I'm not sure I believe my parents/teachers who say drugs are not the road to happiness. Sure, being a meth whore doesn't look too glamorous, but maybe in moderation, a small dose of a mild drug wouldn't be such a bad thing.
I am 35 years old and have tried everything else. I eat healthy (Fuhrman's diet paleofags, though I did that for a while too), take long walks, get small amounts of sun, take B12 supplements, do yoga, read books, play an instrument, have a decent albeit rather low paying job (but I have a small apartment and few possessions, another thing on the list, so I don't need a ton of cash) hang with a couple friends 2-3 times a week and go to counseling.
And... I'm just not happy. I tried a couple different religions (didn't care about those edgy atheist points, if I could trick myself into believing them, that's all that matters), but it just didn't click. I do volunteer work, and it doesn't make me feel anything. I don't care about poor people. I tried keeping journals and writing a memoir of my life, and it just made me want to shoot myself.
I don't identify with those people who have severe depression but then again nothing else is really working here. I haven't felt happy since I was 17, and if Zoloft or whatever can help me recapture that, so be it! Side effects be damned!
Anyway, what do you guys think? Should I do it? What's your experience, and what's the best drug?
I'm not concerned about that. What does concern me is that I've heard people who take zoloft can't take a proper piss. Also, I hear it gives some people more of a flat mood as opposed to a happy one.
pissing was fine
but cumming was extremely difficult and painful
its not good for your dick
as for the flat mood, im not sure. it didnt feel like it affected my mood that much at all. i had my dosage upped twice, but all that did was make the dick related side effects worse
obviously zoloft effects different people differently and my anecdotes are worthless
i dont want to scare you out of trying it just because it messed with my dick
its not like you have anything to lose by trying it
after i stopped taking it, my dick went back to normal
Stay away from all antideppresants at all costs, but especailly SSRI and SNRI's like Zoloft or Lexapro. Literally take anything else to make yourself feel better.
Men especially shouldn't be dulled into flat lined submission by a drug designed to take away the raw emotions that will cause you to take action in your life - to seek real change and accomplish real things.
Smoke week, drink alcohol, take benzo's, take drugs, lift weights, live and feel raw emotion - pain, anger, joy, take more risks.
If your shrink is dead set on prescribing you something, get xanax or klonopin for your anxiety and enjoy having your mood lifted
It helped me completely. I am not sure about the side effects differences between male and females, but I don't see any harm in giving it a shot if monitored by a trained doctor/ shrink.
Nigger drug is the best drug.
weed is kinda an anti-depressant
Opioids op. If you never run out, you'll live in blissful apathy forever. Life on easy mode. If you run out though, you'll wish you were dead. And once you taste that forbidden fruit, life will never be the same. PAWS makes me want to die more than the acute withdrawal. All I have to look forward to is the 2 days a week I get some dope. I know I'll pick up a habit again, but who gives a fuck? Two years of that numbness has made sobriety worthless.
I recommend it because it stopped me from killing myself. But dopesickness will compound all the pain you avoided by 100x. Your choice op. Do you want a life free from pain as long as you got sweet misses morphine?
T. Junkie noddington
i take a lot of codine OP, crazy amounts
do a CWE and you'll be sweet
i love taking it on a rainy sunday and sleeping in and waking up every few minutes feeling completely euphoric
Have you ever had your testosterone levels measured op? It doesn't get talked about much but low testosterone is a pretty common cause of depression, when I started taking a small dose of test each week my depression disappeared, confidence skyrocketed and I dont feel constantly tired anymore. Just be aware that the doctors might tell you you are in the normal range, but the normal range is ridiculously low, you could have the levels of an 80 year old and be considered normal.
pretty bad depression here
I'm almost at my wit's end for things other than drugs to help me
things I've tried:
>exercise (i'm extremely fit, go to the gym most days)
>having a perfect diet
>playing music and producing music
but it seems to be the opposites that actually do anything. the last times I've felt genuine happiness was doing these things
I've fucking tried man. I've fucking tried the healthy way for four fucking years and it hasn't done a thing
Yes. I've been on suboxone, methadone, kicked like 30 times and been to 2 rehabs and one state run detox. I just can't stay clean. That fuzzy stumbly clumsy floaty numb apathetic feeling is impossible to escape. I'm only 18 and heroin already ruined me. I too, wish I could just go back. Never take those Vicodin after surgery, I didn't need to, the pain wasn't very bad. But I wanted that feeling more than anything cause it finally made me feel OK. You can't escape. Life is never the same.
Remember this post in 6 months when you do your first shot.
I hope you make it. But just remember, the dead junkies are the lucky ones. This life is hell with dashes of heaven, and you will never escape. No regrets and no turning back. Choose life, right?
You guys should probably go watch anime or fap to loli or whatever you fags do.
>in b4 op said he doesn't have severe depression
>op is just being a lil bitch basically since he was 17
Godspeed, anon. Pray you escape. I hate to bury another.
That's about the age the first of my buddies lost it, either through stupidity or through just plain apathy. Ended up dead in a shooting gallery. They just shoved him outside.
Know that at least someone has sympathy, anon.
they're called "manifestos" for the people here.
just look this. don't you just want to bury your nose in this pile?
looks deliciously vinegary senpai
haven't been happy in years. ain't life grand?
There's unhappiness and then there's living hell.
I'd rather be just slightly unhappy, even depressed for the rest of my life than ever realize how high euphoria actually goes and never be able to reach it again without a sniff.
Fuck that. The OP wants to know how to be happy, not how to annihilate himself.
SSRIs just made me feel blank in an unpleasant way. Try tianeptine and/or pregnenelone. Meditation is the path through the general sense of dissatisfaction that pervades all forms, but it takes dedication.
I started another new anti-depressant today. When the doctor was talking all I could think about is how my life can be chaptered by the different medications I've taken, and how after years I still haven't found one that helps at all. If drugs are the path you want to go down I wish you the best outcome, but for me I still feel as empty as I ever have, probably more
Having done it for a few years now, I would agree with using whatever (short acting) drug makes you feel good. Personally I love opiates for depression, but if you're going to do that, keep it level around 30mg a day for the strong stuff for as long as you can it'll make it easier to come off if you need/want to. But if you want to go the legal route, prescriptions for benzos like Klonopin and Ambien are incredibly easy to get - at least in the U.S. and Amphetamines like Adderall and Vivance are pretty easy to get too.
>Say you can't sleep
>Crush, insufflate, and repeat until sadness goes away.
>Do this every day.
But if that's not for you, and you genuinely want to try anti-depressants, I would go with something like Effexor or Wellbutrin, since they're not SSRIs and they won't give you a limp dick. But I would stay on a relatively low dose: i.e. ~75mg for Effexor; not sure about Wellbutrin or Tryciclic anti-depressants. That way you'll get a little of the happiness boost without feeling like its only the drugs doing it. By the way, a low dose rather than a regular dose will actually increase your sexual stamina. But do therapy, and also try to get some benzos or Amphetamines to go with it, just so you'll have something to look forward to taking.
Thanks, anon. Yes.
It's funny, people say that starting out and then their weekend habits start turning into daily bread.
There's absolutely no such thing as a moderate junk habit.
Eh, it's true. I deal with major depression, and I need constant positive stimuli to keep me going. I used to drink more, and do stimulants but the comedowns just tore me to shreds. There are always ways to get laid, and they increase life satisfaction on a very basic level. I know I'm supposed to assume everyone on here is a hopeless virgin. But I don't.