>>25946765 why does everyone say that? if he's making a checklist of things to do before suicide, he's trying to clear his conscience and truly ensure that he wants to die. fuck off telling people to grow up. some people ARE grown, and have lingering regrets that they're trying to clean up. holy shit you're an idiot.
Hey mate you can still come back. And if not it's not like you were a NEET for years like most of this board, it's not that hard getting another one. Point is, don't feel like you have to go through with it if you don't want to after all.
>>25948779 On probation, but everything that used to be legal (such as being NEET) is now a violation of probation and could get me sent to prison. I'm in "treatment" right now, but basically they're telling me to admit illegal things I never did, otherwise I'm refusing treatment and could get thrown in prison. On the other hand, if I do admit to whatever they say, though, they can tell my probation officer and have me, you guessed it, thrown in prison.
>mom calls me at work > says she's worried about me and wants to tell me something off the phone >truth is I've been abusing drugs >racked up about 1400 dollars > mom confronts me about this >confess and say it was because of strippers > believes me, safe for another day
>>25946125 Depends, would you like to feel happy again? If you're dead, you can't experience it anymore. It all ends right there the moment you die. It's a permanent solution to what might be a temporary problem.
If you really exhausted all your resources and tried everything you could to fix your problems and also reached and asked help from outsiders, I don't really know what else you could do at that point.
But I can tell you this, instead of killing yourself. Why don't you start living as if you've got nothing to lose anymore? I mean, what's worse than death? Are you anxious because people laugh at you and make fun of you? That's nothing compared to being dead. So fuck 'em.
I don't know what kind of problems you have OP but I' m sure they're bad since you think of killing yourself. Just remember that once you go through with it, there is no going back. I'm gonna sound like a happy go lucky faggot but there is so much to see and do out there.
If you can beat this moment of weakness you'll understand that whatever happens after that moment, can't be worse than killing yourself. You are all out of ducks to give but instead of enjoying this freedom you're ending what can be a beautiful fucking life.
And hey, if it doesn't work out you can always do what you want to do right now. The means to kill yourself don't go anywhere but time won't wait for you.
>>25950428 I've been on the brink of suicide twice. Failed the first time and couldn't go through with it the second time because of what happened the first time. After a while I decided that I owe nothing to anyone and that I'm better of caring only about myself. Of course I have a few good friends and family etc. But what the fuck do they care about muh feelings. They're not going to be there for me all the time and social workers don't give a fuck about me as long as I pay up. Seeing threads like these always hurts me because I was in the same situation. I know that my response to OP might sounds corny or whatever but in my case it's the truth. Losing all hope was freedom for me.
>>25951833 I'd like to go more in depth, but knowing how much 4chan supports the police, the discussion would go nowhere. Basically, if I go to jail, suicide becomes 100x harder, and I'm gonna have a tough enough time just hanging myself in my house.
>>25951962 No, I mean any time someone on 4chan says that the police arrest innocent people or need political reform, it turns into memes like "he a good boi!" As for the "crime"? Idk. That's not the issue. The problem is, once you're on probation, everything you do is monitored. Technically, part of my " treatment" is that I'm not supposed to use the internet for at least a year. Yeah, right.
>>25952159 You know, they haven't quite figured that out. First they were saying it was sexual abuse, then they changed it to physical abuse, then to statutory. Basically dated a girl who was 16 and her dad got pissed.
Shit, planning to kill yourself actually sounds like a great idea.
Hear me out.
Knowing how little life you have left makes the last moment so much richer in their meaning. If anything, knowing when you die is almost like being in control of whatever happens, Think about it: someone or something puts you down, fuck it more reason to die. Something lightens your mood, well, I guess you can think about that. I will say this though, I don't think your "due date" should be so soon". You wanna die? Give yourself a year, or maybe half that if you're impatient, but a year flies quickly. Have the method and everything else covered, buy those supplies now. And then, for a year or so, live. Have an epiphany that maybe stops you before you do kill yourself or go to your grave without doubts. Imagine how important your life would become, even if it was because of how miserable it will be. maybe it even pushes you to do things you always pushed off to "later" and you really do something with yourself. If anything I'm considering doing the same now; I need to get my shit together in terms of my own projects, so I might just do that. I suggest you do too, whoever you are (and I'm referring to whoever reads this. Make something of yourself)
>>25952322 I was 21 at the time, but in my defense, she did what all teenage girls do and lied about her age (she said 18). We got to second base, but that's not really the issue. I'm on probation. I've seen how desperate they get to throw people back in jail (especially in states where the crime rate is low). The private jails need their money, after all.
>>25952310 You know, all this stuff started a year and a half ago. I've really exhausted all the time I had in desperation that things might one day get better. The state has killed any options I had left. I'm not even allowed to go back to my family. I'm as ready as I'm ever going to be, and I'd rather do it now than wait until it's too late.
>>25952461 Well then, all my concern now is mostly selfish, this morbid curiosity of interacting with someone whose hopeless. If you wanna continue talking outside of this, gimme a skype id or something. If not, our brief brush still left me with something I might never forget. You make sure to go out with a bang
>>25951437 Have you ever been sick for a week and you finally sneeze all the crap out of your nose and it's raw from the constant sneezing and infection, and it burns like hell every time you breathe in?
>>25952702 Like my current plan is to use a necktie, hang myself and hang myself from my closet rail, but I don't want my flailing body to create enough noise to where they come in and get me before I'm dead.
>>25952788 I'm spending my money on any funeral services my parents want. If I ran away, there's still be a warrant for my arrest, only then I'd be out of a place to live. Suicide is the safest thing for me, I think.
>>25952775 From my knowledge, closet rails can't support the weight of a person, but if you're sure this one can, then I'd say to just block entrances to prevent help getting to you. Plus, and this comes from seeing movies, if you're not a main character you should die pretty quickly once hanging
Doorknobs can hold the entire weight of a person. I know this from using a doorknob to explain how to use a prusik knot to ascend a rope, using the doorknob as a hypothetical anchor. I was messing around and ended up putting all of my weight on the rope hanging around it just to test it out and sure enough it was able to hold me.
Forgot to mention that I'm a 5'6" 120lb manlet cuck faggot, of course.
>>25946125 If you guys are feeling down just chant this in your head every day. Everyday, somehow someway, I'm getting better. As a person, character, socially, career, physically, it dosen't matter as long as I'm getting better in my own eyes. What people say and think about me dosen't matter because I'm getting better at something everyday. One step at a time is how I will continue to live life. I will try not not look down on myself anymore because I'm getting better. No matter how slow I will get better, I promise myself I will never stop getting better until the day I die. One day I'll show everyone just how better I've gotten. Telling myself this has lowered my anxiety in social situations, you guys should try this. It'll help your confidence. Pic unrelated mate.
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