I am a 20-year-old Mormon who will probably not end up going on a mission. My social anxiety (partly increased from me knowing some parents of deacons are thinking "I can't let my boy end up like THAT kid, bless his heart") has lead me to the point of not even going anymore. I haven't gone for over a year. They assigned me to a new home teaching companion in an attempt to invite me back in the fold and I just flake on going. I feel like my past spergy behavior has made it impossible to improve my status, even though I know I could do a little better now if it weren't for my anxiety over my past spergy behavior ruining any chance I have at improving my status.
I still read the BOM sometimes. I went to one of my classmate's Homecoming talk (at a different ward), and I liked being there, but I don't feel going to a new ward is the answer, cause I feel like my anxiety over making a good impression would cripple my ability to interact with the ward members and sour my image right off the bat.
What should I do senpai?
Not a mormon, but grew up in Salt Lake, so..
I hear there are retard missions, where they have you greet people at the front door of the visitor's center. You could try that for a month, and then come back, and depending on how you feel, ask about going on a real one.
Mormonism has gotta be the worst religion for robots. I'm not too familiar on the doctrine but just the huge emphasis on community would have made me kill myself. Hope it works out for you, OP.
And obviously ignore people like that OP, though I'm sure if you knocked on some doors you'd get far worse. Actually, maybe just do that on your own instead of the retard mission. Sell some BS cleaning product, and see try to build some thick skin. Then maybe you'll be ready for the reaction you get when you try to pitch Mormonism to people, and definitely able To handle the pressure of interacting with members of the congregation.
grew up mormon here
>tfw lost faith in God
>now 100% sure fedora tipping atheist
>still holding onto Mormon moral values
I feel like an alien. To be honest I want to be a part of the Christian society, but I just can't believe in God.
>tfw my mom gives 10% of her income to the Church
>if she doesn't she'll be denied entry to the temple
>her income is government disability
>government money is going toward the church
there are actually people who don't see a problem with this
fellow mormon here
2bh i'd recommend talking with a bishop about it and praying. normie advice in the church, i know, but sometimes it works. if you don't serve a mission because of social anxiety i am sure the Lord would understand. if you can't stand going to the whole service anymore, at least try to get the sacrament - it will help.
bless you anon.