You are locked from this thread if you have ever
>had a meaningful discussion with a girl
>had prolonged eye-contact with a girl
>had a sexual encounter with a girl
>enjoyed the company of females
>had a female friend
>held a girl's hand
>kissed a girl
or if you are a female.
I once had a chubby qt blonde grill in 8th grade flirt with me but I was too autistic and thought she was making fun of me or something.
>7 years later and have had no relationships
>Looking back I always expected them to talk to me first I never really tried to initiate anything for fear of being humiliated
>Not ugly, just anxious and way too serious
>Last month I turned 20
>My sister who is 6 years younger than me just got her first bf
>I can't take it anymore
>Younger brother is getting married before I've even had my first kiss
God, please, just end my fucking life, I'm too much of a pussy to do it myself.
I just want someone to cuddle with, or hug me when I'm having a bad day.
Hell it doesn't have to be a real hug, I'll take an online *hug* even...
I just want to feel some affection in my life for once.
Not a KV since I've done a few things with a few women, but goddamn, I just want to stick my dick into some pussy. I really, really want the feeling of sticking my rock hard dick into some warm, wet, tight pussy of some bitch with nice, big titties with big fat nipples and a fat ass I can slap all night if she wants me to.
>stick my dick into some wet, tight pussy
>fat nipples and fat ass that I can slap all night
I really don't want any of this. Don't get me wrong, though. I'm attracted to girls and I like the idea of sex, it's just that the act of sex itself and the idea of exchanging fluids with another person is repulsive to me. I will never be that guy who slaps asses and tears off clothes. It's not in me.
Even if I did manage to get a girlfriend who is as reserved as I am, she would still expect me to play the man in the relationship and show her how it's done. Shy people have no place with sex. Sex isn't tender or gentle. Women are sickened by that shit. It fills them with pure, unadulterated hatred to see a man who cannot take charge. I imagine that this is because for over a hundred-thousand years, when we were living in caves and swinging clubs, women were men's property and were freely traded from tribe to tribe, a tradition (think of dowries for instance) that has only been ended in the last century in many parts of the world and is, although our modern sensitivities will deny this, the natural order of things. Women settled into their role as property and any effort on their part to liberate themselves and essentially become men is self-deception and, in my own words, acrobatic denial.
Anyway, living in the world post-sexual revolution, we are emerging from a society where men were protected from knowing women's true nature as women were too oppressed, and rightfully so, to express power over them. A man could enter a relationship with the idea that he was taking the virginity of an innocent flower rather than a would-be whore, which all women are. After all, life in the civilized world requires some suppression of human nature, especially that of females.
Who else feels uncomfortable when people look at you in public?
I always assume they are disgusting by me or whatever.
This morning a girl looked at me for not even a second and I felt nervous for minutes after.