>show up to aa group meeting on ecstasy
>realize how obvious it was that I was high
>have to go to this place and see the same people for another year still
3 years sober in AA
people show up drunk all of the time
if anything they're happy you're there because they know you're in the right place or at least trying/the judge wants you to be there
tl;dr yeah nobody cares faggot lol
They see this shit all the time, and even if they didn't there's few places you're going to get more genuine understanding. Good luck with your recovery, mate. It is worth the journey by far.