All I have to do point the barrel at my head and pull the trigger and all of this will be over.
>why is it so hard?
You even said the instructions to yourself dumbass. If you can't even figure out how to shoot yourself then I guess you are that idiot everyone you know thinks you are.
I would tell you not to do it, but it doesn't really matter.
Just make sure that you shoot straight. Make sure that you hit the brain-stem straight on. You don't want to be a vegetable.
How gruesome do you think suicide with an M44 would be? Will the exit wound be pretty clean?
I've seen suicides with guns before and the whole backside of the head is blown out, or are those with shotguns?
there's a small part of me that has hope.
the thing is i have some serious learning disabilities, ADHD or SCT. I'm hoping it can be fixed with meditation that i've been trying, but if i don't notice improvment in a month i think it's going to be another dead end. pair that with being ugly and well... yea.
and, will do.
Dont do it paul. ill let you ride in my boat when Im done.
no shit ppl. even the people that eventually ended up killing themselves, at one point, were also unsure about killing themselves, and put it off.
so no one wants to do, until that final moment when they work up the courage to do it.
Survival instinct. Only the truly bold will purposely pull the trigger. Cowards are more likely to live out their days doing the bare minimum. Youll get scared enough to not do it, then bounce back to minimum wage slaving.
dunno for some reason I always think tomorrow itll be better
Don't worry. Kaworu will be there to help you ascend to the next life when that bullet exits the back your skull. Unless you flinch like a pussy with no resolve then you're on you're own. No salvation for vegetables.
This. Work your way up to the event with an empty weapon that way when the time comes and you for sure are ready...you'll know what to expect. Otherwise you'll end up like me: In a wheelchair for the rest of my life typing through the use a straw in my mouth. PREPARE YOURSELF, OP IF YOU WANT TO DIE!!