>mother was protective and sheltered me
>father was neglectful and uninvolved
>now my shit is permanently fucked up
Pretty much me. He paid everything but there was no relationship/emotional connection. He's a very social person too so I don't understand. Now I'm a reclusive "introvert" that only talks on the internet.
>raised by just my mum
>fast forward 20 years
>femdom fetish, giantess fetish, want to be a pet
>was raised by my grandmother
You fuckers do realize that this is worse than being raised by your mom?
Also, I'm highly attracted to slightly bigger, older women. I wonder if this is how most guys raised by women turn out to be.
First step is realizing that it's all your own fault. If you make it past that without offing yourself you might be able to rebuild.
I know "the grass is greener", but I think I'd prefer a single dad to a single mom. I love my mom very much but I don't know how to be a man. I'm a bonafide beta male who can't be around anyone without breaking into a sweat.
>tfw mommy issues
>tfw anxiety disorder
>tfw will never be in a functional relationship
with the amount of things that can go wrong in childhood, it's amazing how many normal people there are
>Mother treated (and still tries to) me like a toddler
>Wouldn't allow me to use a computer for more than an hour a day, told me to "go up and down the road on your bicycle" when I was fucking 14
>Can't code for shit now, all I wanted was to dick around with my computer
>Father is a member of Opus Dei and did whatever he could to prevent me from being gay, insulted and still insults me at every opportunity and thinks I'm an idiot.
>I get offered a high paid sysadmin job in Sweden, my father tells me I'm an idiot and assumes it's some shitty callcenter job, my mum gets worried about me dropping out of college.
That's the reaction I get to anything, my mum worries and my dad insults me. Oh yeah, they divorced when I was young so my earliest memories are of divorce drama.
I actually look forward to my father dying, I'm going to smoke heroin in the bathroom at his funeral because he would have hated that. I would be tempted to read a eulogy insulting him but I gotta keep up appearances and shit I guess.
Im starting to feel that normies are fucking weirder than me but just are more comfortable with their imperfections than I am.
Ex. Guy i've been friends with, chad AF, military, hoes etc, likes bbc and cuck porn. Has visited a brothel/ gotten girls on backpage
Ex. Stoner working at a coffeeshop wanting to be an actor keeps talking about his hoghschool gf's everytime i see him
Ex. One of my bff's that now works in washington for ted cruz, still talks about how he'll always be a kv in the eyes of girls he went to highschool with.
Your mothers may have dealt you the initial bad hand, but it's up to you to exchange the cards or hold what you were dealt.
>mom was rather busy working all the time trying to support 3 kids after divorcing my dad
>dad got caught cheating and was kicked to the curb and i rarely saw him.
Had my parents stayed together or done anything different when raising me i'd still have probably turned out as I did. I'm borderline retarded, you really can't fix stupid.
Hahaha, CHRIST. This post is relatable down to the exact fetishes.
You can wallow and yell all you want, you know I'm right (child of a single mother here too)
How do I exchange 20 years worth of fucked up cards?
The dealer isn't taking them back.
>Father is weak-willed, perpetually fearful
>Even though I tried to be nothing like him I ended up with those two exact traits
>Mother has always hated me for being weak and afraid
jdimsa to be frank kin
I just realized there are so many things that could be responsible for turning me into a robot, SO MANY potential points of just fucking my shit up that I probably never stood a chance.
I was raised by a single mother and I'm doing okay.
Except I want a big strong woman to bully me for being a loser and then hold me close like a child and embrace me and stroke my hair.
But besides that, I'm okay.
Yeah he always gets other women to crush on him because he's funny/charismatic. Has to cut off friendship with them because they're married and husbands not liking that shit. I don't even know.
i'm pretty sure i was an accident, because of how much my mom coddled me and how much my dad seemed to just hate being around me
>Nobody else knows this feel
I'm seeking the most fool proof and most painful way to an hero. I'm thinking that it would be self immolation. Can anybot here offer some good suggestions on how to accomplish this?
My thought is to drink some flammable liquid (gasoline) and pour it all over myself, light a torch, exhale onto the torch, then immediately inhale to draw the flame inside me, then apply the torch to my gasoline soaked skin.
Maybe I'm just an edgelord, but I deserve to die, and I deserve to suffer while I do it. Will this work? Am I full of shit?
I hate when this board manages to hit so close to home
Just add in being poor and you brew a perfect robot