>no will and reason to live
>no way or reason to die
Is anyone else stuck in this sea of despair?
Yup. Dying is retarded and living is pretty boring. I look forwards to the nice things in life but fucking hell is everything boring, every person I meet is just a distraction. Nothing feels real, it never did and probably never will.
>I look forwards to the nice things in life
What if I can't see them? I can literally not think of anything which would make me feel different. Not even the thought of a loving relationship, which everyone on here seems to long for, makes me feel good. On the contrary, it only makes it worse by making me feel ungrateful for wasting this life.
Sorry but my metaphors and vocabulary aren't up to the task of describing this.
>have the occasional shore for waves to break on to
Complaining about my situation on here helps a bit.
Yeah I know, relationships hurt bad if you roll your dice wrong. Loving someone is painful but actually feeling loved is the only thing that has ever made me feel happy. Then again I've only felt it for a brief moment compared to the rest of my life, but that feeling is the reason I want to keep on living just to feel it again one day.
That's because in reality this world itself is the limbo. The empty nothingness where you're forced to wait and suffer until eventually it consumes you entirely. You either break or you fade away.
Not even despair anymore. Just endless bleak apathy.
I guess it's our survival instinct. Even with nothing left most people always want to live, to survive. Sure some people are hurt and damaged enough that they simply don't want to feel the pain anymore and off themselves, but we still live without anything to keep us happy, we only kill ourselves when there's enough shit bothering us, when living is harder than dying. Sorry for my ingrish I'm not native.
i didnt ask to be born but neither did anybody else, so i aint gonna hurt anybody by killing myself, like my parents
but i dont care about life, the only thing i want to be is a nice person. If i could live working a 9-5 job in a factory, sure. I dont care at all, i dont want to find the point of life because there is none, it's just a shitfest of subjectivity