i feel so detached. im in uni and live on campus and i see hundreds of people everyday but it's like im living behind this foggy glass and i cant do anything in life because im not in it.
some homeless guy stopped and asked me for money today and i realized that it was the first time i had spoken to someone outside of the automatic mandatory interactions i have to go through in days.
it's been 2 years since ive had friends, and the thing is, i dont really have any desire to talk to anybody. relationships in general just feel like tools used to keep loneliness away and improve one's social status. it's kind of unsettling because if things continue at this rate, ill grow up into a life that's just as unhappy as the one i have now; just something to tolerate until things get better. but what if things dont get better? what reason is there for things to get better?
I guess you just gotta find the right people. I find that most of my social interaction is a chore and I don't like being around or talking to other people. But there a couple people who I genuinely love being around. I have like 3-5 friends who seriously make my day whenever I see them. College is a pretty good place to meet people who you won't hate, but it's difficult being a robot.
Don't listen to this guy, he's a normie piece of shit. Any "friends" you make will either be out of pity or because they want to take advantage of you. The only way to make things better is suicide.
I was just about to say something appertaining to this. This guy >>26053921 is a lying sack of shit, there exists no such thing as "the right people". Everyone is fucking insular and self-centered. If you don't have any friends by Uni, you'll never get any. If you do, they'll just be "artificial" friends who will never view you in the same light as you view them.
That said, I'm going through the same thing. Currently in my last year of HS and I haven't had a single friend in two years. Depression and Deprecation ahoy.
"If this is supposed to be life on easy mode, growing up and trying to get and sustain a career must be nightmare mode. Why not just skip to the ending now?"
This is gonna be my new phone background. Thanks OP
I am like you. I managed to make a friend this year while doing my masters, but her shit ass boyfriend was jealous that we spent time together so we are no longer close. It hurts, she was my first real friend too...
I've been here since before the robot was taken away originally. I live by myself in the middle of the desert, in a 10x10 room with the nearest human being over a mile away. The reason I love seeing my close childhood friends so much is because I only see them a few times a year and it's always great to be with them again. But yeah, you're in high school and you know everything about life because the cool kids don't like you.
I came into this thread because I wanted to help OP. /r9k/ is partially right about a lot of stuff, and most normies are shitty people not worth dealing with. But there are people out there who can genuinely add positivity to your life. If you spend your whole life walling yourself off like I've been doing recently, you're going to be miserable.
You fucking dickhead robots. Every once in a while, do that dreaded "socialise with normie" thing. Always be open to meeting new people. because it can lead to you actually making a damn good friend through some boring normie. Been there done that.
I have that feeling too.
It's been tough making any friendships since everyone is just manipulative and wants to use me to get good grades. I'm several (~3-4) years ahead and working on my Master's degree in Mathematics, and because everyone thinks I'm a fucking genius, they try to use me as a connection.
>inb4 normie for being smart
It's the one thing I have going for me.
I've heard youngfags with the same mentality at your age do a complete 180 at uni. Shit, you'll probably end up with a gf and few friends and come back here giving advise.
Sounds like you could be show early signs of schizophrenia, OP. Have you ever hallucinated before? Do you have blunted emotions?
I'm schizophrenic. The illness can get pretty bad, I'm not gonna lie. But it's a lot better if you catch it early and get on meds.
>I've heard youngfags with the same mentality at your age do a complete 180 at uni. Shit, you'll probably end up with a gf and few friends and come back here giving advise.
I'm too far gone. p. sure I've developed some kind of mental illness or defective subconscious that deters any sort integration with
normiesociety. Severe anxiety, probably.
You can't just dismiss my pain just because of my age, man. Different individuals bring about a different situation, sure, but the output is relatively the same no matter what. I've cried and suffered just as you have.
i feel this feel OP
what makes me feel different even from robots is seeing threads of robots trying to date normies and giving younger members advice like "befriend the normies even if this and that"
i genuinely feel no connection to normies. i have nothing in common, our personalities are always opposites, i never feel a click with anyone. no one in high school felt like they got me and the same goes for college. stopped dating sites because no women felt like they had anything to offer me nor did i have anything for them
i feel like i'm sort of doomed to just be alone, it's not an anxiety or narcissism thing but just a lack of connection. just fuck man, lol.
>I'm too far gone
If you say so. You know yourself better then random anons.
But you have to understand you are 18, so I can't take anything you say serious. You will have so much more shit tossed at you in the next few years. You won't be the same person you are now 5 years later.
I feel you man. I did connect with a few people back in high school, or I think I did. I've become so disconnected with everything I can't even recall if it was real or I want to believe it was real.
I met a few cool guys at uni, but didn't know what to say so we could hang out without coming off as a weirdo. That was 2 years ago and they were the only person I felt that connection with since high school.
Fucking being emotionally stunted man. Shit ruins your life.
I was gonna say join a club regarding your interests but you have no interest in congregating with people that have shared interests/experience to you.
Idk what to say with the "jaded with humans" thing since i'm basically in the same boat as you. Do hella (psychadelic/dissociative) drugs? Large amounts of mind altering chemicals could help un-jade you. Worst thing to happen is you end up dead/tarded and seems to me like you aren't seeming to mind destroying your consciousness since it seems to be pretty fucked.
inb4 "where do i get drugs with no connex" wal-mart sells cough syrup and morning glory seeds amongst other likely candidates
You have no idea how much university or college can potentially change you. And this has nothing to do with social issues. Working while going to school, making and utilizing good study habits, having close to full responsibility for yourself, time management, and managing money are HUGE steps in both finding out and changing what kind of person you are.
This is coming from a completely friendless loser college graduate who's still working a minimum wage job. I am nowhere close to the person I was when I entered college. Whether or not the change you undergo is positive or negative is completely up to your attitude and the choices you make.
How to try and make friends while schooling? Firstly stop thinking "I want a friend" this thing works like love - comes when you least expect it.
Make friends outside of school is the way to go. Go on meetup.com and join events related to stuff you like. For me its always life drawing and language exchange, these are excellent ways to socialise with normies without the torture because you're so focused on practising something that the social part is non existent.
If you are bilingual or you just enjoy helping some gooks with English, download hellotalk on your phone also make an interpals and look for only people in your city.
If you look attractive, go on tinder and friend zone girls. Don't try to fuck them, tell them you only want to make friends (this will also drive the bitches crazy) infiltrate their lives, fish out information from them about where there are events or other happenings. Then go to those events or happenings at your own time.
Any skill or anything you are good at: normies will try to tool you. Don't be a fool, you are the smart one with a desirable skill set/intellect. Tool them instead. Make them work for what they want from you. If you're topping the class and they ask for help with assignments, let them treat you to free food in exchange for helping them (and help them by spoonfeeding them. So that they don't get as good as you and you can keep tooling them) don't be defeated by the normies guys, especially not when you do have a trait that makes you a better person