Who /pastdepression/ here? I've come to terms with my robot being the past month and now everything is funny as fuck to me. I feel like a crazy man but it feels kinda good
i used to fucking hate normies just like the rest of the board, but now i just fucking laugh at them
dumb fucking wagecucks, why should i care about socitey, or the white race, or any of that shit. fuck the world.
I resigned myself to death long ago so it's not like I'm all shook up or anything. But I'd just rather not die now because life doesn't seem too bad anymore.
Maybe it's just the fact that I no longer have control over it, idk.
It's just using humor to cope. Eventually the depression will come back in bouts
its like my life has become a real time strategy game. And I am the commander of my army, the mayor of my town,and engineer of all of it.
But the distance between me , my plans, and my reality just make me feel like I put everything on autopilot.
enemys keep attacking
this is the nature of all things
do we not realize that the best way to fight the system is to escape rather than fight?
I have left myself to its own devices
what the fuck did i just read. are you trying to write a young adult novel or what
This almost seems like sarcasm but I really hope you take it to heart.
One of the most important things I learned is to put my cynicism on the backburner and enjoy things. To welcome excitement and quickly move past disappointment.
It seems like something everyone would innately know but in my experience most people with depressive disorders don't actually think about it and actively choose to do it.
Obviously every case is different but it's pretty clear that welcoming happiness and the occasional bout of "turn your brain off"-itis is an important step.
Oh, just all those vague things you read in buzzwords weekly?
It doesn't even matter if the depression is intermittent as long as there are bright spots. Those are what you live for.
Tried excercising and lifting, was going well for a while
Then I got a hernia from deadlifting a warmup 215 before my bitch boy 225
I was broken up about it during that day but then I realized "Why should I even care"
So now I laugh at my inability to even deadlift without my body breaking down and just work on upper body and take each day in stride
24 years old still in first year community college with a retail dead end job
loling at myself
you're just compressing it
I lost all feeling too, even today I had a pretty good day
but when it hits, good lord.
I about killed myself last year because it flooded back like a dam breaking, now before I go to sleep every night I think of all the horrible shit and try to cope.
So far I think it's really helping, just thinking about all of it rather than mashing it down into my subconscious helps.
Want to feel good about yourself?
All you need to do is realize you are alone for this crazy ride we call life.
Your friends, family, teachers, bosses & coworkers WILL fuck you over for personal gain.
Get a stable job & become as independant as you can, also learn how to fight.
If you get these 2 things down, there will be no more strings on you.
Do you even know where you are?
It's not about 4chan buzzwords.
It's about not leeching off off other's peoples succes and risking being fucked over by the people you think are closest to you.
You are litteraly telling leeches it's totallly ok to be a leech.