>>26084142 Not really sure sometimes I get depressed but after a while I get over it. To be honest I'm not a complete nihilists but because I understand that nothing matters I try to live as happy as possible before I die
>>26084166 i mean i do think about it alot but over many years now i never reached satisfying answer thus i gave up and try not to overthink it i distract myself with meaningless shit vidya/tv/shitposting .etc and live my life one day by one 24 hours is not that much i also sleep alot
Knowing the void is just a symptom of experiencing the Sublime. The Sublime is all the things that make us feel insignificant and infinitesimal. Sometimes the void becomes a preoccupation when we're feeling a bit psychotic. You forget about the void by recognizing it for what it is (a sublime experience) and making use of it to stand above the troubles of the world.
>>26084266 I'm not afraid of death, but I don't really want to kill myself neither, I just want to know how the fuck can I live a non miserable life, get to work every day and be sociable with "the happy people" while i'm constantly thinking about how worthless and meaningless we all are. When I say the "happy people", I know they probably thought about it too, I know i'm not special for thinking about it, I just don't understand how you can live an adult life knowing this.
>>26084266 Neither life nor death appeal to me very much but it's starting to shift in a way that I fear life more than I dislike the thought of being dead. I don't want to kill myself, though, and the only thing keeping me alive at the moment is some kind of momentum; I started living and now I kind of go with it, in spite of my aversion against it.
>>26084365 i think alot of people might actually think about it, at least the smart part of them thing is, having kids/gf/wife makes you try to do your best for them, and not bring them down with you also if they truly love you it gives you strenght to endure it i suppose but how would i know, im 22hhkv
>>26084365 >be sociable with "the happy people" We both know that we wont be the exact happy people as they are. We know more about what i means to start with low value cards, we've seen depth of the abyss. Even when socializing with those people you wont be able not to judge them by the lack of depth. I hope you have extraordinary will power to pierce the heaven because abyss always wants to drag people down into the misery.
>>26084559 I'm basically in the same spot Plan is to just keep shitposting, play vidya and watch chinese cartoons till I die. In the end me, a "loser" and the successful doctor, singer, chad, whatever will share the same fate and get replaced and forgotten. We are all expendable as fuck >inb4 edgelord Fuck off
>>26084683 Then why continue living? Why not end it on the spot? Like invent a machine which could tell your destiny with an option to remove yourself from life? Everyone would benefit from it, manufacturers get money and people would get solution not to live 40-50 years in emotional and physical misery.
When you fall in love with a girl, you experience this moment of bliss and understanding of your place, you feel connected to a bigger thing.
You have someone to be there for you at the end of the day, you support each other to the end and build a bigger ship for each other.
You see for yourself that LIVING for yourself is pointless. You live for the other person and you want to be the proper thing in her life.
You act like you know everything before this, play video games that you don't like, things become dull, routine. And then she shows you the greatness of life of how its supposed to be done.
And then she cheated on you with a guy because he has a Volvo and money to buy the fucking cunt that you put so much effort into protecting on the street and putting your heart and love all into this absolute fucking monster that still lives for herself.
This isn't a meme, I really was cheated on this week, I've spent the entire time with video games and working out while thinking of becoming a wage slave.
>>26084750 I don't think that machine is a realistic concept. I'm just living my life, too big of a pussy to neck myself, enjoying anime and vidya. Just don't invest too much of your time into work or studying, it's all a fucking meme. Enjoy yourself as much as you can before you become maggot fodder.
>>26084807 I'm also too big of pussy because i dont want last feeling on the earth to be pain. The thing i'm not imaginative nor hedonistic. Like a cursed hybrid who would need extreme sensation to feel something good. Even when something genuine happens my first thought is that i should be happy about it because nothing matters in the long run. I was born with complications (cord around my neck) so maybe was just an human error.
>>26084208 this is the best we can hope for I believe. Everyone dies and your consciousness and everything you are is lost to infinite time. Might as well make the best of it. I think the biggest thing to realize is once you are dead you literally won't care, so don't worry it won't be bad.
>>26084946 It was on junior, I started gaming with her and talking with her a lot But she was Chad's lover, and Chad was on my fucking classroom Chad used to bully me Fuck it man I don't want to go really deep about it, but everybody found out I liked her
>>26084090 By now "happiness" is mostly like a story you have gathered by osmosis. People are largely self-obsessed and will hide things about themselves at any cost to portray that they're living the perfect life to others. It's hard being affected by depression, but you can do it, and at least you live honestly.
>>26084036 Nothing will make you "forget", OP. I still realize how ridiculously absurd and painful life can be. Even an ego death and one fateful acid trip with The Brothers Karamazov didn't make me "forget" that. I eventually realized that there is no clean cut resolution to the meaninglessness of life. It makes me just suffer to try and find one. This is one of those few cases where ignorance is truly bliss. I could give you my two cents on the whole situation, but I'd probably get nonstop flak by le randum xD anti-religion/buddha/magic faggot that posts on here 24/7.
>>26084266 Sorry, but unless you've taken all of those drugs, your blanket statement can't be taken seriously. If you haven't experienced a psychedelic drug, it is safe for me to say that you only have a crude abstract understanding of how malleable consciousness can truly be.
>>26085471 >spinning HD colors bro, I've only done LSD but it's way fucking more than that, you just start thinking and thinking and you feel like you answer a lot of your questions. Thing is I suspect these questions were created by your LSD trip and you might end up with unanswered questions, and that sucks
>>26085471 At least read about these things on something like the Psychonaut wiki. It's not perfect, but they've done a stellar job of cataloging the wide variety of effects people seem to experience.
Acid can cause thought acceleration and massively expand a person's imagination. It isn't an intelligence booster, because it can make people have incredibly stupid (yet believable) thoughts. Gravity's Rainbow has a few small passages here and there which are fantastic examples. (I'll post them in my next reply, because I'm having some weird non-ascii text message from quoting it)
Tangentially related, that's why staying in a safe environment during a trip is recommended -- mood included. People have slipped into bad/insane states of mind that have led to injury or death because they were overwhelmed by their imaginations or their feelings.
>>26085789 2c-b (or was it 2c-i?) seems like it metabolizes into some kind of toxic substance in the liver, as its effects are much like similar psychedelics so it technically shouldn't kill as many people as it does. I hope you're not using that stuff.
>>26085547 I have run out of characters, here's tits to tide you by
>>26086013 From one side i dont want to do mind-altering drugs because my ego is very easily overriden by subconsciousness. Trance is particularly easy to achieve but i'm afraid what could happen under influence.
>>26085471 "Now there grows among all the rooms, replacing the night's old smoke, alcohol and sweat, the fragile, musaceous odor of Breakfast: flowery, permeating, surprising, more than the color of winter sunlight, taking over not so much through any brute pungency or volume as by the high intricacy to the weaving of its molecules, sharing the conjuror's secret by which-though it is not often Death is told so clearly to fuck off-the living genetic chains prove even labyrinthine enough to preserve some human face down ten or twenty generations... so the same assertion-through-structure allows this war morning's banana fragrance to meander, repossess, prevail. Is there any reason not to open every window, and let the kind scent blanket all Chelsea? As a spell, against falling objects...."
>>26085547 For me, I realized I thought of everything as broken, rather than in disrepair (as many things tend to be). I realized life is absolutely ridiculous, but the ridiculous things I truly enjoy about it are the feelings of love, laughter, and being part of a community that wants to grow and evolve. I realize too that I can't have those things forever, but I'd rather mourn them than never have them at all. I came around here out of boredom, but soon I'll be off exercising.
>>26086079 Nbomes are bad juju, imo. I don't know what to tell you, but I hope you can find a good source sooner rather than later.
>>26086111 That's totally fair and I won't try to persuade you. I was mostly just annoyed someone would pretend psychedelics mean nothing at all to the human experience. Even Steve Jobs felt something positive from them, even if he didn't really remember his trips.
I am drunk and feel bad; try to atomize my thoughts so it wont come off as cringeworthy but makes you understand nonetheless. Life is stupid, people tell you to do x and y, then you do it and then z comes along telling you "you totally fell for it, cuck". Everyone knows this is nowhere, but they pretend there's more to it just to burden you with their shit. Just wait it out, suicide is too horrible.
All i wish for in my life is to have someone who understands, to feel a connection with another human being on a basic fucking level, to make it seem less pointless. I know im not a special snowflake, but that means there must be more of me around. Where is everyone?
>>26084365 I was depressed for most of my life up until a year ago. For me, I just realized I could either live a depressed life where I felt sad and like shit all the time. Or I could try to accept things the way they are and make the best of it.
It's you perspective nothing matters and that should make you feel bad that's making you feel bad. Why is it better/ more right to be depressed about meaninglessness than being content or ok with it?
If you have other past or present issues, you're probably better off trying to solve them or accept them. Try to surround yourself with more positive or funny things (and/ or people). Being around people who are miserable tend to drag you down if you're depressed.
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