rocket fuel there is.
Or pick something else you wanted to do.
It sounds cheesy, but you should focus on building the new rather than fighting the old.
Jerking my dick to numb myself from my depression only yielded me a porn/fapping addiction, the brain changes of a compulsive addiction, further depression and sadness, and now my dick is not working properly, and it would take at least 6 months of proper abstinence to recover. On nofap for 4 months already, and that is when I decided to quit cold turkey, but because I am so fucking lonely, cold turkey turned into numerous failures and the result was fapping once a week at average. But that is progress. Gotta be harder on myself.
So don't make the same mistake I did. All the energy and effort you put into rejecting yourself should be put into accepting yourself and improving yourself.
I had sex with a girl but I never kissed a girl.
>>had a meaningful discussion with a girl
>>had prolonged eye-contact with a girl
>>had a sexual encounter with a girl
>>enjoyed the company of females
>>had a female friend
>>held a girl's hand
>>kissed a girl
All of those apply to me. I don't submit to your rules.
>made out with girl at concert friday
>made out with my crush saturday
>crush doesn't know about friday girl
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