>getting anxiety when nearing my stop
>get money out to pay
>start getting shaky
>taking forever to slide the fucking bill inside the machine
>driver gets pissy and says: "hurry up I don't have all day"
>awkwardly say: "oh sorry dude, thanks"
>heart stops, smile and enthusiasm, gone
How is this shit possible, never been this bad
I used to be super confident and normal long ago
>mfw this could be highway to robot
Just fucking kill me I'm only 16
I can tell you the exact moment I began my descent.
>be in class
>girl next to me keeps looking at my laptop for notes
>I type my notes out because I have an active tremor, can barely read my own writing
>offer to add some info to her notes to make them better
>grab her laptop
>just as I'm about to start typing, tremor kicks in harder than usual
>hands literally cannot stay still, can't even type
>get pissed off, manage to stammer out "I can't do it"
>eventually compose myself and type them out
>never sit next to her or talk to her again
Am Canadian, can confirm he's becoming a true maplebro >>26096127
What other changes are you guys experienced though? Have you shaken off your virginity? I mean there's got to be some other chemical changes to your brain to remove anxiety.
That said, I can totally relate and have friends who went through similar things.
im still a virgin at 22 so no its not that. I honestly think ive just stopped caring. I dont see people as something I NEED to impress anymore. Its not like ive detached myself either, I guess my attitude has just shifted from "oh god what will they think of me" to "go fuck yourself if you have a problem you faggot"
do you ever think about how many times you've been told to kill yourself by other people? Do ever think they're being serious?
I'm 23 and I got comfortable in myself like that too. Used to overthink everything I said and every interaction, now I don't give a shit if I say something autistic and just move on.