Discuss mental illness here. Why my psychotic depressioniggas at?
I've been diagnosed with clinical depression. I've been a neet since then
it was 3 years ago.
i keep thinking maybe it's time to stop being a useless faggot and be useful once again. I keep thinking.
>hurr durrr words and shit
lmao fucking retar dhahahahaha omg ur so stupid nig
lolo retard i was just pretending and uf all for it lmao
also i speak 4 languages in total so fuck you
Medication is really expensive. I was on SNRI's for awhile. A year ago I missed an appointment and never contacted them back for another. I give up on medication, they never improved my state of mind much and neither did I want to use it as some crutch, money was also an issue, I didn't want to have to depend on my parents.
i wish to get better on my own and i have been doing well enough as can be since i stopped, the cold turkey was another day in hell, not like we aren't already used to that right?. But thanks for asking, anon.
You have to try 4 different treatments.
Trying 4 different SSRIs is like trying 1 treatment 4 times.
You don't know what you're talking about.
Know your feels robot bro, this sucks.
>read about avoidant personality disorder
>describes me to a T, every fear and hesitation I've had since I was a child
>go on /r9k/
>"meme disorder for people who make excuses"
I don't even know anymore
Just smash my face in with a brick
Just let me get killed by a serial killer so my parents don't think I'm a coward
>start feeling slight symptoms of depression
>only things keeping me going are school, living with my mum and my two dogs
>going to uni means all three of those won't be there at all
What's the best time to go get checked out? I just feel like I'm going to slump down so hard when I get to university, but right now I don't feel anything is serious enough to 'worry' myself and my mum about.
SSRIs are intended to be used in conjunction with therapy. even if it's not serotonin related you will still see an effect from it
sorry I forget not everywhere has free public healthcare
holy shit it's nothing like the same treatment 4 times. SSRI is just a class of drug, they all work differently
it's like saying all antibiotics kill all bacteria
Forgot to mention I'm a Brit so I've got free healthcare but waiting times are LONG and there are many, many more needy people than me. Quite a big factor so I really should have remembered it.
diagnosed with depression, seeing a therapist almost every week, have kinda breakdowns every now and then, get very annoyed by teenage fags "cutting" themselves with, idk, paper scissors and acting like theyre having serious problems
know it's probably stupid but sometimes i just want to kick them in the face like, you don't even know what real mental illness feels like
It's a lot more complicated than that. I'm just unsure whether the minor symptoms I'm feeling now are just temporary, and uni will be the change I 'need', or if they're not and they'll only get worse.
I will see, but I seriously doubt I'll get the motivation/time/energy to go on my own and I really don't want to worry my family by getting them to take me. I also don't want a false positive coming back and fucking me up despite not having much wrong with me.
Psychotic depression is a combination of major depressive disorder and psychosis. I'm not a schizo, but I guess I have a psychotic disorder which is in the same category as schizophrenia. I have psychotic episodes where I act weird and hallucinate. For example, here's how it went on Saturday for me:
>laying in bed in college dorm after having one (1) beer and suddenly super tired
>get a burst of euphoric super-energy that sends me running down the hallway and yelling people's names
>eat food off the floor
>spray febreeze in my mouth
>pester my friends on my floor to go to mcdonalds with me
>think that the lights outside are emitting some sort of "energy"
>think that I am a god who can read minds and manipulate people with the force
>eventually, it wears off and leaves me feeling suicidally depressed
Epilepsy. I never though I could become so ostracized. It was the beginning of my JUST saga.
My friends are subtly scared of me now. I just told them I'm drunk, but one of them caught my lie and thinks I was on drugs of some sort. I should probably just tell them but it would be extremely awkward.
fo real. these threads are my only chance to vent about this shit. normalfags always give me a look like i farted then bragged about the smell. I'm just tryna communicate why my life isn't as amazing as yours and sorry for interrupting your cool story normalbro.
I do have a break coming up and my mum's going to Spain so I could do it then.
The thing is, there's two outcomes if I do it now.
>I'm a legit depressed fuck and it's going to fuck up a lot of future plans
>I'm not and there's massive uncertainty
But thanks for the encouragement, fellow anons. I'll come back whenever something changes and update you all.
This switch in my brain goes off or I notice when it starts happening and I start to think people are intently focusing on me and I start to get really paranoid and start doing movements that you would see a junkie do coupled with a deep desire to punch something or shout my lung's out or something of the sort. There's also this warm but thick fog of some kind of bad focus that starts to cover the insides of my brain.
What do I have? I think it's just common temporary brain damage
im just tired of life and don't want to live anymore
im not capable of thinking ahead, making plans for future
everything seems dull and meaningless
i dont like ppl
i am not capable of working
probably some sort of depression an anxiety
taking some SSRI and prozac
didnt help at all
Is ADD really just a meme diagnosis? I've been struggling with studying for a year and a half now. I have no idea what to do as I can't for the life of me concentrate on studying. I've been telling myself that all these attention disorders are just made up and that I should just get on with it and just do it, but it does't work. I've been tryoing for over a year and it makes me depressed, I'm desperate and during every finals month I'm borderline suicidal.
>pic related, I wish I was able to study like her
the other night i took a box of paramol and downed half a bottle of vodka but then I threw up from the vodka and when I tried to stop myself from throwing up i just passed out and threw up in my sleep and i'm still not dead
god damn im a fucking pussy.
Who here /developingpsychosis/?
>been depressed for years
>hit bottom a couple years ago
>anxiety worsens causing panic attacks
>fought with suicidal/homicidal thoughts
>started developing this paranoia of others
>now starting to think I'm trapped in some matrix reality
>my paranoia of others is now saying they're programs knowing I have caught on to the alternate reality
>trying to hang on to whatever sanity I have left to say this idea is stupid
>expecting genuine advice about mental health from /r9k/
>taking their generalizations seriously that you don't even know what to think of yourself now
I think you may be autistic too.
Learn how to toughen up you sensitive faggot
seizures only started in the last 6 months and only diagnosed after a full blown seizure recently.
probably had 4 - 5 partial seizures before this and one since, i need a few more to really get a feel for it so i can describe it correctly.
from what i can remember they are just overwhelming emotions of all types for 20 - 30 seconds, close to a bad dream or drug trip if anything.
the spooky part is when started talking to the nurse with a normal tone of voice but no actual english words during the full blown seizure.
Diagnosed schizophrenic here, pretty mild though. Was fine for a while but I ignored the warnings about DUDE WEED LMAO and thought I was just getting the normal paranoia. Turns out it triggered my latent schizophrenia. Not that I really blame the weed, it probably would have come up later in life and I'm actually glad I had to learn how to deal with it when the stakes were low. Most of the time I can convince myself that the voices aren't real and that I'm just having a dialogue with my subconscious which has led to some pretty astounding revelations about myself, but every once in a while if I'm not alone and start hearing something I freak out a little bit.
Absolutely refuse to try and sort of meds though, I'll take my naturally fucked up brain that has gotten me into a good school and almost laid over the possibility of an even more fucked up brain and even more suicidal thoughts.
It's really not a good idea to take advice from this board about anything. This place is full of failures, generally you want to take advice from successful people.
Does the feeling originate in the back of your head and spreads? Do you get similar sensations in the chest? Does it feel sort of like a wave of numbness?
If so then that might be panic attacks. I have them from time to time. I originally thought i had heart disease. Every time I got it I got even more scared and tried to calm down and stop it and that only makes it worse, in the end I had to get an ambulance cause I was half fainting, had numb hands and feet and generally thought i was gone die. Then the doctors explained that they get that all the time, people mistaking panic attacks for heart attacks. The way to stop it is to just sort of embrace it and let it go through instead of trying to stop it or calm yourself down. It can't hurt you.
>Does the feeling originate in the back of your head and spreads? Do you get similar sensations in the chest? Does it feel sort of like a wave of numbness?
up until now i just thought it was dysphoria. thanks for clearing it up I guess.
just pull usb cable out of the wall. Should do the job
I would go to a doctor to be sure. But even that's not 100%, we don't understand brains that much and unless it's severe you gon get brushed off since they generally don't really want to do a bunch of tests for something that doesn't seem serious.
Still it might be just a mild panic attack. Think about whether you are under extra stress that could cause it. Or maybe if something triggers it (like being in public), then it's probably a mild panic attack. However it's hard to say. If you had like a brain tumor there should be more symptoms, like vision problems or something.
Manic-depressive, been hospitalised for psychosis, my life has been spiralling out of control for the last 6 months, and after these last three weeks I think I've fucked it up for good.
Anti-psychotics gonna make you fat and tired, welcome.
People (I can identify them) shouting at my unintelligibly, people trying to poison me/trap me and kill me, weird shapes that I think are creatures but then somehow I realise they are not. Visual disturbances, things moving around etc. Maybe that's what's going on with you, but everyone has different shit.
You would be surprised how many non-schizophrenic people have psychotic episodes. Mood stabilisers are not for psychosis, but they can limit mania, which can end up in psychosis EASILY. Risperidone is an anti-psychotic, mostly used for schizo.
You need to get yourself to a doctor and then a ward, sharpish. Anti-psychotics will make your head quiet.
Yeah, medication definitely makes you more fucked up and suicidal. Don't try and spin me that bullshit, you're not a hero for refusing treatment
Hi my name is Ronald and I have problems with addictions
My life is really hard and I guess the cause was my father who raised me poorly to try and get me to be like his rock star idols, bands such as black sabbath
>Do your brain problems cause you to make this thread multiple times a day?
It's nice to see a thread full of other anons you can relate to. At least it's a bit better than b8/fembot and tfwnogf threads.
these threads are depressing
some of you have it so hard
I care about you guys a whole lot
>problems falling asleep
>problems waking up on time
>problems eating with any regularity
>fluctuate between 190-210lbs (6'6'' as well)
>Can't focus on anything longer than a few minutes before being derailed by a fiction
>can't read books
>video games are hard now
>all I do is obsessively collect music