>got college funding
>realize I will have to pay 100k in debts after I finish college
At least it's not a meme degree. And hey, if you genuinely like it, it's one of the best degrees you can get. Maybe not the most money but definitely a good one. If you apply yourself you should definitely be able to pay off the 100k without much trouble.
Good luck anon! Animals are L I T E R A L L Y better than people.
>tfw I'm too terrified to add up all the debt I've accumulated in just three years
Fuck, I don't know what I'm gonna do. There's a chance I'm gonna have to drop out of school, I'm doing so poorly. I have schizophrenia and it's impossible to get myself to study or go to class. I don't know how I'll start paying those loans. I'm stuck between a rock and a hard capitalist boner that fucks my financial ass every day without lube. I might have to take a medical leave if I keep sucking this bad, and it'll fuck my whole graduation up and I'll have to return my loan and apply for a new one and without my loan I don't know how I'll pay rent and I'll have to take two quarters of classes instead of getting a 6-month internship, which'll cost tens of thousands more while also depriving me of an income, and my grandparents will get disappointed because I promised them I'd work this summer and then they won't sign another loan for me. I'm so fuuuuucked, guys.
Maybe i should have tried for that. When i was a kid my mom suggested it but i didn't want to because i had seen it on tv and got too sad with all those hurt animals.
Now when i think about it maybe it would fit me pretty well but i'd be in my 30s by the time i was finished.
It sucks because everyone's telling me to take a medical leave. My doctor, my therapist, my academic adviser, my internship adviser, and my ex-gf. No one believes in me, they all think my head's way too fucked up to finish this quarter with a passing grade. And maybe they're right. My therapist actually said I need a caretaker to watch me and make sure I'm taking care of myself. And maybe I do need one, is the fucked up thing; I haven't eaten a real meal or showered or changed my clothes in days, just because I can't unglue myself from this fucking bed. My schizophrenia traps me in this cage that I can't escape from. Maybe I am really fucked up, maybe I'm not so far away from the drooling, mouth-breathing idiots that you picture needing help with this sort of thing. I'm so broken that I can't even fulfill my most fundamental human needs. If I continue on like this much longer, I'm probably going to either get really sick or even die. I can't even shovel fucking food in my mouth... feeding myself, the most basic job a human should be able to do. The groceries are all in the kitchen, there's nothing stopping me from making a tasty omelette or a grilled cheese sandwich or even some fucking cheese and crackers. But yet here I am, still here in my bed.
My doctor wants me to move in with my family, get a caretaker, and start an "intensive care" program, which from my reading up on it means I'll be in therapy/seeing a doctor for 20 hrs a week. I couldn't do that. I can't be this fucked in the head, guys. My thoughts are all rational and sane, there's a real live human being hidden inside this stagnant, unmoveable body. I have lots of what are called the "negative symptoms" of schizophrenia; things that are taken away from you because of the illness. These are symptoms like muteness, seclusion, loss of motivation, poverty of thought, emotionlessness, etc. It's like I've lost the spark of life, and I just don't see the point in doing anything anymore.
I know i am going to get a lot of shit for this but.. have you been on venlaflaxin/ antidepressants? I assume you have, since you already had check-ups with doctors. I got them prescreipted by a local psychologist after just one meeting and i know, some of you might not believe me but after 2 weeks of taking the lower-dosed pills, i am now going to take the stronger ones and i already feel a great improvement, not really in happyness but in the feeling that you describe as "feeling glued to the bed/desk". I used to be like this for months but now i even experience random bursts of motivation that might turn to nervousness, but way better than what it was like before. The only side effect i experienced was i felt like vomiting at the beginning but nothing severe at all.
I've been on two antidepressants but my doctor never kept me on them long enough for them to do anything. She thinks I have bipolar, so she's scared that they'll trigger a manic episode for me. It really sucks. I think my anti-psychotic might be fucking up my brain. My thoughts are so much slower and I'm content just sitting in bed on my laptop all day. But I don't know, I've also read those are just regular symptoms of schizophrenia. And I couldn't stop taking it, because then I'd start hallucinating and I'd become delusional again. I really want to be put on Wellbutrin, because it's like a stimulant and gets you up and moving, but my doctor says it'll make me too anxious. I wish I could tell her that I've recreationally dabbled in stimulants before, and never had any problems. An SNRI like venlaflaxin would work too. My doc only puts me on low-dose SSRIs, and they don't do anything for me. I need something energizing, something that gets me out of bed and getting shit done. That's my major problem, I lie in bed all day and browse 4chan. I wish she could see that and prescribe me something more stimulating.
>Got 20K in grant money for my major
>I'm failing every single class because I forgot it was an accelerated course and they are all science STEM core classes.
this is going to be the hardest schooling in my life.
>Amerifats actually have to deal with this astronomical amount of debt.
It feels good being European. As soon as we get Jamal and Ahmed out of here, you'll beg for a European education, cucks,
But American universities are foremost in the world, anon. The only Euro universities that can rival ours are Trinity and maybe Oxford. And they're old as fuck.
>Europeans removing kebab
>caring about prestige and not the degree you're getting.
A degree in Electrical Engineering from Joe Shmuck college is infinitely more valuable than a Gender Studies degree from Brown University.
But enjoy paying hundreds of thousands of dollars for that prestige.
>Mfw bachelors and masters had only 13k in loans, all subsidized.
Feels bueno. Chemistry masters and chem + strategy finance bachelors. I wouldve gotten econometrics masters but every uni offering such are usually uber expensive
Even if they won't be able to remove most of what they've recieved already the opposition is still growing steadily so the diversity won't reach anything near american levels before it's stopped.
You have a lot more niggers than any country has muslims and even more mexicans than that.
I didn't have schizophrenia before I decided to attend university. I was like a genius, I always made the dean's list and I had all these scholarships and I got accepted into a very selective undergraduate research program. Then all of a sudden, something just went wrong. My grades started slipping, I lost the motivation to do anything, I couldn't focus, and I felt a lot dumber than before. Before you know it, I started hallucinating voices and I had conversations with people who weren't there and I began having delusions of religious grandeur. I've been hospitalized twice since then. This illness has just come out of nowhere and I don't know how to deal with it. Dropping out's not really an option for me.
>"Doc can you give me something to stop these schizophrenic episodes?"
>give him a lethal dose of morphine instead
Animals are just dumb as shit, you can't even compare them to people
>failing 3/5 classes
>lying to everyone I'm passing
>I can't pass this because it's fucking linear algebra and physics
>mom is proud
>she's telling to everyone I'm the best in my year
>Tfw never when to college
>no debts to pay
Feels good man
Seriously you liberal pussys are never going to remove jamal, or ben laddens sun, or the syrian freedom fighter gang.
You're fucked even worse than America with trump calling the shots
If I were american I wouldn't even go to college
I have many of the same problems as you, except that they are due to severe brain damage and not schizophrenia.
Hope this gives you some comfort.
I mean for us average americans its either a shot at eventually a 6 k job if you pick the right degree and not general liberal art meme.
Or trade which is physically horrible for you, or military which most of the mind sets in there are assholes where you get paid shit to go possibly die in the hell hole we call the middle east.
So yeah the debt is horrible, but out of all the poisen the college debt is the better option
>tuition is ~6k a semester
>scholarships only cover 3.500 per semester
>living on campus costs 13.500 a semester
I swear to god, whoever decides how much on-campus living costs should be brutally beaten with a frozen tuna.
>Sweden has finally copped on and is deporting 80'000 migrants
>40% of Germans want to kick Merkel out of office for her refugee policy
13.5 / 4 months is fucking 3400/month living cost? That's insane.
I live off campus, my living costs (rent, phone/internet/car insurance/food/) is right around 1k a month, which is what I make part time. 3400 a month is outrageous.
>barely do anything in highschool
>flunk out of uni because its a waste of time (free uni here)
>pay 1k for some microsoft courses and learning
>get a job that pays 4x the average salary
>no loans to pay of any kind
guess im gonna stay in eastern europe after all. fatherland and all that shit. im not as wealthy as the average yank, but when the living costs are easily covered by 400 euros and i have 2000 left to just jerk around with, things seem bretty gud.
>mom works 16+ hours a day every day since she divorced my dad
>says she does it for me
>I tell her four years ago to start a college fund
>she says she'll do it for sure
>ask her when applying last year how much is in the college fund
>"lol what college fund"
what the fuck, what has she been spending money on all these years? she makes 60k a year and her new husband makes over 100k. I'm putting that whore in a home when I pay off all this debt.
>tfw free college
how does it feel to live in a third world country?
>get college funding
>Fuck up repeatedly, but state/federal covers AS anyway 100%
>uni funding, half is loans
>getting some refund, but Tap/Pell might run out before I finish
It was a good decision to go for my BS, but I had a job offer with my AS. Wouldn't have been glamorous, but like $12-15/h, free training, overtime and 1+year retention, for being a machine operator.
Currently, I know a company really struggling to hold onto people, just because they keep fucking up, not showing up, or coming to work on drugs. Like literally 50% monthly turnover because they can't get anyone to do their job at all. One was like a ~$20/hour position with union benefits, and some dude, of two on shift, came to work drunk. For a food package manufacturer (plastic milk bottles).
Where I am, $20/hour is good for little/no education, especially if it's not spine shattering.
Belgium and the netherlands aren't really that much better.
Eastern Europe fucked themselves much harder but in a different way. They have suffered and still suffer a lot more from communism than western Europe ever will from SJW.
Not even the worst European SJW countries fucked themselves so hard that they'll be anything like USA though.
Ok then i'll call it "that thing that the slavs did that wasn't communism".
Regardless of what you call it the point was that it fucked them up really bad.
Both with all the death and suffering in the past and then all the poverty that they have now.
If the problems they have now were from the transition from notcommunism and not the notcommunism itself the point is still just that it's a lot worse than the SJW shit in western europe.
Those are based on what the universities themselves have produced not the quality of education.
Besides 'murican cuckleges are nothing but liberal brainwash centers that no person valuing his/her mental health should enter.
>tfw dad makes 200k+/y
>big believer in college education
>tfw NEET but if I ever want to do college know it'll be paid in full
Why did you cunts take huge loans for degrees you knew wouldn't pay off or if you knew you probably weren't gonna finish college anyway? You were speculating on margin and you lost.
That's like buying a yacht on a part-time McDonalds income and wondering where it all went wrong.
You all deserve to suffer under crippling debt.
Is there something I can get a bachelors in that can get me a related job/apprenticeship without any experience?
I want to go to uni mostly because it's easier to enrol than it is to get a job.
Living off minimum wage your whole life is hard, dude. Anything above that and I'll take the hit on school prices. Besides I'm not american so I won't have to sell my blood, semen and hair to make payments before the jew golems come to collect.
I didn't say go and work for Cluckin Bell for the rest of your life. I just said it's easier to make a purchase at inflated prices than it is to get a job where you're paid an inflated price.
My suggestion would to be to do whatever you like to do until you start getting paid for it. Some choices are harder to monetize than others and some will take much longer than others but all of it is possible.
For example I'm working on an RPG game with some friends of mine and while we have normie minimum wage jobs to buy gas and booze and weed and fast food and computer parts we're focused on getting a game out and becoming developers. Worst case scenario the game flops and we have a foot in the door with a resume and an example of our work. Or we just keep at it and stay independent while making a new game.
Good shit man.
I always wonder why it seems like such a high amount of americans go through college. Can't you get an unskilled job (plumbing, barber, car repair, etc.) without a degree? Surely only those who are academically successful should ever do university.
sometime in the 90s America collectively decided that all students need to go to college. if you don't go to college you are a complete failure and you will struggle for the rest of your life to make money. that's the bullshit that was sold to a bunch of parents who themselves most likely did not go to college.
all it has done is create a trillion dollars in debt for student loans, and on top of that companies just threw in a degree requirement for entry level jobs that really don't require it.
it's a scam and the bankers and universities are the ones profiting