I've been trying very hard to fix my life over the past two years.
I can't endure much longer. This isn't a suicide post really. If I do it I won't come here in my last moments for a goodbye. I'm just saying it now I guess while I'm still here, goodbye, /r9k/, you were always there and so was I in return.
You're hitting rock bottom, yeah? So when are you finally going to stop caring about the world and everyone around you? When are you going to be self-centered enough to think that girls are around for you especially to interact with, so you can at the very least be some asshole in a girl's life?
I dunno, being a hhkv sucks hard and I'm not going to act like the anxiety isn't there, but there should be certain levels of liberation that come with hitting rock bottom, and I feel like you're making excuses for not utilizing them.
>>25941112 They don't completely miss the mark, it's entirely true. If you don't break down and just be scum, then you're holding yourself back on purpose. In that case, it's not your looks, personality, environment, the girls around you, the guys around you, or anything. You just suck and stay lonely because you won't let yourself be happy, because you /like/ moping around and acting like the world has cheated you.
>>25941162 Anon, I'm not going to post ITT any more, but you are wrong. I'm not bitter or cynical, I don't place blame on anything, I'm not misogynist, I don't look too bad, I don't hold myself back, I have broadened my horizon and experiences, I have sought help, I don't have feels about wanting a gf any more, I have not had a crush/infatuation in years, I can't relate to most robots, I'm not self centered, I don't think I deserve anything for simply existing and being miserable, I don't want to be some asshole in girls life, casual sex does not interest me, I'm no longer a romantic so even intimacy is not appealing.
There is no liberation with these feelings. There's nothing to let go. I'm not insecure, anxious, stressed or worried, I have been a failure but tried fixing myself so I could be happy, not out of necessity to please my family despite how much they did for me.
These are not excuses. I'm not avoiding anything. I have tried many things not even mentioned above to improve myself, followed it for a year or months at a time.
Goodbye, /r9k/. I'm not going to say I like you all, for most of you are arrogant, repulsive, cynical, self centered and irrational. But you did shape me.
Given regular life expectancy is 80 years, you still have 2/3 left. You don't know if it's going to be better or worse during that time.
Most people in the western world rate their life a 6/10 or higher. This means that generally life is more good than it is bad. Therefore, the chance your life will be good is higher than that it will be bad.
I don't know about your particular situation and how shit your life is. I can imagine if someone has lost everything that matters to him, the chance the rest of life will be shit as well is higher.
There are three things that generally make you happy: health, relationships, and wealth.
If you're lacking in one area you might think life is completely shit - it's like a multiplication, if one variable is 0, then the end result will also be 0.
For example, if your health is bad, you might have no motivation to work or make friends. Wealth and relationships suffer as well because of health. What is your eating pattern like? Bad eating habits and too little good fats mess up your brain chemistry. Fish oil and vitamin D helped with depression for me. Meds also help for lots of people to get out of depression.
I was very lonely at some point (also kissless virgin) but finding a friend in the same situation improved that alot. Now I'm just a virgin.
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