ITT: Post the only reason you keep living
>Want to witness the happening
>Want to try DMT
Your go /r9k/
>don't want that my family breaks apart because of suicide
I just want to get into an accident
yeah, pretty much this.
i also live in a nogunz country, so i'm scared of fucking up my suicide
>want to try DMT
>want to experience something interesting and intense
>basic human drive to survive
That's basically it. I think the 4th and 1st one are the biggest, probably for most people
>tiny bit of alcohol and drugs
>anime and manga
>cuddling qt3.14s after feigning attractive asthetics
>seldomly meeting people who are nice to you and like you
Video games used to be in there, but I sold all of them. That's about it mayne.
I'm sort of waiting for myself to snap. I want to at least do something insane and see where I am after that (not a school shooting). Go on some long trip alone, or move somewhere all by myself. Something that forces me to admit how behind I am in comparison to everyone and forces me to commit to every responsibility myself.
also i wanna see one of my /mu/-tier bands live
I still have some foolishly misplaced hope.
Also, while I'm completely jaded and cynical by this point, I still take a good deal of pleasure in the little things, like a good cup of coffee or a nice long walk or a song that hits you in the right place
>want to own tiny home in the middle of nowhere that I built myself
>want to get /fit/
>want to travel the world even though zenophobic shut-in
>want to kiss onetis
guess which of these is most plausible
I can't kill myself until I get to play Half-Life 3 and experience the conclusion to the series. I know that means I will never get to kill myself because Half-Life 3 will likely never happen, but the slight chance that it will is keeping me going. All I can think about is that I might end up killing myself the day before it gets announced and that makes me want to cry.
I want to see how our species destroys itself. I want to see technology continue to evolve. I want to see artificial intelligence. More importantly though, I want to be uploaded into a synthetic body so I can be immortal.
I don't know why people get so serious about hl games. the story really isn't that interesting and it's just an fps game. fps games at this point are all stale as hell. the only half decent one I've played in the past ten years is far cry 3.
and I'm 30 and played hl1 when it first came out.
The concept of a "happening" is the only thing that really keeps me alive, the idea of a huge societal change although probably wouldn't benefit me sure is exciting. Dying now would be like turning the movie off half way.
I'm drunk and mobile faggot-ing gimme a break
But normies can't spell for shit so you're probably wrong .
"Oh my God he can spell words really well, my cunt is so wet!" -no girl ever
Source: literally 5th/6th grade countywide spelling bee champion, never got laid for it fuck women amirite
>getting rich (currently have a good business in progress)
>hiding my wealth
>getting plastic surgery
>impregnate multiple QT's and Stacies
>take large doses psychedelics and opiates
it's all going to crash and burn in the next couple of years due to all the eurocucks allowing themselves to be literally invaded by the hordes their ancestors have fought and repelled for 1200 years
it will end in a beautiful orgy of violence
To win the lottery, so I can keep enjoying the NEET life indefinitely, but with money.
Sort of this? If I could become immortal I would. Its not even about fear of death or loving to live, I want answers of some kind. Unfortunately it seems philosophy just ends up here https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/M%C3%BCnchhausen_trilemma
So the only other options I see are living forever until some breakthrough or doing that and trying to artificially enhance my own intelligence. However as far as death goes I could be dying all the time yet uncertain about it or not alive at all if you apply the Ship Of Theseus to the self
DMT is a cool 5 minute break from reality into colorful visualizer land in small doses. If you take a massive bong hit of it though, that's where the crazy shit is. I personally had a terrible time and will never do it again, out-of-body experiences are not my cup of tea.
>tfw dragon-face god laughing at me cause I can't hang
>banished into Tetris abyss
Call me a degenerate but I just want to try psychedelics and DMT and all that stuff. I also think I still have potential, I haven't given up completely, does that make me a normie? I dunno.
Whoever was playing it sucked
They're definitely worth trying. I figured out after a while that I don't actually like them, but they're awesome just as artistic experiences. Just don't think that they'll cure depression and change your life, and never do them in public.
This. Everything else is garbage in comparison.
>wanna see BvS
>wanna see Suicide Squad
>shitpost on /tv/ while we make dank new memes for these two movies
>watch last season of The Leftovers
>watch last Resident Evil movie
>meet Kanye West
>fuck a qt Japanese grill no condor
That's about it
>Bojack season 3
>Kanye west new album "WAVES"
>Better Call Saul season 2
>at least 4 more star wars movies (there will probably be even more since its disney)
>i wanna explore the whole galaxy in Spore, maybe even conquer the whole galaxy
>wait until WoW goes f2p and play it every day
and the biggest reason for me right now
>gonna buy a hoverboard in the summer
those things are awesome, cant wait
Maybe someone will murder me or something. Then I wont have to worry about what little family I have falling apart trying to blame each other
>not wanting to go for a nightwalk with your hoverboard at night
these things are comfy as fuck you just gotta try it
I can just kill myself later, so I might as well waste time watching shitty anime for a bit beforehand
There's a reason most suicides are caused by a sudden event rather than just some guy deciding "well, might as well off myself next Tuesday" and going through with it.